Two years I've known this day was going to come. I made the deal, and I don't regret it. I had two years with Dean I wouldn't have had otherwise. And Dean's alive, and that's what matters. I'd do it all over again, for him, to save him.
But now that it's time, and I've got less than 14 hours left, I'm scared. I don't want to die. I don't want to go to hell. The hounds are going to come get me. I could have stopped them. I should have killed Lilith. Why didn't I kill her?
My life isn't worth more than the world. I'm only one person. I'm not even anyone special. I'm just me, just Sam. Killing Lilith would have broken my contract, but it would have doomed everyone else. I couldn't do that, I couldn't doom the world for just a few more days with my brother.
I don't even know if the debt can be collected here. Dean seems to think maybe not. If Lilith was here, if she had any control here, she would have showed herself, by now. Unless coming after me to collect on my contract is her big reveal. I desperately want to believe she has no pull here, that she can't reach me here. I guess we'll find out at midnight.
Today feels like both the longest and the shortest day of my life.