Week Four: Saturday
Where: Their Suite
When: Saturday Night after Rebecca's post
What: God these kids are stubborn
More than a week had passed, and still he remained. Nearly two weeks. His only movement had been to his classes, and then he was right back to his self appointed station.
And Diarmad called Anastasiya stubborn.
How many times had she gone to the door, thinking to open it, to speak to him, to plead with him, to convince him as she’d failed to do already. He was free, as free as he could be. No, Asya couldn’t offer him that, but she gave what she could. Not good enough, but there was nothing more to do. Nothing short of ending both of their lives. And that he wouldn’t allow either. Of course, neither would she. She didn’t want to die, didn’t want Diarmad to die, and thought that perhaps, he wouldn’t want her dead either.
But Asya never knew what of what he said and did was duty, and what might be more.
She’d thought… perhaps… after all, it had seemed so. But she’d been wrong, hadn’t she? Like a servant girl broken and weeping at his feet. She had, in that moment, given her all for him, left herself completely bare. Nothing. There was nothing from him.
And it was Anastasiya that so many called Icy.
It was servants that spoke to him, every few hours, and reported back to their mistress. Always the same word. No Mistress, he’ll not relinquish his post. Short of causing a scene in the hallway, which she felt his continued presence their did regardless, Asya was at a loss in what to do. There was one who’s opinion she always valued in such tough situations, but he was currently standing outside her door like, well… like she was a princess and he her guard.
No, the irony was not at all lost on her. If irony was even the right word. Whatever it was… Asya was at a loss. Not to mention she felt humiliated, doubly so, and a sickness in the pit of her stomach that had begun in Germany and begun to fester the night of her return. That Diarmad had not slept was obvious to her, mostly because she had not either. Not one day or night since then, though, in the beginning she had tried. Neither had she fed. Her time anymore was spent gazing at the door as though she could see him through it. The problem was, no matter how much she wanted to push him away, and make him go away… she didn’t at all want him to. She wanted him right there by her side. Not as servant. As Diarmad.
Maybe if she’d never admitted it it would be less painful. Yes. She was certain it would be less painful. Before she’d prostrated herself she at least had her pride. Now she didn’t even have that. She had wealth, opulence, anything of value she could desire right at her command. But none of that mattered did it? These things she had always had. These things did nothing to fill the gaping hole in her heart. A hole more obvious now than ever before.
Work actually gave her chance to forget herself for a few hours a day. Forget herself. A strange concept, but the only way of keeping her sanity. For those few hours, the pain felt to be more of a dull throb then a piercing ache. Though a frantic journal entry from Rebecca had brought back a surge of emotion. Anger.
Her first thought was to find the culprit and give them a bit of pain of their own. And those who taunted Rebecca as well, Asya wished to see them suffer as well. She did neither… yet. The first thing she did was to go to her door. She hesitated but a moment before she opened it. “Your niece needs you.” She said. “Someone has attacked her.”