This is awkward to say via text, but you deserve to know. The one time I...did it before you? Was with Jade. In purgatory.
I could make all kinds of excuses, but the truth is, I have always cared about her. I care about you, too, and I enjoy being intimate with you very much. But I'm confused. These feelings are all still so new to me. Even the familiar ones are so much stronger, and mixed with so many others, I don't know where to begin, or how to express them.
I'm not human. And I'm afraid I'm not very good at pretending to be, either.