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[Jan. 17th, 2008|06:12 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin LXIII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: 6 to Justin 2 To Brian
AN My client's Application has to be in the mail tomorrow, but i will write more tomrrow, i promise... sorry for the short(ish) chapter.
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Hustler Justin LXIII
Whore In A Hoody
He lets me go. I push away from him and then open my eyes. I blink three times but it’s still not Isaac. “Brian?”
He doesn’t say anything and I move back into his arms. “What are you doing here?”
“You’re not supposed to leave without telling me.”
“Nuh uh, we changed the rules.”
“How did the walk home go?”
“I freaked out like five times, but I got home.”
He holds me tighter. “You think you can go back to sleep?”
I nod and he lies down next to me.
“Don’t you have to be at Babylon?”
“Justin, sleep.”
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[Jan. 8th, 2008|03:26 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin LIV (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: 10 To Justin 4 To Brian
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Hustler Justin LIV
Whore In A Hoody
He follows me to the visiting room. His hand holding onto my shirt as if assuring himself I’m actually here.
I hand him his favorite. Double cheeseburger with mustard and ketchup but he pushes it and the fries away.
“Justin, eat.”
He shakes his head and looks up. “Why did you leave me?’
Fuck, I guess I’d hoped after his warm welcome that we could just move past this.
“Eat and I’ll tell you.”
He crosses his arms. He’s lost weight, he really should eat something but it won’t make what I have to tell him any easier. I start.
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[Jan. 6th, 2008|07:03 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin LI (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: 9 To Justin 6 To Brian
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Hustler Justin LII
Whore In A Hoody
I ask him if he needs anything else. He shrugs, I glare and then he answers. “They won’t let me wear shoes and my feet get cold.”
Should I be happy he’s telling me now, or get aggravated he hasn’t mentioned this before? We go to a sporting goods store and he insists on paying for his own thermal socks.
I glance at the bag in the backseat. “I’m returning that shit for you tomorrow.”
He nods and I actually worry. Justin can be a pain in the ass, and stubborn, but he’s at his most dangerous when he’s compliant.
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[Jan. 5th, 2008|03:07 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin LI (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: 13 To Justin 5 To Brian
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Hustler Justin LI
Whore In A Hoody
I’ve given up being hopeful that Justin’s answer will be something that won’t make me cringe.
Peter asks a follow up question and Justin looks at me. “I want to do things to make Brian happy.”
Peter frowns. I don’t say a word.
“Things of a sexual nature.”
“That’s what he likes.”
“What else does he like?”
“Telling people what to do, winning at board games, and Gus.”
“Justin, are you telling me you lose on purpose.”
“Brian, it’s a sucker’s play to buy Boardwalk without Park Place.”
“You actually throw monopoly games?”
He shrugs and I shake my head.
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[Jan. 4th, 2008|03:32 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin L (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: 15 To Justin 4 To Brian
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Hustler Justin L
Whore In A Hoody
Michael is here with a really buff guy. Emmett is talking to Ted. Lindsay and a woman I assume to be Mel come in, with a bundle of winter clothing that I guess is Gus. They’re saying their hellos. Everything is so loud and then it all stops when Brian moves away from the stairs and they see me. Brian wraps an arm around my waist and steers me forward. “This won’t hurt…much.”
He smiles; he thinks it’s a joke. I realize there’s only one way to get through this. The white noise is my friend. I let myself disappear.
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[Jan. 3rd, 2008|08:35 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLIX (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: None
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Hustler Justin XLIX
Whore In A Hoody
I’m nervous. It’s the first time I’ve been outside in almost two weeks. The snow crunches on the ground.
“We can go shopping later if you want. I don’t really know your taste in clothes.”
I shrug. I don’t either. It feels weird to be wearing jeans, sneakers and a coat. I’ve spent so much time lately in sweatpants. Brian wraps his arm around me and takes my bag onto his own shoulders. I lean up to kiss him. He turns his head and guides me to the jeep. Once he’s secured my seatbelt he lights a cigarette and smiles.
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[Jan. 2nd, 2008|10:56 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLVIII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: None
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Hustler Justin XLVIII
Whore In A Hoody
I’m so glad they took down the Christmas decorations. The holidays were always rough. I’ve been talking to Peter about it. When my mom was sick we pretended she wasn’t. When she died, we pretended, for Molly that we didn’t miss her. When I was with Isaac the clients were rougher. Isaac said it’s because they hated their families and needed to relieve stress. I just know that we used to joke about me taking a couple of days off after January first. It was just a joke though. I never took time off. I guess now I’m off forever.
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[Jan. 2nd, 2008|05:15 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLVII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condoms: None
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Hustler Justin XLVII
Whore In A Hoody
We haven’t quite worked out the goodbye part yet. Around nine, when visiting hours end, his demeanor changes abruptly and he starts to retreat. I’ve tried to bring him back, convince him to talk to someone other than Peter. It didn’t work. I’ve tried slipping away without a formal goodbye. They sedated him that night. If Peter hadn’t been there to forbid it, they would have restrained him. Now I just hold him. I promise him I’ll be there the next day and he promises me he’ll be waiting. We both fear the day the other doesn’t keep his word.
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[Jan. 1st, 2008|05:12 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLVI (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): One to Justin
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Hustler Justin XLVI
Whore In A Hoody
I work on the new Remson campaign until three. I’ve smoked two packs of cigarettes, finished my last bottle of beam and still can’t sleep. His fucking father. I want to hunt the man down. I want to ask Peter why the fuck he had to tell Justin about it. I want to talk to Justin. He promised he wouldn’t do anything, hurt himself, kill himself… and he can’t, because he’s locked in a padded cell. Alone, and locked up, that can’t help him emotionally. I can’t help him emotionally. Visiting hours aren’t until five. I’ll be there. I promised.
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[Dec. 31st, 2007|08:51 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLV (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): None
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A/N More tomorrow, I promise.
Hustler Justin XLV
Whore In A Hoody
~~~505~~~
Peter and I walk to our cars.
“He’s not going to make it is he?”
“He’s a strong kid. I think he will, but he can’t do it alone.”
“I get it, I won’t abandon him.”
“It’s going to take more than you, more than me. He needs…”
“A life.”
Peter nods. “Friends, purpose, and most importantly, a sense of self that isn’t based on who wants to fuck him.”
I get in the jeep. “Well, where can I buy a life?”
Peter laughs and points at me. “Tomorrow. You promised him.”
I nod and light a cigarette. “Goodnight Peter.”
~~~506~~~
The room is cold and a burst of noise draws me back to the present. I’m not allowed a blanket or pillow so I just sit and shiver and hope the night goes quickly.
Some kids, patients are laughing and joking, occasionally peering in through the window to see who got locked up. I don’t know any of them and they don’t know me.
I wish I could talk to Brian some more, or even Peter. But then I remember about my dad and I just want to run.
The hallway is quiet again and I let myself slip away.
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[Dec. 30th, 2007|09:49 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLIV (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): None
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A/N The nanowritmo can kiss my ass, i hit over 50K words today randomly, and i've been working on this since the third of dec, so um, that's all. SUN.
Hustler Justin XLIV
Whore In A Hoody
I let my feet slide off the ledge of the tub. I try automatically to get my footing again but then close my eyes and go back to floating, the way I have been all week. Soon I won’t have to worry about it anymore. I can hear voices down the hall but they won’t be looking for me yet, not for a while. He dumped me here. He wouldn’t just leave me on the street, and once he thought I was safe, he was gone. I don’t blame him. Isaac was right; no one would want someone like me.
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[Dec. 30th, 2007|04:56 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLIII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): One to Justin
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Hustler Justin XLIII
Whore In A Hoody
On the drive home I call Peter. “I have time. I want to see him.”
“Brian, I have to meet with him first, it’ll be at least 48 hours until he’s allowed visitors.”
“He’ll hate that.”
“I’m sure he will.”
“They’ll…”
“Brian, he’s on a suicide watch. They’ll make sure he’s safe.”
I relax a little. I want to see him. I think he wants to see me. He must be scared, or maybe he’s blowing the orderlies so he can get out. Neither thought makes me happy. “Peter…”
“I’ll do what I can, but you can’t see him yet.”
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[Dec. 29th, 2007|11:28 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): None
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Hustler Justin XLII
Whore In A Hoody
That same bright light wakes me up again. I try to close my eyes against it but I can’t. When it goes away there are voices. I open my eyes but the overhead light seems insanely bright. I close my eyes and turn my head. I’m not sure what I’m doing here, or why they’re bothering but they’re covering me in a silver blanket and there’s an IV in my arm. I go back to sleep. I close my eyes and ignore it all. When I open my eyes again it’s because someone keeps repeating my name. Great, Brian’s upset.
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[Dec. 29th, 2007|04:02 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XLI (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): None
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Hustler Justin XLI
Whore In A Hoody
Justin’s at the museum. When I walk towards him the creep from last night is suddenly on him, fucking him. Justin’s crying. I move quickly but I’m then I’m strapped to a table. I’m in a hospital gown. I call for Justin and I hear him calling for Isaac. Anger fills me and the nurse pats my hand and tells me that if I don’t calm down they’ll have to remove the other testicle. I pull out of the restraints but when I get to Justin his back is bloody, like the first time. He slips into a painting, frozen.
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[Dec. 28th, 2007|03:08 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XL (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): None
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Hustler Justin XL
Whore In A Hoody
“Justin.”
He looks up at me. “I promise, Brian, I wasn’t scared.”
He was scared then, and he’s scared now, but I don’t think it’s the same fear.
“What do you think’s going to happen if Brian knows you were scared?”
He doesn’t look at Peter he looks at me. “I’m sorry.”
“For what?”
He hides again. Great.
“Justin, why are you apologizing to Brian?”
He still won’t look at Peter. “He trusted me and I messed up.”
“And you think he’ll punish you?”
My head shoots up. Is Peter insane? I’d never… Justin’s nodding against my chest. Motherfucking Isaac.
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[Dec. 27th, 2007|06:11 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXIX(Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): None
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Hustler Justin XXXIX
Whore In A Hoody
I hear him banging and yelling and I cover my ears. When I do the reality starts swirling and settling, so I curl up in my chair and let the sounds of his panic become white noise to cover my own rising sense of the same. When I close my eyes images flash. They’re skewed, they can’t be right. Isaac never looked happy or turned on when we practiced…did he? I hear a noise and realize it’s me. I’m keening. Isaac would tell me to stop. I try but I can’t. He’s not here to stop me. I get louder.
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[Dec. 26th, 2007|06:32 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXVIII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): 1 to Brian
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AN: I'm pretty sure I'll write more later tonight but I'm exhausted and i wanted to make sure something went up today.
Hustler Justin XXXVIII
Whore In A Hoody
He’s still crying but he’s stopped struggling. I release his arms and he pulls away from me, moving to the far corner. His knees are pulled up and his forehead is resting on them. He’s hiding. “Justin.” He ignores me, or doesn’t hear me. “Justin.” A little louder this time. He’s finally aware of me again and he stands up. But he doesn’t move towards me. He opens his bedroom door and has it shut and locked before I can even get to him. I bang on it. “Justin!” I hear the other two locks click. Now I’m scared. “Justin.”
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[Dec. 25th, 2007|07:31 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXVII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): 12 to Justin 3 to Brian
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Hustler Justin XXXVII
Whore In A Hoody
He leaves me with Gus while he warms up a bottle. There’s no denying he’s Brian’s son. I move him in my arms 'til he’s more comfortable and then sit back, watching Brian and trying not to think too much about Molly. It’s not that I miss her, she was four when I left, just a baby still, but I do wonder about her. Brian comes back with the bottle and hands it to me. Gus takes it contentedly.
“I did this a lot for my sister. When my mom was sick and my dad was with her.”
“I figured”
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[Dec. 25th, 2007|01:18 am] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXVI (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): All 9 to Justin
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Hustler Justin XXXVI
Whore In A Hoody
Once Gus is asleep I gently transfer him to his carrier and buckle him up. We’re going for a drive. Justin didn’t sound “fine”. I don’t speed, I don’t smoke and Gus doesn’t wake up. I ring the bell and shift Gus to my other hand. He looks confused when I open the door. “What are you doing here?”
“Gus was bored.”
Gus is sucking on his pacifier, his eyes still closed. “He looks perfectly content.”
I move to come in. “You don’t.”
He shakes his head. “Brian, get him out of here.”
“Are you with a client right now?”
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[Dec. 24th, 2007|05:53 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXV (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): All 3 to Justin
I don't know if i'll be posting more today. I have actual work to do.
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Hustler Justin XXXV
Whore In A Hoody
I start with the evening I met Isaac. I should probably write in order but I can’t do that. I’m kind of figuring out the typing thing as I go. I end up getting lost in memory. He was my savior. I know I wouldn’t have died that night, but only because I was too stupid to know what angle to use and that bleeding stops unless it’s under water. I know a lot more about bleeding now. He was everything I wasn’t, confident, sexy, cool. And he liked me. Me! The last person to like me was my mom.
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Gus is a more than a little fussy. I try every toy in his bag, and every trick I can think of. He doesn’t seem to stop crying. Lindsay was kidding about the bourbon, but I can’t help considering it. In the end I get him to take his pacifier and he falls asleep on my chest. I search frantically for the phone when it rings. I don’t want to wake up Gus.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. Why are you whispering?”
“Gus finally fell asleep.”
“Oh.”
“Justin, Gus, my son.”
“Right. Well, I’ll let you go.”
“You’re okay?”
“I’m fine. Later.”
~~~376~~~
Well, that makes no sense. Jealousy? Huh. Weird. I go back to my writing. I wanted Brian to read what I had but he’s busy. Yeah, I’ll have to do something about that jealousy. I don’t even want him here all the time, how can I be upset that he’s not? I go back to Isaac. How nice he was to me. How he listened, really listened to me. How he made me feel like it was okay to be myself. I knew it was love and I never understood 'til now why he insisted we didn’t tell anyone else.
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[Dec. 23rd, 2007|09:24 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXIV (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): 7 To Justin 5 To Brian
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Hustler Justin XXXIV
Whore In A Hoody
I push back the fear. I want that moment. The one that I first discovered with Isaac, before he started training me. The one I’d almost forgotten about until Brian. His hand pulls at my cock while I ride him and I can feel it approaching, complete abandon, one that will have no consequences. I raise myself up and slam down hard. He grunts and pushes into me, hitting just the right spot. I rock back and forth. My eyes closed, my mouth open and when it courses through my body I let myself groan loudly, then I fall forward.
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[Dec. 23rd, 2007|03:18 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXIII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): 7 To Justin 4 To Brian
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Hustler Justin XXXIII
Whore In A Hoody
I wake up and he’s wrapped around me. Occasionally he whimpers in his sleep but he doesn’t fully wake up 'til almost noon. He smiles at me sheepishly, pulling away. I just keep my arm around him. “He hated when I was too clingy.”
“Did he?”
He nods against my chest. “Sometimes I slept in the practice room so that he wouldn’t have to deal with me.”
“You chose to?”
His forehead wrinkles. “Not really, it just seemed…”
I kiss his forehead. “Let’s get showered and get something to eat.”
It’s a while before we get out of the shower.
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[Dec. 22nd, 2007|06:29 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXXII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): 6 To Justin 2 To Brian
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Hustler Justin XXXII
Whore In A Hoody
I don’t know if it’s better that he doesn’t know how wrong what was done to him is, or if he should be as full of rage for himself as I am for him. I don’t think he even really comprehends what he just told me. His face could have been on milk cartons, his father could have tried, but he was a kid who didn’t even know he was abducted. At that age, they usually assume he ran away. I hold him and he’s looking up at me. “You’re angry.”
I nod. “But not at you.”
“At Isaac again.”
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[Dec. 22nd, 2007|12:15 am] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXIX (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): 7 to Justin 4 to Brian
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Hustler Justin XXXI
Whore In A Hoody
~~~332~~~ Still Justin’s POV
He moves off of me, his head falling on the pillow. I instinctively move closer to him. He smiles and kisses the side of my mouth, running his hand over my face. “You’re beautiful.”
I turn away from him.
“Hey.” His hand is on my shoulder. I shrug it off. “Hey.” This time his hand and his voice are more insistent. “Justin. Look at me.”
I turn before I know I’m doing it. He swipes a thumb under my eye. I’m so stupid.
“What’s wrong?”
I shake my head. He doesn’t need to know how stupid I am. “I’m fine.”
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[Dec. 21st, 2007|06:33 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXIX (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): Five to Justin Two to Brian
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A/N There might be more later tonight, I've had a rough day.
Also: I've removed myself from the "most drabbles for the month" part of the challenge. I did this before I even started writing WIAH, because I was already committeed to writing at least a drabble a day.
Hustler Justin XXX
Whore In A Hoody
Justin leans his head on my shoulder. “Don’t you want to go out?”
“Do you?”
“No. I’m good here. I just thought you might want a change. You can’t be happy being stuck here with me every night.”
He’s right. I can’t, so why am I? I’m sure it’ll wear off once I’m sure he’s safe.
He kisses my jaw. “I’m safe and I’m in for the night with no clients booked for tomorrow. Go have some fun. I’ll see you on Monday.”
I nod absently but when I stand up, I’m pulling him with me. “Let’s go to bed.”
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[Dec. 20th, 2007|06:27 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXIX (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): Four to Justin
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Hustler Justin XXIX
Whore In A Hoody
He cleans up the pizza and walks the box to the trash. He spends another forty minutes making sure every crumb and scrap of packing material is gone. I stop him when he pulls out the vacuum cleaner a second time. “Justin.”
“It can’t look lived in.”
“You live here.”
“I live there” he points to his room.
“That’s why you don’t sit on the furniture?”
“I’m just not used to it.”
“To what?”
“Using it. Isaac…”
He trails off and leaves me with the image of him sitting at Isaac’s feet like a puppy never allowed on the sofa.
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[Dec. 19th, 2007|11:27 pm] |
Title: Hustler!Justin XXVIII (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): None
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Hustler Justin XXVIII
Whore In A Hoody
He seems upset that I asked him about practicing. His body got tense and his hand was running through my hair, now it’s kind of gripping my neck. “Brian?”
I feel him let out a long breath.
He turns to face me. “You don’t need to practice anymore.”
“But…”
“Listen to me. Those weren’t for you. I don’t believe for a second that he didn’t get off on it. And even if I did, it doesn’t matter. you don’t so we’re not doing that.”
“I didn’t say he didn’t get off on it. But that’s not why he did it.”
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