As some of you guys know, I had to leave before we even made it to camp. I heard you've had a rough time of it because of my decisions, and I would like to apologize. I didn't mean for him to lecture you, nor did I mean to go this long without informing you guys of what had happened.
A friend of mine was having a crisis and I made the choice to return home to be with him, rather then continue on and force him to endure this alone. You can think what you want of my priorities, but I see no reason to learn to fight, if I can't be there for the only reasons I'm fighting. My friends will always come first, especially when they're in pain and hurting.
I hope you guys enjoy your time there, and learn lots!
(And I probably just sounded like an utter bitch in that. I really am sorry, I'm just very tired).
[Filtered to Bobby]
Yes, I am more then aware I fucked up. I should have texted you and I didn't. I screwed up in my desperation to return home and it didn't occur to me.
And before you ask, yes, I think this stuff is important, but so are those close to me. I don't have a lot of people to care about, and without them...there's no reason to care about fighting or defending myself. They are what give me the strength to keep going and if I have to, I will always choose them.
I would like to actually attend a session, but I understand if you're not willing to have me after my vanishing act earlier and my words now. I'm sorry to have wasted your time, sir, and I thank you, for all that you do for us...even those of us who don't seem like we give a damn.
[Filtered to Damon]
That rain check available, love? I could use a drink after what I've done.