((Early Monday morning.))Bebe was on a mission. Probably one the medical staff wouldn’t approve of but she intended to do what she needed to do before they had a chance to notice. She’d apologise for her naughtiness later. This was too important to delay any longer.
She’d been awake for a little over 24 hours at this point. Maybe ‘awake’ was stretching it given that she’d spent most of her time drifting back off into sleep, a combination of pain and medication making her endlessly drowsy, like swimming in mud. If she was honest, the sleepiness was welcome. It was a lot easier to deal with than being awake and alert right now. The whole world seemed dark and bleak. People were dead, girls she saw in classes every day, smiling and chatting and yawning and fiddling with their hair and now dead. Here, then gone. And still more were missing, the list so long she’d just stared at it in silence when Robbie showed it to her, scanning through the names but not really seeing them because it was too much, a concept too vast for her mind to grab onto. Benji and Nathaniel were on the list, their names just printed there plain as day as if it wasn’t an abomination. Here, then gone.
It hurt, more than her crushed bones and stitched-up skin, a kind of hurt she’d never experienced before and didn’t know what to do with, didn’t know where to put it to make it manageable. It seemed impossible that the pain would ease, the horror sitting inside her chest like a tumour, eating her up bit by bit. How could this ever get better? How would normal life ever resume? If she accepted all of this then that meant it was acceptable.
( It wasn’t. )[ VANCE ]