Jun. 26th, 2018 at 10:06 AM
If he couldn’t have Kick, Lucian decided he at least wanted a fucking cigarette. He hadn’t been able to smoke for years at the facility, but at least his new addiction had made the nicotine withdrawal non-existent, or perhaps he was too drugged up to remember. It wasn’t hardly a fix for his issues, but it was something to focus on, and it’d been a calming thing from years gone by. When the feelings got overwhelming he searched for familiar answers, ones he could actually get his hands on, like wanting a smoke. He had to assume that the medlabs staff would give him hell for taking anything else that wasn’t expressly prescribed, and that was assuming he could even get his hands on it. He hadn’t networked well enough as of yet, despite his small times where he actually had energy to leave his room or really explore. Everything was touch and go, and bantering on the network was a hell of a lot easier than actually putting oneself out there. Lucian was nothing if not experienced with drugs, however, and maybe that was giving him a slight advantage here to draw from. Well, it wasn’t, because Kick was one hell of a drug to try and get over and the trick was to never let yourself go through withdrawal this bad, but it was something he was clinging to because it beat more time curled up in his room hating life.
The catch here was that he didn’t have any smokes, and the chances of any of the people he actually interacted with having any either were next to nothing, so Lucian had to venture out into the school. It was about mid-day, lunch time, but his appetite was virtually non-existent most of the time so that wasn’t something he was on the prowl for. That search had led him out the front doors were more people had congregated outside, even a couple of kids having a ‘romantic’ picnic or some shit.
Still, first things first. “Who has a smoke here?” No answer, and hell, basically no one even looked in his direction. That triggered the understated part of Lucian’s withdrawal. Kick made you feel power, it made you feel like a God, and for Collar that meant he’d spent over two years being in absolute control of his peers. People jumped when he said to jump, used their powers as directed under his control, over and over, without argument. It showcased itself in how he interacted with his fellow addicts, how his statements were more like commands that no one needed to follow anymore. Now he was a shadow of himself. Sure, he had control now in some ways, like the power to choose what to do for his life, when to sleep and when to eat, but that was soft power, understated and not at all like the absolute hard control he was used to. He whirled on his heel as he heard someone else approaching. “You got a cigarette? If not, who the hell here smokes?” It was only then that he truly took in the young woman’s appearance since before he hadn’t really cared, he just wanted someone to listen to him as the effects of withdrawal began to spike up more. Oh. Metallic skin? Or whatever, he wasn’t sure, but it likely meant that she didn’t, or couldn’t, or something. Whatever.
A different man in different circumstances might have felt sheepish, but not Lucian, and not right now. “Don’t suppose you smoke, hey?” Well, that was his attempt at lightening the mood.
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