Vas Captio Journals

Did we get a bunch of new people this week?

I swear, I keep hearing voices, but when I turn around, no one is there. Or maybe I'm losing it.

I had sex with someone that's not my boyfriend and I don't feel guilty about. I feel like I should feel guilty, but I don't. Lincoln's not here and I may never see him again. And being here sucks, so why shouldn't I have a little bit of fun when I can?

The first year after I was arrested I cried myself to sleep every night.

What the fuck
That's not what I meant to say
Fuck me

I hate everything. Fuck this place.

You hear me, Management? Fuck. You. I mean, do you guys even fucking exist? We've never seen you. We see your experiments, people get hurt, people get "released." But you've never come forward about any of your shit. ARE YOU EVEN REAL?!

Fuck all of you. Fuck all of you so hard.

Fuck this place.

Dutch and Sirius:
She's gone. Bobo is gone.

Sirius (scribbled out, so never sent):
Where are you? I don't want t I can'

Do we have anybody who went missing tonight at the black out? Everyone that I live with seems to be where they're supposed to.

I'm tired of making the lists of people that are here. I would like somebody else to actually do that for a couple of weeks because my wrist hurts. My mother told me that I was going to get carpal tunnel from typing and working on computers, but if anything the amount that I write in this damn journal is going to give it to me first.

That's the reason that I haven't been doing it, that plus the fact that sometimes other things are pretty distracting and amp up my anxiety levels higher than I, or other people it would seem, like. I need to relax, I even want to, but in a hell like this it isn't exactly easy, you know. Derek sometimes helps.

I appreciate you Derek.

[Handwriting is a bit skewed because of inebriation]

Guys...

Guys guys gusy...

I love youuuuuu

Please tell me this place isn't filled with children.

I'm reading and it looks like there's a bunch of kids, I can't handle being here, I definitely can't handle being here surrounded by children

Well, that happened.

CORA HALE.

...are you really here? I don't want you here, I want you home where it's safe

FELICITY.

I'm sorry I was such a jerk, wow.

Oooh. I do love Saint Patrick's Day! Don't really have any Irish in me, but isn't everyone a little Irish on this holiday?

-Dutch

[Felicity]
Thank you for taking care of me when I was little. It was very kind of you.

[Jo]
Do you still draw now that you're older?

[Bo]
Well, now that that's over I say you, me, Kenzi, and Sirius sample some of these green beverages and enjoy being adults!

I was kind of a little bitch as a kid, so... My apologies. On another note, happy green booze day.
-Jessica

I really don't miss being 11. Man, was I ever that stupid?

I'm going to go get plastered.

Why do grown ups lie to kids?

We're not stupid.

Ват ад?

If this is some trick you play on the new girl, Ozzie, I swear I'll hide your favorite lighter...and your head phones! Don't think I won't!

But this bed isn't too shabby...

Seriously, tho, not funny. Not funny at all.

This is a weird dream. Can you have dreams you know are dreams?

At least it has Doritos.

All right. Here's the deal. Management did something to me. When I walk into a building, the electricity kicks on and stays on for a few hours. But it's physically draining for me. So if the situation is serious and you need power, let me know.

-Rachel

Fuck this weather.

Hey. I need a couple people for a project, if you're all willing.

There's talk of bonfires and communal safety and I think in general it's a good idea if we set one up in the town center. Kenzi and I were throwing around ideas for a perimeter, and basically what I want to do is use the energy of multiple fires set at different locations (to act as the energy source) to fuel to an alarm in case something nasty crawls across it.

We'd just need to maintain the center fire as a magical link will connect it to the rest.

Is this map accurate though?

Blackouts are lame. Where are you guys finding your candles?

-Jessica

If he's here
What in Calamity
I told her

When the Great Transfersion happened, Steelheart took power and other Epics allied themselves with him. One of them was named Nightwielder.

Nightwielder blocked out the sun, moon, and stars over all of Newcago and surrounding areas, so that for ten years we lived in perpetual darkness.

You get used to it! Not too bad, eh? Just lucky no one farmed anything because sparks is it hard to grow stuff without sunlight. It's why we import most of our stuff into Newcago.

[her handwriting is much messier than usual and slanted downward]

I know it isn't the easiest to tell time in this place, but I'm pretty damn sure the sun should be up by now.

-Bo