Vas Captio Journals

I hate everything. Fuck this place.

You hear me, Management? Fuck. You. I mean, do you guys even fucking exist? We've never seen you. We see your experiments, people get hurt, people get "released." But you've never come forward about any of your shit. ARE YOU EVEN REAL?!

Fuck all of you. Fuck all of you so hard.

Fuck this place.

Dutch and Sirius:
She's gone. Bobo is gone.

Sirius (scribbled out, so never sent):
Where are you? I don't want t I can'

Oooh. I do love Saint Patrick's Day! Don't really have any Irish in me, but isn't everyone a little Irish on this holiday?

-Dutch

[Felicity]
Thank you for taking care of me when I was little. It was very kind of you.

[Jo]
Do you still draw now that you're older?

[Bo]
Well, now that that's over I say you, me, Kenzi, and Sirius sample some of these green beverages and enjoy being adults!

i can't sleep and my daddy isn't here to sing to me.

[Picture of what is presumably Mr. Velders. It looks like it was drawn by a six year old because it was.]

[Amateurish drawing of a daisy that might be considered good if one considers that it was drawn by a six year old]
art by dutch Velders

[ooc: pls to be pretending this is more pencil drawing-like? kthanx]

This isn't as bad as the last blackout I experienced, I have to say, but the last blackout I experienced only lasted a night. This is insane. I'm going insane.
-Dutch

[There is a drawing of the night sky.]

What's the experiment this week? Apparently I'm not one of the affected.

[added]
Ah. Just read. Tethered, then? I wonder what the point of that is.

-Dutch

[There is a drawing of little Vasiliy.]

Babies are kind of cute when they're not driving you up a wall, yeah?
-Dutch

Fuck this place.
Fuck the Management.
Fuck their experiments.
Fuck it all hard.

[Bo]
I'm sorry that I
Did I really
Please tell me that I

I'm sorry.
I take on the chores, volunteer any duties you have, will shine your boots...anything. Anything to make up for how I was.

I was obsessed. I'm sorry for what I said. I'm sorry for fighting you when you locked me up.
And did I actually lose all sense of self and say things to Marco?

I hate myself for this. I'm so sorry. I don't know how I'll make it up to you.

[Dutch]
So...awkward.

Welcome to the cabin? We need a name for this cabin

I wasn't myself. I'm sorry if I made your moving in uber-uncomfy-like

[Sirius]
Can we talk?

( filtered: kenzi, sirius, & dutch. )

Bless. Your. Heart. I owe you one like you wouldn't believe.

Poor Kenzi, though. I feel so awful for her.
-Dutch

[Please to be pretending this fan drawing of Anna Silk I found was drawn by Dutch.]

I hope you like it.

So... Kenzi is perfectly charming, but I'm 110% sure Management messed with her head. And it's a bit awkward. No, scratch that, it's really fucking awkward.

-Dutch

Sooo votes are in. All the votes. All the counting.

It seems people were more in favor of killing Kai, with police force/jail in the close second. Only one person voted for banishment. There was also a call for someone to build a sort of jail for any future problems.

Right...uh...who volunteers to take that on? I'm sitting this topic out now.

For jobs, people seemed interested in assigning them based on skill, and more than one person seemed interested in focusing on a few jobs at a time to get the most work done. Others suggested on focusing on getting the building secure and in better working order before we move on to bigger things. And Octavia volunteered to help with a smokehouse.

There were other things. Voting things. Arguing things. Decision-making things.

But what does any of that matter? Especially when Dutch is here. You know, since I showed up here I've been questioning whether or not I was right in returning to life. Whether or not this life is worth coming back to.

But if I'm lucky enough to not only come back, but come back for Dutch? It's all worth it.

There were flowers and balloons in the cabin when I got back. Maybe Dutch would like some for herself.

-Kenzi

Well, the dome is certainly looking very festive as of late.
-Dutch

[Bo]
I know this is probably a weird time and place for it, but I think I'd like to draw you sometime. That's not too bizarre is it?

I've never felt so healthy in my life. Thank you, Jo. Thank you, McCoy.

[There's a drawing of a cartoon figure of herself giving an oversized thumbs up.]
-Dutch

[Bo]
Should I come visit? Have your friends size me up?

This is your doctor speaking:

The liquor store is closed until I'm not using it as an damned infirmary anymore.

From what I'm gathering there are a lot of varied illnesses out there - some of which may be communicable by their description, some may not.

At this point I can't keep jumping all around this damned place to get to everyone.

Do the following conditions apply?
1. You are unable to breathe regularly
2. You cannot tolerate eating / drinking
3. You are weak / unable to stand without assistance
4. You are running a fever above and beyond what you consider normal
5. Have lost consciousness (outside of those little phantom things this place seems to think is so damned cute.)

Those are all things that require medical care. Please come to the pharmacy. I've set up the liquor store as an infirmary as best I can. Each aisle has a bed area.

To anyone with medical training
If you feel able to function as a triage runner, I would appreciate it. Otherwise, another set of hands in the infirmary would be great. Please follow universal precautions. If you don't have gloves and a mask get in here and get some.

Filtered to Jo You've been doing great. Don't run yourself into the ground.

[Her handwriting is a little messier than usual.]
I wouldn't be surprised if a medical professional told me I was dying. Please tell me you're doing better than I am.
-Dutch

Better put off me meeting Kenzi. I'm sick as a dog and it's not pretty.
-Dutch

[Jo]
I'm worried. I can't taste anything and my sore throat is what it was times a thousand. I think my tonsils are swollen, too.
-Dutch

Pro? This experiment didn't seem to be all that bad. I blacked out and woke up by the pharmacy. Con? I'm alone again. If anyone needs a place to stay, the library is vacant save for yours truly. Alternately, if anyone has room for one more I'd really like to avoid living on my own again. I don't snore and I'm very neat. There could even be a drawing in it for you.

[There's a cartoon smiley face with the word 'Please?' written next to it.]
-Dutch

[There is this drawing of a tiger.]

Do you know what I really miss? Music. If I were home right now and things were normal I'd be listening to Elastica or the Cure or something and messing around on the internet. What would all of you be doing?

-Dutch