Vas Captio Journals

Do you ever feel like you're being taken advantage of?

Because I do, all the time. Everybody comes to you to for answers to solve their problems but when you're going through a hard time they never give a damn, because you're the one with all the answers. Why would you need help? Why would you need support? It's not like the people who you love are dead or anything, it's not like you've been through anything serious and need a shoulder to cry on. Why can't you just deal while everybody else runs head on into the firestorm with their super powers while you sit back and watch until they can use you for your brain? And people wonder why I acted like an idiot for so long.

You do everything you can to help and all people do is either die or abandon you. I hate that this place doesn't feel any different from home. I hate that I can't look forward to going back because there's nothing to look forward to. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of all of this.

I miss home. ( cut for length )

Are all the women here lesbians?

Not that there's anything wrong with that. Lesbians are hot.

Do we have anybody who went missing tonight at the black out? Everyone that I live with seems to be where they're supposed to.

I'm tired of making the lists of people that are here. I would like somebody else to actually do that for a couple of weeks because my wrist hurts. My mother told me that I was going to get carpal tunnel from typing and working on computers, but if anything the amount that I write in this damn journal is going to give it to me first.

That's the reason that I haven't been doing it, that plus the fact that sometimes other things are pretty distracting and amp up my anxiety levels higher than I, or other people it would seem, like. I need to relax, I even want to, but in a hell like this it isn't exactly easy, you know. Derek sometimes helps.

I appreciate you Derek.

OH MY GOD you guys cannot hold your liquor.

Being drunk is AWESOME if you know how to do it.

Oooh. I do love Saint Patrick's Day! Don't really have any Irish in me, but isn't everyone a little Irish on this holiday?

-Dutch

[Felicity]
Thank you for taking care of me when I was little. It was very kind of you.

[Jo]
Do you still draw now that you're older?

[Bo]
Well, now that that's over I say you, me, Kenzi, and Sirius sample some of these green beverages and enjoy being adults!

Okay, so that was interesting.

I am pleasantly surprised to discover that the town is still in good repair though it makes me a bit anxious about what they are going to do this week.


~Sydney

Why aint there no spaceships or nothing here? We don't see them lots and lots at home but we see em sometimes and papa fixes stuff on them.

I ain't seen none here. I got a favorite one. My papa got to fix one one time and it was real real fancy and I got to watch him fix on it.



That's my favorite!

I miss my skateboard and I wanna go home! It's boring here!

JOJO.
I'm gonna go to the sport store cause I'm so bored. And maybe they have skateboards. I wanna look. I'll be back later and we can play.

[ooc: pls to be pretending this is more pencil drawing-like? kthanx]

[her handwriting is much messier than usual and slanted downward]

I know it isn't the easiest to tell time in this place, but I'm pretty damn sure the sun should be up by now.

-Bo

Hey, anybody here want to fool around or something?

Right, so...

See, Doc McCoy and I had an arrangement for my...unique nutrition needs. But now that he's gone, and I've used up all the...er, food...

Well, I need help. You can't have someone as gorgeous as me starving to death, right?

I realize this isn't at the top of anyone's priorities list, but would anyone be interested in a get together soon? Not a meeting, but a social gathering. To break up some of the monotony of scavenging and the various work everyone has been doing. Perhaps an afternoon at the cleaner of the two lakes? Or an evening bonfire?

-Inara

Apparently this experiment doesn't just have a physical component.

If anyone sends a private message to Jo's journal, it also shows up in mine. I just realized.

I wish I hadn't seen any of that.

Dude, where's the medic? I got mauled by a ROUS, fucking assholes are mean. Do rats give you rabies? Am I gonna die?

We're stuck together. In case you guys still haven't managed to figure out the experiment. That's the thing, we're stuck together and if we try to move too far apart it hurts like a motherfucking bitch.

JAKE.

I'm sorry, I just saw your page...are you okay now? I can come check on you, if you want, but I'll have to bring Sydney with me if I do. Every time we try to separate, I feel like someone's bashing my skull in with a sledgehammer.

Since the experiments been over I been feeling okay, but does that mean I ain't never gonna get what I had never again? I seen people have that, the coughing up blood, before and it ain't nice...it's real bad and I don't wanna feel like that again....

Is there anything I should do to be sure I don't never feel like that ever again?

HURLEY.
I ain't been on the journals lots, but I don't think I seen you post nothing. You okay?

CAPTAIN & INARA.
Why do a couple of people not like the babies? I don't get it.

They're just babies and they ain't done nothing wrong and it ain't their fault they're here or nothing.... I know they cry and they can stink and stuff but...they're babies.

[There is a drawing of little Vasiliy.]

Babies are kind of cute when they're not driving you up a wall, yeah?
-Dutch

Fuck this place.
Fuck the Management.
Fuck their experiments.
Fuck it all hard.

[Bo]
I'm sorry that I
Did I really
Please tell me that I

I'm sorry.
I take on the chores, volunteer any duties you have, will shine your boots...anything. Anything to make up for how I was.

I was obsessed. I'm sorry for what I said. I'm sorry for fighting you when you locked me up.
And did I actually lose all sense of self and say things to Marco?

I hate myself for this. I'm so sorry. I don't know how I'll make it up to you.

[Dutch]
So...awkward.

Welcome to the cabin? We need a name for this cabin

I wasn't myself. I'm sorry if I made your moving in uber-uncomfy-like

[Sirius]
Can we talk?