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_withoutacause ([info]_withoutacause) wrote in [info]the_recruitment,
@ 2012-02-20 19:16:00

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Entry tags:! complete, ! thread, char: remus lupin, char: sirius black

Who: Sirius and Remus
What: An early morning talk
When: Monday, 1am
Where: Gryffindor common room
Rating: PG-13
Status: Incomplete



Sirius had never run so fast in his life. He had been, he had been... With Alecto Carrow! How...

He didn't remember going to the Astronomy Tower. Honestly, he didn't remember anything he'd done today. The last thing he remembered was waking up on Saturday night with strange stains on his clothing and mud on his shoes. Then he'd hidden in his bed, trying not to think, and then he was kissing Alecto in the Astronomy Tower nearly twenty four hours later.

Something was wrong. Something was so, so wrong.

He panted out a garbled password to the fat lady and all but tumbled inside. Looking around, Sirius was more than relieved to see that the common room was empty. He didn't want anyone to see him like this, pale and shaking with lipstick marks on his neck.

He sank onto the sofa, wrapping his arms around his legs and taking deep, shuddering breaths. He couldn't hide from this anymore. Something was happening to him, something to do with that night Blonde hair and teeth flashing and pain and slitted eyes. He would just stay here for a while, try to figure things out. And in the morning he would go to his friends, beg them to help him. If he was still himself in the morning.


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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-21 04:39 am UTC (link)
Remus was having a horrible time sleeping. He'd been tossing and turning for a couple of hours, but slumber was nowhere nearer to him. He knew Sirius wasn't in the room; he'd never heard him come in, and knew Sirius hadn't been in before he arrived himself. That bothered Remus, though he knew it shouldn't have. It wasn't his place to know where Sirius was going at all times of the day or night.

After a couple of hours with no success trying to sleep, Remus sat up in his bed and put his feet in his slippers. If sleep wasn't going to come to him, then he decided he was going to make good use of his time. He picked up a couple of his school books and started to make his way down to the Common Room. He didn't want to wake James or Peter, so he decided to do some studying by himself. What he found when he reached the communal space shocked him. Sirius was huddled in a ball on the couch, and looked like he was having a fit of sorts.

Maybe he should've ignored him -- Merlin knew after all the things Sirius had said to him and to their friends he probably deserved it. But that wasn't Remus. He couldn't ignore Sirius no matter how much he should have or even wanted to. "Sirius," he said softly, and moved over to sit next to him on the couch. Remus set his books aside and placed a hand on his shoulder. "What's wrong?"

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-21 04:53 am UTC (link)
Sirius flinched when Remus touched him, but otherwise he didn't move. His eyes were nearly blank, staring at the expanse of wall across from him.

"I don't know what I did today." He said, voice completely monotone. "Last thing I remember I was in the dorm, then I opened my eyes and I was kissing Alecto in the Astronomy Tower. But I don't know how I got there, or what I was doing before. I lost a whole day Remus." A hint of desperation crept in. "Before it was just moments, and last night I... I think I went somewhere. There was mud on my boots, and something all over my clothes, but I don't what I did." He turned to face his friend, eyes pleading. "I'm going crazy Moony."

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-21 04:59 am UTC (link)
The worry line on his forehead only deepened as Sirius spoke. It was disturbing to hear that he'd basically been blacking out, losing himself for sometimes hours at a time. Was he sick? Was it something Malfoy did to him? The latter seemed the most likely, but Remus didn't want to believe that even someone like Lucius Malfoy could be so cruel.

He wasn't sure if Sirius remembered some of the words exchanged between them. Probably not, if he was losing the bits of himself that seemed completely unlike him. Remus chose not to bring them up. Sirus was distraught enough without that on top of it. "You're not crazy, Pads," he said softly, but did pull his hand back so he wasn't forcing Sirius to endure his touch. "Something's happening to you, and we'll figure out what it is."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-21 05:07 am UTC (link)
Sirius wanted to grab Remus' hand and pull it back. It was irrational, he didn't want anyone to touch him, not ever again. But after the initial shock of it he'd enjoyed the steadyness, the safety he felt knowing Remus was that close. He wanted to turn and wrap his arms around the other boy, hide in his solid presence and never come out again. But there was something in his friends eyes, something hesitant, and he had a feeling he wouldn't be welcomed.

"Did you..." And Merlin it felt so strange to be asking this, 'Did you see me at all? Today? was I, did I, do anything?" He didn't want to know. Not really. But at the same time he had to. Had to understand what was happening to him.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-21 05:18 am UTC (link)
Sirius would have never been rejected. Remus would never turn him away, especially in a time where he clearly needed someone to be there for him. But he wasn't going to force Sirius to turn to him. He hoped the other boy knew that he'd always be on his side, and would always stand up for him and be a pillar should he need someone to lean on. He was scared to death about what could be happening to Sirius, but he didn't let it read on his features. Sirius didn't need that right now.

"I didn't see you, no," he said, and shook his head. "I've just seen.. things you've written.." He didn't want to tell him at all, but he also would never lie to him. "Things I know you'd never say to anyone, especially the people you care about the most."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-21 05:25 am UTC (link)
"Shit," he laughed darkly. "I said terrible things, didn't I." He rubbed his hands over his eyes, as if he could bring back the stolen moments if he just applied enough pressure. "No one is going to believe I didn't mean it." He pressed harder, white spots dancing in front of his closed eyes. "I don't understand how you can still believe me, after everything I've done to you."

First he'd tried to kiss him when he was hurt, then he'd shoved him and said horrible things. Now apparently he was writing Circe knew what in the journals. It was a miracle Remus was still speaking to him, let alone trying to help him. He didn't deserve a friend like Remus. And Remus deserved better than the twisted sort of love he had to offer.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-22 01:30 am UTC (link)
It was true; Sirius did say some pretty awful things to more than one person. Remus knew he'd gotten the brunt of a lot of it, which was probably for the best. At least the other boy was recognizing the fact that he'd been saying such horrible things, and wasn't still saying them. The thing was, it didn't feel like it was Sirius doing the talking before because Sirius would have never said any of those things to anyone. Remus knew that, and he was confident that their close friends knew that too. But they had to figure out how to put a stop to it.

He clasped his hands together in his lap as he looked down, unsure of how to make Sirius feel better. Nothing could take away what had been said between them, or done, but they could move on from it. Remus just wanted to help him get his wits about him and figure out what happened to cause all of it.

"I'd never just give up on you, Padfoot," Remus said. "Something happened to you, and we're going to get to the bottom of it. More importantly, we're going to fix it; make things right."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-22 02:04 am UTC (link)
Sirius nodded, trusting Remus implicitly. If this had to be happening then there was no one else he would rather have with him.

"If only I could remember." He slowly lowered his hands and stared down at his knees. "It's like everything I need to know is just out of reach, but I can't get to it no matter how hard I try. There's just darkness. After Malfoy..." he shuddered, unable to finish that sentense. "After... What happened, I remember being, sort of, restrained. I don't know. He was talking to someone, I think. But after that it's just nothing, not till I woke up the next morning outside the Room of Requirement." Merlin, he hated talking about it. He could feel Malfoys hands on him again, hear the sadistic twist in his voice as he... Sirius shuddered and closed his eyes tight. "I think that's when this all started. After that night."

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-22 03:16 am UTC (link)
Remus didn't particularly want to hear about the details of what happened to Sirius that night, but he knew it was necessary in order or them to figure out what happened. The smallest detail could prove to be the most telling for them, so anything Sirius remembered would be useful. Still, it wasn't easy for him to listen to it. He didn't want to hear about Sirius and Lucius, and he especially didn't want to hear about how awful it was for Sirius. At least if it would have been pleasant, Sirius could have enjoyed himself. As much as it broke Remus' heart, he still would've been happy for Sirius if he'd been happy about the union. But he was anything but happy, and that was the hardest thing of all for Remus.

"I think so too," he said. "That's when all of this started. We need to figure out who he was talking to, and what they were talking about. Obviously Malfoy had something planned. If you remember anything more, tell me. The slightest thing could make all the different in the world, Padfoot." He chanced touching him again, placing a hand gently on his back. "But if it's too hard, don't hesitate to lean on me.. On any of us.. for support."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-22 03:46 am UTC (link)
"I..." Remus was right. He had to tell him. Everything. He took a deep breath, then another. Finally he looked up and focused on the fire.

"After Malfoy took me away from you, at the ball, I didn't want to go with him. I tried to pull away, but he touched my skin and suddenly he was the only thing I could think about. It was like an obcession, like if I didn't have him I was going to die. He led me out into the hall, and you saw us there." He looked up at Remus guiltily. "You know what happened then." he looked back at the fire, bracing himself for the next part. "He took me to the room of requirement and we were, uh, kissing. And, and touching and things." He blushed scarlet, mortified. "We were on this bed, and then I..."
I moaned your name. "I said someone elses name. He got angry, he bit me, held me down. And it was like waking up from a dream. I suddenly knew who I was and who I was with. I, I lost it." He wrapped his arms around his knees, trying to stop trembling as the words tumbled out of him. "I tried to fight him, but I couldn't break out. He immobilized me and, and flipped me over and," He couldn't breathe, he couldn't stop shaking. "It hurt, he forced his way and, and it hurt so badly and I, I turned off. Like when my mother would throw things at me, or scream, I just shut down. After, after he was, done, I heard voices, heard him talking to someone. But I couldn't see who because I was face down on the bed and..." he gasped, rocking forward and biting back a sob. He turned, all terror and primal need, and clung to Remus like a child.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-22 04:22 am UTC (link)
Remus felt his stomach wrenching as he listened to Sirius detail the events that took place after he left with Lucius Malfoy the night of the ball. It made him sick to think that Malfoy was capable of such disgusting behavior. It was one thing to be a pompous, rich snob, but to be a rapist? It made Remus angry, and while he wasn't usually one to get outwardly upset (with the exception of his monthly mood swings due to the moon's cycle), he was fuming. Merlin help him if he saw Lucius the next morning.

He didn't want to open up old wounds, but sometimes that raw emotion was exactly what was needed in order to bring out the truth in situations. Remus' eyes widened when Sirius clung to him, but he wrapped his arms around him and held him, wanting him to know without any doubt that he would be there for him.

"The voices," he said, trying to focus on what happened after Malfoy's actions. "Do you remember anything they said? Anything at all? A word, a sound, the tone of voice. Anything." He nuzzled the other boy's hair and breathed in his scent.

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-22 05:15 am UTC (link)
Sirius relaced slightly as Remus wrapped his arms around him. Remus would take care of it, he knew he would. Remus could solve anything. His breathing even out a little, and he was able to look at the events through the shield of Remus' body.

"It was...A man. He asked if," Sirius struggled to remember. All these memories seemed like they were underwater. "Asked if Lucius had, had fun. Then Lucius said something about, something about just 'doing his job.' And he mentioned something really odd, a, a Lord, or something. I don't know. I don't remember. Then we were moving, and after that there's nothing." He stiffened, suddenly remembering. "Except, eyes. I remember these horrible, slitted eyes..."

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-22 08:26 pm UTC (link)
Remus listened carefully, placing each puzzle piece on a map inside his brain. There were gaps, missing pieces, and unfortunately there were many of them. Too many for him to be able to fill in the holes on his own at this point in time. He didn't want Sirius to feel hopeless, though. Maybe if they kept talking about it a bit more, something else would come to him.

A Lord? Remus wished Sirius could remember who that other man was. That might help something. Right now, their only real lead was Lucius Malfoy, and there was likely very little they could do to get any sort of truth out of him. It was very evident to him now that Malfoy had drugged Sirius with some sort of salve or powder that reacted upon the touch of another person. A love potion, an aphrodisiac, or something of the sort.

"Slitted eyes..?" He repeated the description as a crease furrowed into his brow. "Coming at you? Like a bat? Or a snake?"

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-22 09:25 pm UTC (link)
"Uh," he closed his eyes, trying to push past the barrier of darkness and see what had happened. "Like, like a snake. Snake eyes, but in a mans face. He's, he's bending over me, looking down. He's..."

Pain flashed through his head, sudden and bright, and Sirius moaned, hands reaching up to grip his temples.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-22 10:36 pm UTC (link)
Remus jerked his head back a little when Sirius drew away to clutch at the sides of his head. Something about that memory was causing him physical pain. Was it a side effect of whatever had been done to him? Clearly whoever or whatever had caused this had done very well to keep that memory concealed. Sirius wasn't supposed to remember what had happened to him, and now that he was trying he was paying the consequences.

"Hey, hey," he said softly, and pet his back. "It's all right. You're doing a great job, Pads. Let's not push it any further tonight. Just try to clear your mind."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-22 11:25 pm UTC (link)
"I'm sorry," Sirius gritted out, keeping his eyes tightly closed. "I want to remember, I do."

He took a deep breath, banishing the pain and slowly straightening up.

"I'll try again." he turned back to Remus. "Tomorrow?" It was more a plea than a question. A desperate need to know that Remus would still be here tomorrow, would still want to help him. That Sirius would still be himself in the morning.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-23 01:10 am UTC (link)
"I know you do," he replied quickly. Remus knew that Sirius didn't want to continue on like this, and that he would do everything he could to help sort things out. Sirius wasn't one to give up, but honestly, it scared Remus to see him look so helpless. Sirius and James were the brave ones; he'd never seen Sirius look as afraid as he did now.

"Tomorrow," he said in a soft tone, and gave his back another stroke. "If you're feeling ready. I don't want you to push too hard with it. You might really hurt yourself. We'll figure this out together as best we can."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-23 03:41 am UTC (link)
Sirius nodded, then turned and tucked himself tightly against Remus' side. He laid his head against Remus' shoulder and focused on not panicing. It would be alright. they could figure this out.

"If, if I start, if i get, odd. Slap me, alright? Or, or hex me, anything. Just, get me out of it? Don't let me." Don't leave me alone.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-23 04:11 am UTC (link)
Remus let Sirius settle against him however he needed to. He wanted him to be as comfortable as possible, and he wanted to take care of him. He pushed aside his own pain, and did not let his broken heart become a factor. This was about Sirius, and making sure he was all right.

"I'll keep you safe," he whispered, and slipped an arm around his shoulders. He couldn't very well hit Sirius, and couldn't imagine himself ever hexing him. But he'd find a way to keep him from slipping, so long as he was there.

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-23 04:26 am UTC (link)
"I know you will," Sirius whispered. He felt Remus' arm around him like a security blanket, warm and comforting and right. It was odd. Ever since the, well, thing with Malfoy Sirius could barely stand to be touched. When James had accidently grazed his shoulder he'd nearly jumped out of his skin, and a flirtatious touch from a Ravenclaw prefect had left him hyperventilating on the floor of the bathroom. But Remus was different. He needed to be close to Remus, needed to feel his heart beating. It was the only time he didn't feel like the world was coming to a close.

It's because you love him, idiot.

Sirius couldn't help the shudder that ran through him. He didn't want to think about that, not so close on the heels of his near disaster after the Full. He knew what it felt like now, to have someone take advantage of you when you were weak and frightened... He never wanted Remust to know what that was like. Especially not from someone he was supposed to be able to trust. No. He was going to have to fight these feelings. Besides, Remus deserved better than him.

But he couldn't bring himself to pull away. Not when his muscles were finally unknotting, and his stomach settling. Not when he could feel Remus' calm strength keeping him above water. It was selfish, it was so terribly selfish, but Sirius couldn't let go.

"Don't leave me?" He begged, hating how needy and childish he sounded. He didn't want to be this person.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-23 05:29 am UTC (link)
It was painful to sit there and hold Sirius without being able to really hold him the way he wanted to. Every instinct in his body, centered around his heart, was telling him to brush his lips against the other boy's forehead, to caress him rather than just pet him, to be affectionate and loving, rather than just his best mate. But Remus had to remind himself that he ought to just be grateful to have a best mate at all. That was something people like him just didn't have. How could he be so selfish?

"I won't leave," he said quietly. It wasn't like Sirius to be so openly vulnerable, and while Remus knew it was because of the situation, he also felt a bit.. closer to him for it. Sirius wouldn't allow just anyone to see him that way. At least, he didn't think so. "Just try to relax, Padfoot. You're safe."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-23 06:13 am UTC (link)
Sirius sighed and let his eyes slip closed. He couldn't think of the last time he'd actually slept. On the nights he didn't wake up covered in mud he was always pulled awake by dreams. But he was so tired, and Remus was so warm.

"You make me feel..." he was being pulled under, dragged into sleep by a weeks worth of exhaustion and fear. "You make me feel like a real person." He knew he wasn't really making sense, but it was true. With Remus he felt he could just be himself. Not a prankster, or a ladies man, or a perfect son. Just him, and it was enough. "You're the only one..." His thoughts trailed away, bouyed by rapidly approaching sleep. "It's just you."

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-23 06:35 am UTC (link)
Sirius' body was warm against his own. He liked having him so near. It was always easier to sleep when Sirius crawled into bed with him at night. They wren't in bed, but Remus was comfortable enough to doze when the time came for it. He wanted to make sure Sirius was asleep before he even would consider closing his eyes. But the other boy's words made his heart start to speed up, and his cheeks to tint pink. Sirius always had the ability to do that to him.

He could tell Sirius was sleepy. Maybe his ramblings were just that -- sleepy jumbled words. Perhaps he shouldn't have taken them to heart, but he couldn't help it. The words were right on the tip of his tongue. It's just you for me, too. It's always been just you... Remus held him a little closer and took a shaky breath. Where was his Gryffindor courage? Was it as broken as his heart?

"It's just you for me too, Sirius. You've always been the only one. The one who makes me feel like me," he whispered, and brushed his lips against his forehead. There. There it was. His heart beat was flying, and his nerves were completely on edge. But there it was. He hadn't clammed up, for once in his life he'd been brave.

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-23 06:50 am UTC (link)
Sirius was nearly asleep, but with Remus' words, and the soft brush of his lips, Sirius snapped back to wakefulness. He sat up, looking at Remus with wondering eyes. Could he possibly be saying...

Don't do anything stupid Sirius.

"Remus." He was going to have to pick his words carefully. If Remus didn't mean what he thought, if this wasn't what Sirius wanted it to be, then he could ruin everything right now.

But he kissed me. That has to mean something!

He searched his mind for the right words, the right way to explain what he felt, what he wanted. He could feel the place where Remus kissed his burning like a beacon, and he threw all caution to the wind.

He leaned forward, tentativly reaching up till Remus' jaw was cupped gently in his hand, and brought their lips together. If Remus pulled away now he knew it would be the end of him.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-23 07:18 am UTC (link)
It was the greatest and scariest moment of his life. Remus had dreamt of this moment for years. Kissing Sirius was something he'd been waiting for, but never expected to happen. Even now, while it was happening, he was struck with disbelief. Why would Sirius ever want to kiss someone like him when he could have anyone he wanted? The answer was right there in Sirius' words before. You've always been the only one... Remus might not have thought highly of himself, but Sirius did.

As fast as his heart was pounding before, it did not compare to how fast it was beating once their lips met. Remus had never been kissed before, so he could only pray to the kissing gods that he was doing it right. His cheeks were flushed as his lips met Sirius' in a tender kiss. He kept one arm around the other boy, and placed his opposite hand on Sirius' knee. He made a soft sound as their lips kneaded together, but made no move to get away.

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-23 07:22 am UTC (link)
It was perfect. It might not have been exactly what Sirius had dreamed about, but it was somehow more tender and more intimate for all the pain that came before it.

Remus' mouth was soft and warm, and Sirius wrapped an arm around the other boys waist, bringing them even closer together. He wanted to crawl inside Remus' skin, to be a part of him. He never wanted this to end.

Malfoy, biting his lip and pushing him down...

He gasped, pulling back and shaking.

"Sorry, sorry." He ran a hand over his face. "I'm sorry, I ruined it. I...

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-23 03:24 pm UTC (link)
Remus could have stayed that way forever. All the emotions and feelings that he'd been wanting to express for so long were bubbling up to the surface, begging to be released. He loved Sirius deeply, and was beginning to believe that maybe, just maybe, his heart could mend.

But when Sirius drew back, shaking, Remus knew he'd put too much pressure on that sweet, tender kiss. There was too much weight pressing down on it, too many hopes riding on that one gesture of affection. They still had to figure out what was going on with Sirius before they could even begin to understand what that kiss really meant.

Right now he just needed to reassure him that it was all right, that nothing was ruined. Remus reached out to take the hand that Sirius ran over his face, and kept his other arm wrapped around him. "Nothing is ruined," he said softly. "Nothing will ever be ruined between us. It was wonderful, and that's how I'll always remember it."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-23 04:39 pm UTC (link)
"No," Sirius reached out and took Remus' hands between his own. He needed Remus to understand. "Remus, I've wanted this, to, to be with you. I've wanted it for so long, and now when we finally get here, Moony, it was so good. I wanted to be like that, with you, so badly. But then all I could see was him." He shuddered again.

"Remus," he looked up, eyes desperate with hope. "I, I love you. I always have. And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry that I let Ma," he couldn't say it. "That I let him ruin something that should just been ours."

There. He'd said it. He knew it was a lot, probably too much, to ask for. But he was done hiding this.

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-23 06:12 pm UTC (link)
Remus couldn't believe his ears. He felt warm all over, and knew his cheeks were burning pink. Sirius loved him. How long had he thought about what it would be like to hear those words? He never expected them to be said, and now that they had been he didn't know what to do. He felt like he was flying, and sort of like he'd just been hit by a Muggle bus.

His gaze dropped to their joined hands, then lifted to meet Sirius' eyes. He could see the desperation there, and it pained him to think that Sirius felt that way. Expressing love should come from a happy place, and he wished that such devastating circumstances hadn't had to take place in order for these feelings to be propelled out of both of them, but he also wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

"I've been in love with you for a long time," he finally said. There was so much he wanted to attach to that statement. He wasn't good enough for Sirius; Sirius deserved better than anything he could offer him; there were others out there who could probably make him happier than Remus ever could. But there was one thing that he knew right down to his core. No one could love Sirius more than he loved him. Sirius said it himself; he could be him and still be loved all the same. Remus understood that, and believed it. So maybe loving him was enough. There was still a lot of healing to do, but for now, he just wanted to shut his brain off.

"And this is just ours. Moony and Padfoot," he said, and squeezed the other boy's hand. "No one can take that away from us."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-23 06:46 pm UTC (link)
Sirius stared at Remus, his heart fluttering wildly. Remus loved. Georgous, intelligent, amazing Remus Lupin loved him back. It was overwhelming, incredible, more than he'd ever hoped for. And for what felt like the hundredth time this week, Sirius began to cry. He could feel the tears tracing patterns down his cheeks, and couldn't help laughing.

"Merlin," he wiped at his eyes, half laughing half sobbing, and shook his head. "Remus," he laughed again, almost completely incoherent with joy. Remus loved him.

"This is mad, eh? Completely mental. I never thought you would, I mean, I knew how I felt, but I thought you were straight! I never dreamed you would, that you even could love me back. And now all I want to do is snog you senseless, but I'm so fucking scared and I..." he stopped, biting back another sob. "I'm such a mess," he whispered. "I don't know how you put up with me."

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[info]thewolfen
2012-02-25 02:39 am UTC (link)
Remus knew he was blushing. His cheeks were very warm, and though he couldn't see it he knew his cheeks were pink. Sirius always managed to cause that reaction in him, whether he knew it or not. There was an undeniable smile on his lips as well, as he watched the other boy react to his words. He looked happy, which made Remus happy. That was what he wanted more than anything else, for Sirius to be happy.

"Years of practice," he retorted in a light tease. In truth, he never thought it possible for Sirius to love him back either. It just didn't seem likely at all to happen. SIrius could have anyone he wanted; why should he want him?

To address the fears Sirius expressed, Remus leaned in to press their foreheads together. "I'm sure there will be plenty of time for all that, when you're ready. In case you didn't know, I'm terribly patient."

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[info]_withoutacause
2012-02-25 05:57 am UTC (link)
Sirius smiled, a genuine one for a change, and willed away the last of the tears. Somehow, this moment was more intimate than anything Sirius had ever done. Remus' eyes were such and amazing color. He had never wanted anyone more.

He tilted his head slightly, and pressed his lips gently against Remus'. The kiss lacked the passion of their first, but it was tender and sincere, and Sirius pulled out before memories could intrude and ruin it.

He knew they had a whole bucket of bad to get through in the coming days, and the joy of this moment might very well be short lived. But the prospect of figuring it all out seemed far less frightening now that he had Remus Lupin firmly in his corner. Whatever came next, they could handle it. Together.

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