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Mia Peña-Griffiths ([info]creativamia) wrote in [info]20somethings,
@ 2022-05-29 19:15:00

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Entry tags:c: katarina handforth-graham, c: mia pena-griffiths, d: 2028 05, ~ complete, Ω: rp

RP: A Date
Who: Mia & Trina
What: With the end of the month coming up, Mia has another date with Trina to try to help her decide where her heart lies.
When: 29 May 2028
Where: Trina's flat
Warnings: Emotions
Completion Status: Complete

The whole dating two people thing was beginning to stress Mia out. It wasn't in her nature to not go all in when she felt sparks with someone, and yet, in the nearly two months since she'd activated her dating profile on that app, she'd managed to fall into feelings for not one but two extremely different people. She knew she couldn't continue dating both of them, though, which meant she needed to make a decision.

She was nervous when she'd arrived at Trina's flat a little bit ago, if only because she knew her feelings with Rhys were so strong but when she was with Trina, it felt like those feelings were stronger. Her relationships were as different as the people in them, too, which almost made it harder. Trina was absolutely gorgeous, and it still flustered her sometimes when they were together, stumbling over her words and blurting out silly things. She felt on steadier ground with Rhys, calmer, more solid but with enough hints at the possibility of passion that it didn't feel dull.

As she sat next to Trina on her sofa, swirling the ice around her glass, she wondered how she could possibly decide. Were Trina's feelings for her strong? Did Trina envision a future similar to the one she hoped for herself? She couldn't seem to find the words to express all those swirling thoughts to Trina, either.

"What was the most entertaining thing you experienced this week?" she asked rather randomly, as if that might give her direction for those circling thoughts.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-01 09:25 pm UTC (link)
Having Mia actually in her space was new but Katarina was enjoying it immensely. She kept having little domestic fantasies when she let her mind wander and had to drag herself back. It was such a lesbian cliché to get super serious super quickly and she wasn't sure if it was because she was ready to be super serious or because she was just inclined to be that kind of forward thinking and domesticity.

She sipped from her own glass through the straw and frowned thoughtfully. "Okay I have a couple," she said after a minute where her fingers had been idly tracing patterns on Mia's thigh.

"The best face I saw was probably Etta realising that the Victoire we sometimes mention is Victoire Weasley. She's such a fashion fan I think she would have dropped a glass if she was holding one!" It was mostly amusing in retrospect, since it had taken her several long seconds to catch on in real life.

"Does your job give you a customer service smile?" She asked. She knew she had developed one in response to starting her business, in addition to her usually cheerful demeanour. "Because I think I saw the best ever switch to customer service mode the other day. One of the staff from the Spa had to chase an awful client down the street. He was only wearing a towel and by the time he'd remembered he could apparate away it wasn't staying on so well. I found out what he'd done later on the grapevine so I feel a bit less awful about laughing when it got left behind! When the person chasing him realised everyone was looking at them they did the most impressive switch from irate to everything is okay I've ever seen!"

She sighed and looked over at Mia, "do you mind if I play with your hair?" She asked.

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-04 09:16 pm UTC (link)
Fashion just wasn't something that interested Mia, so she wasn't sure who Victoire Weasley was in the fashion world, but it was clear that the woman was famous on some level, so she made a small, amused sound at the story.

She'd just brought her glass to her lips when Trina asked about customer service smiles, and she paused, her head tilting a little as she considered. She had just started shaking her head no but didn't have a chance to answer in further detail before Trina was telling her the story, and she found herself giggling a bit at it. "Oh goodness, that's a lot! I don't think I have a customer service smile. Even when I was working at the junk shop, I wasn't really dealing with the customers much. I was lucky to be in the back tinkering with the things most of the time," she admitted with a light laugh.

Mia leaned toward Trina instinctively at the question, like a moth to the flame, craving the warmth and affection. "Of course," she said, glad she'd worn it down today. Even though she'd gone for comfort with her black shorts and sleeveless top, she didn't think Trina minded.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-06 12:28 am UTC (link)
Not always the best at telling stories Katarina was glad she'd made Mia laugh. "You know I'm a pretty smiley person, but even I have one for when customers are being particularly impossible," she said. "Believe me the customer is not always right. It's not so bad now we own the shop, but you could get a bad reputation at markets if you were too mean or grumpy." She shook her head slightly and put her drink down for now. "Didn't mean to rant, just been a few more unfortunate customers than average this week."

She absolutely did not hold back the grin that appeared when Mia curled up into her space, something happy bubbling into her chest. Slowly and gently she started to play with Mia's hair. Switching between twining strands around her fingers and combing through it. It was slightly clumsy from time to time but probably impossible to notice from the other side. She scuffed her feet which were shod in comfortably fuzzy slippers that had excellent grips on the bottom, but little dangling owl charms hanging from the decorative bow.

She had set music playing earlier at a level where she could hear the beat but not so loud it would interrupt their conversation. But right now she was trying to work out if she was comfortable in the quiet moments with Mia or not. She thought so, but she was also a very chatty person so it often felt a little bit off when nobody had said anything in a while. "What was your happiest thing this week?" she asked after a little while.

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-07 07:43 pm UTC (link)
Mia couldn't argue with that. Trina had the most beautiful smile, the sort that could light up a room, but she was glad she hadn't seen her smile for dealing with obnoxious customers. "I've heard of places where being rude to the customers is their schtick," she commented conversationally. It was tangentially related to the topic, so she didn't think Trina would be annoyed.

Quiet moments were rare for Mia. She'd been born into a big, loud, passionate family, and she'd never shied away from any of it. She almost always had music playing and could hardly resist talking with whomever was nearby. And yet, she was utterly content in that moment of quiet while Trina's fingers combed through her hair, her head tilting into the motion like a cat chasing pets.

She hummed at the question, a warm smile slowly stretching over her lips. "I got to take Mari for a couple hours on Thursday. She's not quite crawling yet, but she's getting so interactive! I love that baby so much," she sighed happily. "Do you like kids?" she asked, not quite smoothly shifting to the more serious topic of what they might want for their futures and if those wants aligned.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-08 01:04 am UTC (link)
That comment somewhat floored Trina and she gaped for several seconds, her face a picture of confusion. "But why? I mean I don't think over the top customer service is necessary, but basic cordiality and manners should always be a thing." She knew she could be a bit old fashioned at times, but her basic belief that all people deserved overall care and compassion was being rather battered by this apparent model of business.

The way Mia's head chased after her hand gave her a flutter in her stomach and a sense that this type of care could something that tuned into her dominant side if she let it. For now it was simple care and connection and her breath turned deeper as she let herself drift just a little.

Hearing Mia talk about her niece with such enthusiasm lit a little fire in Katarina's heart. They had talked about some pretty intense topics since their first messages, but children hadn't been one of them. Mia seemed fairly in favour children so she didn't hold back. "I adore kids," she said. "I don't really have many in my life outside of the ones who come into the shop, but I'm always willing to be utterly distracted by them. I'd like to be a parent in the future if I'm with someone who wants that too." She tried not to hold her breath, but the sense of anticipation made her hold herself stiffly. Could she see that with Mia? She wasn't completely sure, but the idea was enticing at least. "How about you?"

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-08 01:47 am UTC (link)
Completely unable to help herself, Mia burst into laughter at Katarina's genuine horror and confusion at the thought of anywhere not being kind to customers. "Maybe they're catering to the masochists?" she suggested, her voice still thick with amusement. "I really couldn't say, but I suppose it would be an intriguing concept as a patron, if I were to go into it knowing that it's their schtick. Like, my parents told me about this restaurant they went to in Florida where they'll cut off your necktie if you come with one on. It seems wild to me, but I imagine it makes sense from a marketing perspective? Like, having that one thing that makes you stand out from others." One would have to have thick skin and a strong, if not twisted, sense of humor to patron those sorts of places, though.

As Trina answered, Mia couldn't help the way her mind drifted back to when she and Rhys had talked about children in the abstract like this. She was doing her best not to compare them, to evaluate each relationship on its own merits and depths and connections, but Trina's enthusiasm was such a stark contrast to Rhysand's cautious ambivalence, even if he'd insisted children wasn't a deal breaker for him. Dom had been cautious about the topic of children, too, and as her ex flitted through her mind, she was struck again by how much Trina reminded her of Dom.

Ugh. Why did feelings have to be so complicated and confusing?!

"I definitely want kids someday," she answered honestly, refusing to hold back as that would be counterproductive to her goals. "I'm not so great with toddlers, but babies and post potty-trained kids are amazing and so much fun!" Not that she thought the toddler stages were bad enough to forego having children altogether. She did wondering how Trina's health might affect her in that role, but she supposed that was a long way off even if they did stay together, and more to the point, it was entirely up to Trina to evaluate what she could handle. "My parents had a big family. I've always wanted one too," she admitted.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-09 12:09 am UTC (link)
A wash of dawning recognition passed across Katarina's consciousness at Mia's suggestion. "Ohh, huh I had not thought of that angle," she said. "My body creates enough pain and humiliation that I don't want to seek it out," she said. She shook her head gently as Mia described the antithesis of all her principles. "I understand the need for a marketing gimmick in a flooded market, but that would not be the route I'd take."

She was so relieved when she heard that Mia wanted children. Part of her certainly wanted to say she'd be satisfied if her future wife didn't want kids, but in her heart of hearts she knew that wasn't true. "I definitely want more experience with kids before I have them," she said. And she felt she owed it to the future potential for their relationship that she didn't leave out a big aspect of the potential journey. Just as she'd been opening up about other aspects of her condition as they came up. "I've always been kind of thankful that there was likely going to be a second uterus in my future relationship because I was told when I was diagnosed that carrying children could difficult or dangerous for me." She said it calmly but there was a definite swell of emotion for her and some sadness in her heart that it probably wasn't something she'd ever do. "I've grown to want to adopt alongside having hopefully biological children from my relationship." She sighed wistfully. "But yeah, probably more than two, but I'm not sure how many." She fiddled idly with the peter-pan collar of the white blouse she was wearing under the dress she was wearing. Slightly nervous about Mia's reaction.

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-09 07:49 pm UTC (link)
Her expression shifted, empathy mingling with pity, not at all surprised that it wasn't something Trina would seek out. "I don't think it would be my choice either, but it is interesting," she said, shrugging slightly. She was full of odd facts and observations, though.

"Oh, cariño," she murmured, lifting her hand to cover Trina's. Did that mean that Trina could see that sort of future with her, though? And could she see that future with Trina? It was so easy to imagine a future with Rhys, but now, looking at Trina talking about having children, both biological and adopted, she just couldn't visualize what that would look like. Was it because she'd slept with Rhys but hadn't reached that level of intimacy with Trina yet?

There was no denying that there was a spark between them, chemistry that had flared the life from the start. "Well, as far as I know, my uterus is good to go," she joked lightly, trying to distract herself from the surge of anxiety that welled up inside her.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-09 11:48 pm UTC (link)
"People like all sorts of things that I don't. Like wearing trousers, losing control, or all sorts of sports. I'm just glad I'm happy with my choices." She laughed, knowing that she was pretty rare in not liking to wear trousers at all outside of the occasional set of silky PJs.

She lifted Mia's hand and kissed the back of it after it covered her own. "I've had time to come to terms, and however I have children they won't be any less mine just because I didn't give birth to them." She smiled and shuffled a bit closer to Mia to take comfort in her presence.

"Now how are you currently feeling about ice cream?" she asked. She'd picked up some a few days ago from Fortescue's hoping Mia might want to share.

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-10 12:52 am UTC (link)
It was one of the things Mia had always loved about the world, how diverse it was and the people in it. How boring life would be if everyone liked the exact same things? There was one thing in that short list that got her attention, though, and she quirked a brow at Katarina. "Not a fan of losing control, hmm?" She didn't think most people were, but she wondered how deep it went for Trina.

"Well, that's a lovely mindset to have about it all," she said lightly. Her own anxieties and confusion weren't necessarily abated by it, but it was still a good mindset.

Mia's smile didn't quite reach her eyes, a sort of disconnect seeping through her. It was strange to learn so much more about someone and not feel closer to them, but rather to feel more distanced. She was used to falling, to being the one to keep falling until her feelings became too much for the other person who would, inevitably, end things. "I always want ice cream," she answered, doing her best to keep the tumultuous feelings coursing through her out of her voice.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-10 06:41 pm UTC (link)
Katarina was surprised when Mia latched onto those words in particular and pressed her lips together with a slightly pinched look, wondering exactly what explanation to give. There was truth to any option she would give, but some answers were more revealing than others. She took a breath. "No, and as much as I feel like a repeating charm saying so, it's partly a disability thing. I end up having to rely on others more than I'd like or end up feeling helpless. But I also figured out in the last year or so I really like taking control in circumstances where I can." She swallowed. "Like the bedroom." It wasn't like she hadn't inserted Mia into some fantasies by now, but it might not be something she was in the slightest bit interested in.

"Excellent answer," she said. She stood to make line of sight easier and summoned several tubs of ice cream plus spoons. "Bowls and toppings or right from the tub?" she asked.

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-11 01:37 am UTC (link)
Of course, the whole disability thing would make control a bit of a trigger; Mia supposed she could understand that, but she hadn't meant to bring the mood down with the comment. It also made that last bit from Trina a jarring contrast. Her brain struggled to switch gears from thoughts of feeling helpless or out of control with one's disability to enjoying taking control in the bedroom. As the thought settled in her, she couldn't help wondering just how deep that preference went. It wasn't her thing, though she didn't judge others who enjoyed it.

As the ice cream and supplies came flying from the kitchen, Mia became overwhelmed with the desperate need to say something, to not drag it out when she was realizing that her choice wasn't as difficult as she'd come into this date thinking it would be. "Trina, wait." She stood up, holding a hand out toward her without touching her.

"I don't... I think you're amazing. You're gorgeous and vibrant and so much fun, but this... I just don't think I'm feeling it on that level. I think, maybe, we could be great friends, someday if not right away, and I'm so sorry. I never wanted to lead you on." Her heart just wasn't in it, and now that she'd realized it, she couldn't let it drag on. It would be doing them both a disservice.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-11 08:38 pm UTC (link)
The ice cream didn't quite smack her in the face when Mia asked her to wait, but it was a near thing. She directed it to her coffee table at the last moment.

Almost as soon as Mia started speaking she knew where it was going. She hadn't quite seen it coming, but at the same time she knew that Mia was dating other people. There was a little lead weight of disappointment that dropped itself in her stomach. "Well I'm not mildly mortified at what I just shared at all," she said sarcastically and then shook her head with a sigh. "Sorry, defensive reflex. I prefer the honesty."

She gestured vaguely at the ice cream and took a few moments to assess her own feelings. Mia was attractive and fun, they got on well and she felt like she could be honest with her with minimal judgement. There was something there, and they'd definitely had a spark on earlier dates, even if this one had felt a little...flat. She had thought feeling domestic would be good, and it was to a point, but now she thought about it none of it seemed to be consistently going anywhere.

She swallowed and blinked at the tears that suddenly seemed to threaten. "I think I'm going to need some time before we try to be friends," she said with a wavering smile. "Consolation ice cream?" she asked, gesturing again at the several small pots.

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-11 08:51 pm UTC (link)
Frowning, Mia shook her head slightly. "I don't think you should feel mortified at all. I understand the reflex, but... nothing to be embarrassed about." Even though it wasn't her thing, she didn't judge anyone who was into it, and she certainly didn't think there was anything wrong with confiding such things with someone you were considering becoming intimate with.

The emotions seemed to play out on Trina's face, and Mia felt a pang deep in her chest. She wanted to reach out and comfort the other woman, which was absurd considering she'd just essentially broken up with her! But knowing in her heart of hearts that her connection with Rhys was stronger and the one she wanted to pursue didn't make the feelings that had been growing for Trina just disappear.

"I understand," she whispered. She was surprised that the offer of ice cream was still on the table, literally and figuratively, and her brow furrowed. "I can go if it's too much too soon," she offered. The last thing she wanted to do was make Trina uncomfortable, much less in her own home!

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-11 09:15 pm UTC (link)
With a little sigh Katarina shook her head. "No, I don't actually regret it, but my dramatic side leans to sarcasm sometimes," she explained.

Perhaps she hadn't been clear enough, or maybe they hadn't gelled quite as well as Trina thought. "No, I, er, was suggesting maybe you taking one home with you," she said softly. "Not as cute as the tasting thing I was going to do, but probably for the best," she said carefully as the sudden rush of sadness welled up.

"Like I said, I would like some time, please," she said. She absolutely didn't want to throw Mia out, but she also didn't really want her to be here any longer.

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[info]creativamia
2022-06-11 09:38 pm UTC (link)
Okay, well now she felt like the biggest idiot, and her tanned skin darkened with a flush as she glanced away from Trina. "Oh. Right." Tears welled up in her own eyes, and she blinked them back with an urgency. "No, that's okay. I'll just... go." If she was going to cry into a bucket of ice cream, she rather thought it should be hers and not Trina's.

After a quick check to make sure she had everything, she looked at Trina, her lips parting as if to speak, but words failed her. She pressed her lips together, giving the other woman a small, sad nod, and then apparated home. Her stomach was in knots, and rather than go to her freezer to see what sweets she had, she curled up on her bed for a good cry. It felt selfish to need it, which only made the tears flow more fiercely. But it was good, healthy even, to mourn an ending, even if you were the one to instigate it.

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[info]katarinacreates
2022-06-11 11:04 pm UTC (link)
Katarina blinked and closed her eyes as the pain suddenly showed on Mia's face. "Sorry," she breathed, her own eyes also welling up. She wanted to say something else but the words wouldn't come. As Mia stepped back she gave her the tiniest of awkward smiles and lifted her hand in farewell before she was left behind by the pop of apparition.

She looked around at the scattered remains of her date and dropped back onto the sofa if a puff of petticoats, her face buried in her hands as she started to cry. Shortly she would banish the ice cream back to the freezer. Shortly she would give up on normal clothes in favour of comfy pyjamas. Shortly she would let herself go wallow in a magically heated bath. Right now she just needed a good, cleansing cry.

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