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Castiel is a better weapon (ofthursdays) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2013-01-28 16:45:00

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Filtered from evil
I don't think people appreciate the gravity of the situation here.

We're facing the end of days and there is more talk about weddings that battle plans. Movies seem more important than patrolling.

I was encouraged to find more than the battle but if we don't make it a priority thee won't be any weddings, or movies, or popcorn. None of it matters.

I can't afford to waste my time any more. None of us can.

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	Katherine \| Elena naturaldisaster 2013-01-29 02:21 am UTC (link)
	Uh, why are you I'm so confu That makes sense in a way. You've been living a certain way for so long. But you've had your emotions on for how long now? A few months? Have you found things within that which help you connect to them or others? Things you enjoy that remind you why you're doing this in the first place? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine \| Elena psychobitchvamp 2013-01-29 02:26 am UTC (link)
	At least 3 months now, I think. I'm trying. I think I'm getting closer to it, maybe. I still have a lot of doubt though. I keep remind myself it's for me...but the catch-22 with the lack of faith from people...it plays with the self-doubt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katherine | Elena

naturaldisaster
2013-01-29 02:36 am UTC (link)

Well, one way to look at it is.... the doubt and everything? It's a very common feeling for anyone. It reminds you that you aren't invincible. It's just a balancing act and knowing there will always be bad mixed in with the good. And yeah, lack of faith sucks but you do have friends here who believe in you and while I know that I'm still wary, I do see that you're trying.

Things that are worth it, though? They take more work and time. I mean, it's sort of what I was trying to tell Castiel, that the moments of normal can be used as an anchor of sorts. Maybe they're small, but if you find something that resonates with you, that sparks it, hold onto it so when it seems it's not worth it, you have that feeling to tell yourself why it is.

Glinda said you were doing some volunteering, how did that feel?

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Katherine | Elena

psychobitchvamp
2013-01-29 02:52 am UTC (link)

Normal. I don't think I ever expected to be on the track to that. It's good, though. I do have a few of them, and I guess for now, that's all I need. Thank you, Elena.

That's what people keep saying. I'm just too impatient, I suppose. That's not a big surprise or anything, though, I guess. I'll remember that.

It felt...I don't know. Different. But in a good way.

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Katherine | Elena

naturaldisaster
2013-01-29 04:16 am UTC (link)

Funny thing about normal, it's not as elusive as it may seem. Sure we all have different definitions of what is normal, but it's nothing really huge in the grand scheme of things. It's a mix and the real trick is just making sure not to let the bad things overwhelm you so that it seems pointless. ~~And um,~~You're welcome.

Not really when you're used to instant gratification. But you should, hopefully it will help.

Good different is still good, though.

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	Katherine \| Elena psychobitchvamp 2013-01-29 11:27 pm UTC (link)
	It feels like it at this point, but I guess it's just an adjustment I'll be continually making. I'll have to work on that. That may be harder than some of the other things I need to work on. It is. I think I might go back to doing some of that. Gives me something to do, it's a good thing, a positive thing, and that's what I need right now. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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