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Tweak says, "I believe this belongs to you."

MarinaNova NPCs (marinanova_npc) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-01-20 08:16:00

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Day 255 — Mistletoe Mingle
[You won't hear them coming. You won't see their snare. The mistletoe bots are out and they're hunting you, two by two. You can run and you can hide, but eventually you will be caught, and then there's nothing left to do but kiss your way out!]

(OOC: Mingle until your lips are chapped! Information on mistletoe bots event.)

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matter
2014-03-01 05:57 am UTC (link)

Yes. [ she's free to make her own choices and damon's free to... make his. (yet it didn't truly work out; it's something she tries to accept, not getting what she wants, knowing why she doesn't. it doesn't mean the feelings don't turn to bitterness, sometimes.) ] I want you to know the full story. [ why she does is another set of rationales and feelings: because it's hers and she wants to share it, because it's sam and there's still desire and possibility in the pit of her stomach when she thinks of him, sees him, talks to him.

because it's the truth and he deserves to hear it. ]

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	tallerthanthou 2014-03-03 05:56 am UTC (link)
	Were you...? [He stops, unsure about his wording. This is such a delicate thing to discuss and maybe he shouldn't be asking, but he has to know. He just won't look too deeply into the reasons he must know.] Did he compel you into that relationship? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

matter
2014-03-05 03:47 am UTC (link)

[ the question is met with silence. only after a short moment does she start, shift on he feet: when she realizes what he means, what he's asking. (and after, why he'd be asking, why he'd need to know.) elena blinks, parts her lips, answers. ] Sam, Damon wouldn't- [ she knows why he would think he would. knows why he would ask. it doesn't change her answer. she's certain. (damon wants it to be real. he needs it to be. with her, if no one else.) ] No. [ it was always her choice. ]

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	tallerthanthou 2014-03-05 03:52 am UTC (link)
	[He wants to ask if she would know if he had, but not enough to make the words come. Instead, he nods.] You've been dealing with a lot. [Are you okay?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

matter
2014-03-05 04:08 am UTC (link)

[ she senses his doubt, but her certainty is untouched by it; it's not faith in damon that drives it, but faith in herself and her judgement. she hasn't lost that, despite all of this. (what she truly cared for, wondered, however selfishly and quietly, is how the repetition of her decision might hurt him: hearing that choice again, despite the truth motivating her to repeat it. how he might hear that motivation as her continued resolve when...)

her smile is brave, because she knows what he's asking. ] No more than usual. [ her somber smile falls. ] We've all been.

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	tallerthanthou 2014-03-05 04:24 am UTC (link)
	[He nods slowly.] You said it didn't work out with Damon. But if you wanted to be with him and Rebekah broke your sirebond... [Then why aren't you together?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	matter 2014-03-05 05:29 am UTC (link)
	[ she wants him to know the truth, right? ] Damon... doesn't think we could ever work out. [ she shakes her head. the words are the truth, said factually and simply, but there's a thickness to them because they mean something to her. they hurt. ] He wants to be loved but he doesn't know how to believe it when he is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tallerthanthou 2014-03-08 12:53 am UTC (link)
	But you want to try? [Her heart is still in it, isn't it? She loves him?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

matter
2014-03-08 04:38 pm UTC (link)

[ yes. of course it's yes. she loves him; she's in love with him, and that's not going to just stop or be willed away. she's learned that. the past few months, they've taught her something more. maybe before it would feel like defeat; a part of her still sees it as that. as disappointment.

but she doesn't say yes, because wanting it isn't the issue. ] I can't... make him be ready for something when he's not ready. [ how many times has she asked that and it fell apart? ] But I can't wait around for it either.

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tallerthanthou
2014-03-11 07:16 pm UTC (link)

[Wanting it may not be the issue in having it, but it's still what Sam wanted to know. Whether it's something he should know or should want to know is a different story entirely, but he has his answer even if she didn't state it in simple "yes"-shaped terms.

Funny how much her answer sounded like one he might have given not long ago about her.]

No, I guess not. It never gets dull, does it? [Her life. His life. Layers of complicated and difficult on top of more layers of complicated and difficult. He's had more of a respite than she has here in prison for however long that lasts.]

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matter
2014-03-11 10:56 pm UTC (link)

[ she smiles and it's full of dry, weak humor. it never is dull, not for her and not for him. at home or here, apparently.

(if she wants to be with damon or not is what sam wanted to know. elena realizes that; she realizes she answered his question too. she's not sure she's answered her own question about all this sometimes, when she's with sam. she's afraid of the answer; it's selfish.)

speaking of thing's never being dull, there could be a mistletoebot catching them in its evil radius right about now. it nudges elena closer and starts piping up about kissage. that is a look of alarm on her face. ]

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	tallerthanthou 2014-03-16 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	[He was so caught up in talking to Elena he'd managed to forget exactly what day it was, but here's his reminder. It's the day when everything feels just a little more complicated than it did the day before.] It's almost like it was listening to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

matter
2014-03-17 03:00 am UTC (link)

[ listening to the both of them even? ~~or y'know they have horrible muns.~~ the irony isn't lost on elena. her alarm transforms; the prospect of sam kissing her, her kissing sam... now. during this conversation, after everything. it won't be easy or fair, and in true elena gilbert fashion, her concern is for him. she shakes her head. ] Sam, we don't have to- [ 'kiss!' the bot insists. oh wait, they do, and her reassurance that they don't isn't realistic.

elena licks her lips and stumbles forward another step, right in front of him. close enough that she has to lift her eyes to find his. the moment she does, she feels a burst of annoyance and humiliation at their situation and exhales. ]

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tallerthanthou
2014-03-23 08:45 pm UTC (link)

I'm still not exactly sure what the alternative is, but I don't think it's better. [Everything about this is awkward, isn't it? Wanting to kiss her. Knowing he shouldn't want to. Knowing it's only going to complicate already complicated feelings.

And yet somehow that exhale of hers makes him laugh. Probably not an appropriate response if there is an appropriate one to be had. It does manage to break some of his tension though.] I'm not that bad of a kisser am I?

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matter
2014-03-23 11:41 pm UTC (link)

[ potentially being suffocated? probably not. everything about this is awkward. for all the reasons he's thinking and the reason she knows she shouldn't. but the sound of his laugh breaks the tension for her too. she blinks in surprise at his comment and exhales a breath of amusement too, half-shakes her head at the ludicrousness of this all. (and the longing, and the wanting...)

he's not a bad kisser. kissing him: it's something she's remembering as her smile sobers and she lifts her eyes to meet his again. ] No.

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	tallerthanthou 2014-03-24 04:42 am UTC (link)
	[Some of that tension is back. At least one specific strain of it as she looks back into her eyes. He doesn't say anything because he doesn't know what to say. Instead, his hand raises up to brush back her hair at her neck, thumb brushing across her jaw for a moment before he leans down. There's a lot of space to cross here.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

matter
2014-03-24 02:29 pm UTC (link)

[ it feels like miles. her lids lower and she pulls in a quiet, shallow breath in anticipation; feels the warmth of it as his thumb finds her jaw and her gaze drops to his lips. (this is not what she should want, and it's happening.) she reaches for his chest and pushes herself up. it's all breath and his heartbeat suddenly, hunger and thirst beneath the surface, but she's better at differentiating and controlling it now. at least there's that. her hand reaches his collar, but she looks to his eyes once more, searching and wanting, before closing the space between them. ]

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tallerthanthou
2014-03-31 04:28 am UTC (link)

[And then there was nothing left but the contact. He's not sure how long this kiss actually lasted. He forgot his stopwatch today, but it feels like a lot of time ticks by as he feels the first gentle press of lips to when he pushes in further—instinctively deepening the kiss that shouldn't be happening. He's not sure when his other arm slid around her, pulling her closer, but it did and it is.

It's important to be convincing for the bots, right?]

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matter
2014-03-31 04:16 pm UTC (link)

[ elena's not sure how much time passes either. she only knows it's longer than it needs to be, that it's not for the bot's sake that moment he presses in and deepens it. it makes her gasp ever slightly, makes what still lingers between them brighten and become real. she loops an arm around his shoulders, lets him pull her closer, parts her lips to taste him, and rests a palm against his cheek.

she shouldn't be doing this, kissing sam - not like this. she gets lost to the feeling, to the desire, and it's not much longer after that she confuses it for a different kind of hunger for a few moments too long. viciousness blossoms, the desire to do something else drives her to panic. veins open under her eyes and she feels her fangs push out. breaking away from his mouth and pushing back from his chest inhumanly fast is all she can manage to protect him.

not knowing or understanding how she's reacting and feeling; wanting to devour him - it's horrifying, but not quite like him being able to see it plainly. ] I'm sorry, I'm sorry- [ her eyes drop to the pulse in his neck. she's not sure if she's sorry for acting this way in front of him, for being a vampire, or for wanting to bite him - because she still wants to. (and she would.) ]

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tallerthanthou
2014-03-31 08:45 pm UTC (link)

[It's not fear that has him letting her go and pulling back even as she pushes him. It's instinct. It's about getting a little distance so he can...what? Pull out a blade? Attack her? Kill her? He can't do that either. Not to Elena. Not to another person he cares about. Or maybe it is fear and what really scares him is knowing he could. If he needed to...he could.

But he watches her—breathing a little heavier from the kiss and the adrenaline. She looks different. Less human. But that's still her voice calling out to him—apologizing even though she hasn't done anything. Yet?]

Elena? [He's following her gaze and has a pretty good idea of what she's looking at.] Come on, pull it together.

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matter
2014-03-31 09:12 pm UTC (link)

[ she's not thinking - she's imagining what it would be like to give in. her hand is still on his chest; it would just take a lunge. she hasn't - she's never - drank from someone before, and it's the most natural impulse and desire in the world. (she's terrified and terrified about how right it feels. she's a predator.)

blood fills her eyes and she finds sam's. she nearly lunges, but her hand is still against his chest. she can feel, hear, know his heart is beating, and he's telling her to pull it together. (he believes she's the kind of person who wouldn't do this.)

she wants his heart to keep beating.

(caroline told her when this happens, and it would, to keep breathing.) she breathes shakily, in and out, through her nose and out through her mouth; her lashes flutter. she nods as the blood retreats and the veins around her eyes fade; tears quickly replace them and her hand drops.

(she would have- she could have- she's capable of it.) ] I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.

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tallerthanthou
2014-03-31 09:33 pm UTC (link)

[There's definitely relief when her skin smooths out again and she looks like herself—her old self—her human self. It's short lived as the tears come instead.

There are mismatched instincts inside him. One to pull her close again and comfort her. Another to be the hunter he is, but doesn't want to think about where she's concerned. He fights off both of them. If their kiss brought that out then being close is the last place he should be right now. He still wants to soothe, but he needs to know more about what just happened.]

Do you...need to get to the blood shack?

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matter
2014-03-31 09:50 pm UTC (link)

[ blood. he wants to know if she needs blood, and it's the last thing she wants and the only she ever does. she turns away on shaky feet and takes a few steps, her hands no better as they push back her hair. a few tears fall as she blinks. ] No, I- [ but it's yes. yes, she needs blood. she wants it warm and alive and she needs the cheap imitation of it to make her feel like she doesn't want it from the vein. ] Yes, but I'm fine. I wanted to- [ hurt him. she can't finish the sentence. she turns back to him, eyes downcast at first, her voice suddenly small. ] I didn't hurt you? [ she looks him over - sees he's okay. she wants to touch him again to know it. she can't possibly imagine if he would want that, and she's terrified at the moment to reach out. ]

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	tallerthanthou 2014-04-06 08:42 pm UTC (link)
	[He shakes his head slowly.] I'm fine. [Physically fine. This was a harsh, and probably necessary reminder of the stakes here, but he's still not attacking or pulling away.] Are you okay? [He can see she feels badly about it, but is she in control?] I know what it's like to have a craving... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	matter 2014-04-17 02:13 am UTC (link)
	[ he knows. of course he would know. she eyes skirt away from his because she still feels alone in this, still frightened and alone and this isn't what she wants. (she can't think of the still-present desire to tear into his throat. she can't think of wanting to stay and listen to his understanding.) she's not okay. ] I think I have to go. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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