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Tweak says, "I'm multiple and OK!"

Eliot (magicianeliot) wrote in valloic,
@ 2022-03-09 21:34:00

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!: network post, ₴ inactive: allison hargreeves, ₴ inactive: eleanor shellstrop ii, ₴ inactive: eliot waugh, ₴ inactive: fen, ₴ inactive: hazel levesque, ₴ inactive: klaus hargreeves, ₴ inactive: marina andrieski, ₴ inactive: noah czerny, ₴ inactive: rasalas black, ₴ inactive: raylan givens, ₴ inactive: sydney clarke

Fuck it. That is all. Or if you feel inclined, tell me a secret.

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	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 06:09 am UTC (link)
	Eh, I'm okay. I'd like that. I was thinking about flying a few days ago. Are you busy tomorrow evening? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-10 06:11 am UTC (link)
	Okay. It just felt like you might not be. I’m not busy tomorrow night. Are you collecting secrets? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 06:16 am UTC (link)
	There are times I don't feel ok. ~~Too many times.~~ Had a bit of a bad day/night. I work until 7. Is 7:30 to late to meet up? Not really. I like secrets. What people choose to share can say something about who they are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eliot/Rasalas

muleonis
2022-03-10 06:28 am UTC (link)

I’m sorry. You’re free to text if you need to. We have four dogs and they like company.

No. I usually go flying late at night. The cold is grounding, so I don’t mind.

Ah. I’m not sure I have many secrets. It’s easy to find some things about me. I think the only real secret is that I kept the presents my sister gave me from before she was disowned in a box under my bed so my parents didn’t know.

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	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 06:34 am UTC (link)
	Thanks Ras. I appreciate that. I remember that now. That's sad and sweet. I'm sorry about your sister. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-10 06:54 am UTC (link)
	No problem. Everyone needs something. Sometimes it helps to have something to make you focus on the present. It’s okay. I was terrible to her. I didn’t really want to be, but I was also fiercely loyal to our family and somewhat brainwashed, I suppose. Trapped in a role I didn’t want and wasn’t prepared for. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 07:12 am UTC (link)
	Yes and/or someone. It most definitely does. Family is something many people are fiercely loyal too. I don't know about brainwashing, but all around it sounds like it wasn't a pleasant position to be in. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eliot/Rasalas

muleonis
2022-03-10 07:21 am UTC (link)

Yes. Friends are important. And family, even found family.

I still don’t want to disappoint them and I know I would also be disowned if our parents ever showed up, but I try not to think about it too much. It was my greatest fear as a child. Still, I’ve learned that purity of blood does not always equate to being better than others. Even non-magical people have worth. I tend to use magic for everything. I’ve lost magic before because of Tumbleweed being Tumbleweed. It is humbling to realize how little I know how to do without magic.

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	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 07:28 am UTC (link)
	I meant more of the romantic persuasion as opposed to friends. Then I hope they don't get pulled into here. I can't say I understand that completely, but I think it is similar to how certain family names/families are revered on earth. I've only used magic once since coming here. It can do a lot, but I've also learned it can't do everything or fix everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eliot/Rasalas

muleonis
2022-03-10 07:39 am UTC (link)

Oh. I’ve never…um…had any romantic persuasion. Not that I’ve tried.

I don’t think Sirius would be happy if they did. And I think it’s better for everyone if they don’t. It’s hard to miss your parents and also not wish to see them. If I could have anyone from home, it would be Kreacher, but Sirius would not be pleased with that either. Magic is slightly necessary for certain things. Like potions. Also the greenhouses.

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	Re: Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 07:51 am UTC (link)
	Never? You mean you've never dated anyone or anything? I imagine it is hard, but then I've never missed my parents because they were assholes to say the least. I suppose it is, but I lived without magic before. I also know it's different in different places and necessary for some things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eliot/Rasalas

muleonis
2022-03-10 08:02 am UTC (link)

No. My parents were eventually going to decide on a husband, but I guess I didn’t overly care to explore anything at the time and I just haven’t found a reason to since then? I haven’t even kissed anyone before. Is that weird?

Yeah. Mine weren’t entirely wonderful, but they were mine anyway. It’s confusing, I suppose. Yeah. We always have magic back home. I’ve only been without a couple of times.

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	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 08:16 am UTC (link)
	Arranged marriage. I know the feeling sort of. You have no interest in dating? How old are you? It's not weird. It will happen when it's meant to. I can't say the same. I don't claim them. We always had magic until we didn't, but that's a whole other story that I don't like thinking about. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-10 04:25 pm UTC (link)
	Pureblood families. I was the heir. I am not overly concerned with it, I suppose. And I don’t think I’d be comfortable with anything just strictly physical. That is just physical, I mean. Twenty. The way people talk about it, it’s hard to say. I’m sorry. You don’t have to talk about anything you don’t want to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Eliot/Rasalas

magicianeliot
2022-03-10 05:44 pm UTC (link)

I know what you meant. There's certainly nothing wrong with wanting love/something more than just sex. You're young and have your whole life ahead of you. You'll find someone when and if you want to. Probably when you least expect it.

No need to apologize. It's just that shit started going downhill after we lost magic and I was pulled into here right before we got it back.

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	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-10 05:57 pm UTC (link)
	That is what I've been told. Oh. Sometimes places like this mess with magic abilities. Not terribly often, but on occasion. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 06:03 pm UTC (link)
	You don't sound too convinced. haha I didn't mess with my abilities. I just haven't used them much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-10 06:28 pm UTC (link)
	It is, at least, not the most important thing. If it happens, it does, if not? I guess that's fine. I'm not sure I could stop. But I just meant in general sometimes it happens. Just so you know if you do and it seems off. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-10 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	Fair enough. Everyone has different priorities. At 20 I wasn't interested in a serious relationship. I've had a tough time. But such is life. I should probably do some practicing to make sure everything is ok. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-10 07:21 pm UTC (link)
	I doubt I will find one at 20 or any other age at this point. I could worry about it, but it feels like a lot of energy. I think that’s normal for here. If you ever want to practice with company or talk, I’ll be here (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-13 01:07 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry for the delayed reply. It is a lot of energy. I suppose one has to decide if it's worth it. ~~Sometimes I wonder.~~ Normal. What is normal? Thanks Ras, I appreciate that. We should hang out soon. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-17 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	Hey Ras, how are you doing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-17 11:11 pm UTC (link)
	I've been okay. Are you well? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas magicianeliot 2022-03-17 11:20 pm UTC (link)
	I'm doing alright. Have you been watching the video feed? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eliot/Rasalas muleonis 2022-03-17 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	I'd seen a few minutes of it previously, but I wasn't really comfortable with it as something to watch continuously. It's...kind of a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)