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Tweak says, "My fandom has golden gardenias"

Cisco Ramon (twizzleraddict) wrote in momadness_net,
@ 2021-11-01 14:31:00

Entry tags:

dc: ray palmer, dc: zari tarazi, heartless: cath corvus, marvel: kate bishop, marvel: sharon carter, marvel: steve rogers, ~inactive: ben hargreeves, ~inactive: cisco ramon, ~inactive: darcy lewis, ~inactive: henry foss, ~inactive: kara danvers, ~inactive: peter parker (mcu), ~inactive: thor odinson, ~inactive: yelena belova

Don't really have enough pieces for a proper dia de los muertos alter, but hopefully it's enough. It's incomplete but I guess nothing I can do about that.

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	Ben/Cisco twizzleraddict 2021-11-02 03:03 am UTC (link)
	It's for my brother..it's a little complicated so making sense isn't required..I'm not sure I am either, things were..complicated. But he's still family, so I think this will be good. This should count. ..Can you still see them? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ben/Cisco phantombenace 2021-11-02 03:25 am UTC (link)
	No, I'm sorry. I can't. If he could somehow be there, though, I'm sure he'd appreciate all the thought and effort you're putting into his memory. Especially in a brand new universe. That has to count extra. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ben/Cisco twizzleraddict 2021-11-02 04:45 am UTC (link)
	Oh, it's okay. It makes sense. I mean I'm scientifically confused on how it'll work, but that helps. Science probably doesn't apply here. I was..overthinking it all. Probably am still doing so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ben/Cisco phantombenace 2021-11-02 12:39 pm UTC (link)
	I'm here for you, y'know? Anything you need or want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ben/Cisco twizzleraddict 2021-11-02 02:32 pm UTC (link)
	~~I wasn't a great brother.~~ I'm sorry, I'm kind of a mess with this stuff. Never put up the ofrenda on my own. You know that goes both ways right? I could use a hug. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ben/Cisco phantombenace 2021-11-02 04:17 pm UTC (link)
	You have absolutely nothing to apologize for. And I know. Just like you should know I'm always up for hugs. Especially if they're with you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ben/Cisco twizzleraddict 2021-11-02 05:42 pm UTC (link)
	The last thing we did was argue, me and him. Come with me to work on the photo for a bit? You don't need to stay the whole time, it might take a while. Then we'll go get the sweet breads after. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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phantombenace
2021-11-02 06:00 pm UTC (link)

I'm going to let you in on a little beyond-the-grave secret: the dead really hate it when all you remember is the regrets. Except if you were the cause of their death, and then they love it. But I don't think that was the case with your brother. I'm not telling you what you should or shouldn't feel, because I'd never be that overbearing. Just wanted to offer you an alternate viewpoint.

But, yeah, of course I'll come down. And I'll give you all kinds of hugs.

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Re: Ben/Cisco

twizzleraddict
2021-11-02 06:24 pm UTC (link)

I mean..it was kind of inadvertently my fault..my friends fault..he did something to our timeline that resulted in his death. I tried to reverse it but couldn't. And he wouldn't. ..I was in therapy for quite a while, just..yeah, those thoughts pop up some times. I couldn't do anything about it. We had some good times, it was just..complicated. I remember both.

Hugs help, especially yours.

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	Re: Ben/Cisco phantombenace 2021-11-02 09:21 pm UTC (link)
	Let's talk about the good ones when I come down. You, me, Darcy, Peter, and Ray. But I'm only giving you hugs. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ben/Cisco twizzleraddict 2021-11-02 09:35 pm UTC (link)
	That sounds good. I'd be a little sad if I had to share your hugs with that many people. <3 (Reply to this) (Parent)

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