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Tweak says, "Hell no, I won't go."

MarinaNova NPCs (marinanova_npc) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-04-04 11:02:00

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370 - Fear Itself: The Revenge

(OOC: EVENT INFO | RAFFLE THREAD)

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chipswiththat
2016-04-05 06:27 pm UTC (link)

[ He follows closely, opting to hang out by the bathroom door while Ianto gets himself cleaned up. He knows what it's like to be around someone easily spooked and although Ianto isn't blabbering about how the sky is on fire, Spike still lingers with the sort of quiet anticipation he maintained around Dru. You never know what'll trigger something. You have to prepare for anything.

As for sleep, he usually doesn't get any until closer to sunup. Some habits die hard and in this case, maybe that's a good thing. He can keep watch. ]

Should get you some clean clothes in the morning.

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readystopwatch
2016-04-05 06:33 pm UTC (link)

I'll figure it out then. [That is one thing in this building he will not be thinking of Chuck for, thanks. He's seen what her husband wears and that is not happening.]

Anyway you're the one covered in blood. [He points out, stepping into the shower and gasping a bit at the hot water. After the chill he's felt since the first time he spotted Tyki stepping out of the shadows it feels almost scalding. Mostly though it's just nice to be able to scrub his face clean, try to erase all evidence of what that encounter reduced him to. He leaves the shower door partially open, both the make the conversation and the view easier.]

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chipswiththat
2016-04-05 06:38 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, but that's expected, coming from me.

[ Point taken, though. He takes a moment to peel off the t-shirt, nose wrinkling at how it sticks to his skin. Black cotton should be easy enough to rinse out in the sink and that's enough to get him home tomorrow. ]

Take your time. I'll rinse off when you're done. [ As tempting as that shower looks right now, he'd rather not be plastered against the wall of it when the bands kick in. ]

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readystopwatch
2016-04-05 06:45 pm UTC (link)

[Any other day the idea of trying to shower without touching would seem like a very tantalizing game to play but he's not up to it at the moment. The water feels good, makes him feel a little more human and awake, not so fuzzy with fear. How long as it been since the encounter and nothing has happened yet? They must be safe for the moment. Or at least he hopes they are.]

Do you really think we're safe right now? That he won't come back tonight?

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	chipswiththat 2016-04-05 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	[ He hesitates on that answer for a moment, not sure if he wants to get into it while it's still so fresh but what the hell. ] Honestly? I'm not sure he's even here. We were on good terms, him and me, before he left. [ Tyki would let him know. ] I could try and call him. See if he's really around. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2016-04-05 07:20 pm UTC (link)

He was here. I'm sure he was. [He sounds so insistent at first but a note of hesitation creeps into his tone towards the end. He tries to think back objectively, without letting the fear influence his memories because now that he thinks about it he's fairly sure there was something off about him. Something wrong with his voice, especially. And there was something he read about last time this happened, that he can't quite put his finger on.

He steps out of the shower, leaving the water running for Spike while still wearing that look of concentration, like he's close to putting all the pieces together.]

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chipswiththat
2016-04-05 07:31 pm UTC (link)

[ Well, since Ianto is occupied with examining his grasp on reality Spike will just strip down the rest of the way and grab a quick shower. Emphasis on quick — he'll stay in there long enough to scrub the blood off him, hissing softly at how the water stings in the gash on his arm, but this isn't for pleasure.

Ah, fuck. His hair is going to go all curly, isn't it. No hair gel in this apartment. ]

We got any towels here?

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readystopwatch
2016-04-05 08:01 pm UTC (link)

[The curls will come as no surprise; he's already seen them on Captain John Hart, and he knows better than to say he thinks they're kind of cute. He passes over a towel, still looking thoughtful.]

The last time this happened multiple people reported running into something besides just the raptors. They said there was some sort of shape shifting creature out, something that looked like a persons fears. I read about it; Reid interviewed a few of them about their encounters.

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	chipswiththat 2016-04-05 08:07 pm UTC (link)
	[ He turns off the shower before towelling himself down, paying extra attention to the bloodied areas. One of the downsides of vampirism. Can't check in the mirror to see if he got it all. ] Huh. Think that was it? [ That would make more sense. If it was Tyki, the real Tyki, then why would he leave soon as Spike interrupted? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-04-05 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. [Ianto admits, helping to get some of the blood off but using the towel to keep from actually touching. It seems to work alright and the barrier doesn't activate.] I want it to be true but I'm scared to believe it. I don't want to let my guard down if he is back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

chipswiththat
2016-04-05 08:24 pm UTC (link)

[ Look at you, grooming him like they're an old married couple. Stupid band. Stupid barrier. There'd be a kiss right here if it weren't for stupid bands and stupid barriers. ]

Guess we'll find out in the morning... until then, you're safe here. [ And maybe he's adding some things to that list of his. Rehab points, panic button, maybe ask around for some other kind of protective system... you have to prepare. Anyone can become a victim. ]

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	readystopwatch 2016-04-05 08:55 pm UTC (link)
	[Imaginary kisses will have to do for now. It's not the same but he'll take what he can get.] I should call Jack, let him know where I am so he doesn't panic. [He doesn't want him to risk coming over, not if that monster might still be around.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-04-05 09:04 pm UTC (link)
	Alright. You do that, I'll set up the couch. [ Saving the bed for later. He promised him one and a bed he shall have, once they're free to make full use of it. ] You'll be okay. Trust me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2016-04-05 09:22 pm UTC (link)
	[He makes his call, has his conversation, then he's back, still looking a little on edge. The shower helped but he's afraid to try sleeping. It seems sort of pointless when he knows he'll just be up with nightmares soon.] I don't feel okay. I thought I was starting to get over what happened before and now this feels like I'm just back where I started. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-04-05 09:28 pm UTC (link)
	[ He kept busy, stealing pillows and comforters from the bedroom, making a nest out of the couch. If they're staying put, they might as well be comfortable. ] Hey... come here. [ Nice and easy, steady, no barriers tonight. They can do this. ] It's okay that you're not okay. Hell, I'd be worried if you bounced back like nothing happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2016-04-05 09:48 pm UTC (link)

[No barriers. He can manage that. He finds a sheet to wrap himself in, something to put a layer between his bare skin and Spike's touch just in case. Once it's in place he sinks down next to him, curling up in the pile of pillows and blankets he's made.] I know how to do it. Or I always felt like I could before. All the terrible things that have happened to me at home, I felt like I could just deal with them. Have them just be there, be painful, but keep going. Maybe this was just the last straw.

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chipswiththat
2016-04-05 09:54 pm UTC (link)

[ He makes himself comfortable, goes back to brushing his fingers lightly through Ianto's hair. Seems like as good a thing as any to do. ]

I know it's tempting to keep at it like you're indestructible, but it'll come back to bite you sooner or later. Trust me, I've seen it happen more times than I can count.

[ Young girls with the weight of the world on their shoulders. They try and they fail. Every time. ]

You're human. You're alive. You have to allow yourself to be both those things once in awhile.

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readystopwatch
2016-04-05 10:02 pm UTC (link)

Everyone at Torchwood dies young. [Not fatalistic or dramatic or anything, just so matter of fact. He's watched it. Tosh and Owen and Suzie, not to mention the hundreds of people at Torchwood London.] It's easier sometimes just to keep your head down and keep going. It's not like any of us have much time to learn to live with it.

[Its why he doesn't want to leave this place. Because it's a way out, a second chance that he knows he doesn't get at home. Here he can have friends and go out and do things besides worry if today's the day is damn job gets him killed.] I guess now that I don't have that to fall back on I don't really know how to live with things like this. Before I just always accepted that they'd be over soon enough.

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chipswiththat
2016-04-05 10:10 pm UTC (link)

[ Such a damn waste is the only thing he can think about this, thoughts similar to what he's been thinking about the whole Slayer system lately. People dying young for no goddamn good reason other than to protect others without getting anything out of it for themselves. His deal is infinitely better in comparison. Who needs a soul if you can live forever?

Except, now he has a soul and with that comes a conscience and more thinking than could ever be good for him. It hurts just to hear this and he tightens his hold around Ianto's shoulders. ]

Talk to me. We don't have to hash it all out tonight, but... talk to me. I have all the time in the world.

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readystopwatch
2016-04-05 10:24 pm UTC (link)

[Talking. It's what he told Jack he got from Spike when he asked what he gave him that Jack couldn't. He hasn't really been able to talk to him at all about what happened with Tyki. Maybe it was knowing that Jack has seen him die twice now, thinking it was perminant both times. Or maybe it's because of that stupid instinct he has to protect Jack because he knows he's the only one in the whole damn world who bothers to try. Whatever the reason, no, he hasn't talked about it. Chuck tried, and Kitty and Reid and Martha but he doesn't open up to people. When something hurts him this bad he always keeps the pain to himself. Another skill Torchwood taught him. He tried a therapist once, before Lisa died but it was a waste of time when he had to just lie about everything anyway. Or maybe it was easier to say that than to admit he doesn't know how to talk to people about things. If there's anyone he can try it with its probably Spike.]

The dying part really didn't bother me. It's what everyone seems to worry about but I've seen it happen to Jack so many times, and I knew it was going to happen to me. It was just everything else before. That's the part I can't get out of my head. [He pauses, swallows hard.]

We found these cannibals, once. Out in this village in the country. People were going missing and we thought it was aliens but it was humans, in the end. They trapped me and Tosh, and they had us in this basement and there was this fridge... [A long pause, because this is one of those bad things he mentioned, an entry on the list of Torchwood shit.] It was full of body parts. They'd butchered them, and it was so neat and organized, all the shelves and all. I keep thinking about that lately. About how I had to watch it happen to me.

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chipswiththat
2016-04-06 06:11 am UTC (link)

Dying is easy.

[ Dying is nothing. Dying is relief from whatever's killing you. He knows that perhaps better than anyone, considering how often he's been on the killing side. Probably something else a therapist can't relate to. ]

And they say demons are bad. [ He mutters under his non-breath. No need for quips right now, or bitter resentment. You can do better, Spikey. ] Even back then, if I'd known what Tyki was up to I would've done something. There's killing people and then there's this. Angelus was big on that whole torture thing but it just... never sat right with me.

[ So, you know. For what it's worth. Not much, he guesses. ]

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readystopwatch
2016-04-06 11:06 am UTC (link)

People are just as bad as anything else out there. [Dometimes he thinks that's why they get all the shit to begin with. They're not much different than the monsters.

He nods, because he believes that bit. They weren't all that close then but he thinks Spike means it even if he was friends with Tyki.] It was random. I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. No one would have know what he was up to. [He's said it so many times but it's never reassuring.]

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chipswiththat
2016-04-06 01:25 pm UTC (link)

[ He fakes a sigh because it's all so goddamn sad and it feels almost like he's too late to do something about it. Tyki isn't here, probably, and that leaves very little room for vengeance. It's hard to make a violent, bloody statement when the person you want to teach a lesson isn't around to learn it. ]

Maybe it was, but that doesn't mean it doesn't mean anything. It's random for him, but it happened to you. [ So, it's okay that it's a big deal. Don't downplay your own mortality like this. ]

Once this is cleared up, I'm going to pull some strings. I think I have an idea for something that could make you feel a lit'le safer.

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readystopwatch
2016-04-06 03:48 pm UTC (link)

[Maybe it's a habit he'll never break, pretending it's alright. He's watched Jack die so many times after all. Death and pain are just normal everyday things, like coffee or air. But it helps, hearing that. He hasn't really just gotten acceptance of it like that from anybody. Jack was so focused on bringing Tyki to justice that it felt like they skipped that step. Then again sometimes he thinks Jack is too used to death anyway. He doesn't remember how it felt to be scared of it.] It happened. It feels like it's been long enough, like I should be over it. Like I shouldn't expect people to still talk about it with me.

[Or maybe that's anther one of the excuses he tells himself to keep people away and not have to worry about opening up. He's got a lot of those.] I feel safe with you here.

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chipswiththat
2016-04-06 04:07 pm UTC (link)

Trust me, that won't stop for a long time.

[ Death and dismemberment are two things people love to gossip about almost as much as they love denying that they love to gossip about it. Either you accept that you'll be the talk of the town or you do something that makes them think twice about bringing up that particular topic. ]

And you should, because you are. [ Well. Relatively. ] I was thinking for the times when I'm not with you... unless you expect me to follow you around like a lovesick puppy..?

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