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Zero Kiryuu (notamasochist) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-05-01 01:05:00

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yuuki kuran, zero kiryuu

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[Zero is only here to support his roommates, not play. Because of that, he's sitting in the grass a distance away from even the crowd, observing everyone. Both his roommates are the captains of each respective team, so choosing a team to cheer for was impossible for him as he couldn't choose favorites between Hikaru and Yuuri. He's here in spirit but not really mind, a million thoughts running through his head as he watches everyone go through the motions of the familiar game. He tries to avoid it, but his attention is continually drawn to a specific player on the field, irritation rising within him as he watches her. Yet still he sits, quiet and observant.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-01 06:18 am UTC (link)

[She's well aware of his presence, too. But she tries to ignore it. In fact, she keeps her eyes well trained away from the direction in the crowd she knows he's been sitting. Now that the games over, though, after focusing on mingling with others, a little, she moves off to the side a ways. Kneeling down, she adjusts one of her socks, and shakes her hair free of her baseball hat beneath the shade of a tree.

They'll just have to try harder next time. Snatching her water bottle from her bag, she takes a long drink of the tablet infused water, eyes closing as she rests against the tree.

What now? It's easier having things like this to occupy her time, so that she doesn't have time to think. At least she still has her song to focus on. Maybe that's what she'll do next.]

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notamasochist
2013-05-01 06:20 am UTC (link)

[He can't help but find himself somewhat annoyed that she's purposely avoiding him, not that he could blame her given the situation, but it still left this irrational irritation behind. Even more so that he could not seem to keep his own attention off her.

After several moments of watching her gathering her belongings on her own away from the rest of the crowd, something within him just snaps and he finds himself closing the gap between where he'd been sitting and where she stood on the sidelines. Either this move was made entirely of guts or stupidity, but he wouldn't know until he tried.

Each step he makes holds purpose and intent as he approaches her. Gaze clear and determined, he stands in front of her.]

I've given you plenty of time to change your mind.

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trappedinresin
2013-05-01 06:23 am UTC (link)

[The approach is sudden enough that she doesn't have a lot of time to react before he's quickly closing the gap between them. One moment she she's alone, and then she's not. Eyes widening, her back presses to the tree, her own brows drawing down as she stares up at him.]

Zero, you-

[What is it? He makes it so difficult, when he keeps searching her out, or finding her. It makes her heart ache.]

Sorry, I'm busy right now. I need to leave...

[A quiet, mumbled reply. Her hand lowers to retrieve her bag. A quick, clean exit is what she needs. It's running away, but she can't think past the way her heart speeds up, panic setting in. What is she supposed to say to him? 'Plenty of time' he says. It's not been nearly long enough.]

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notamasochist
2013-05-01 06:24 am UTC (link)

[Gonna have to be faster than that, Kuran. That hand that was reaching for the bag currently is being tugged away, fingers surrounding her wrist as he pulls.]

You have something that belongs to me.

[But he can't do this here, it's still too close to the crowds for his comfort, so his fingers tighten on her wrist so she can't get loose and drags the both of them away. Putting distance between the ball diamond and the two of them.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-01 06:27 am UTC (link)

[No. No no no no. With a tug back she attempts to reclaim her wrist but the grip is tight.]

Stop-! Zero...!

[Pulling in the opposite direction his strength is ridiculously strong, rivaling her own. Those stupid hunter genes, something she can curse in the moment. In an effort to slow him down, she grinds her feet into the ground, but it merely forces her to stumble forward.]

Let me go, Zero!! You can't- [Just force the memories out of her. She wont talk. Not like this.] Can't you just leave things as they are!?

[It's a desperate question. It's better this way! It's what she wants to believe, what she's sure had been the right decision. If he remembers-- if he gains those memories back, how can she possibly move forward? How can he possibly remain removed from it all, and out of harms way? Again she grinds her heels into the ground and gives a powerful yank of her arm.]

I said stop it!

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notamasochist
2013-05-01 06:32 am UTC (link)

[Rage bubbles to the surface as she struggles against him. Leave things the way they are? He can't live like this. Knowing the very little he does know, it still wasn't enough. It was just another case of a pureblood manipulating and tainting things to suit her own needs.]

They don't belong to you. They aren't anyone's to just take.

[Jaw clenching, his eyes flashed angrily as his head whipped around to face her yet still moving forward away from everyone. He'd given her the opportunity to do the right thing, but she'd still refused to make any movements to amend her wrongdoings.]

I didn't want this. You even said this wasn't my wish. I don't care what supposed relationship we had previously because what you've done is reason enough that your kind shouldn't even exist.

[Selfish and stepping on others, acting however they pleased without fear of repercussion. Purebloods were the most loathsome creatures to ever walk the face of this earth.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-01 06:40 am UTC (link)

[It hurts, of course, to hear. Those bitter and angry words, and yet so understandable right now, too. Although they aren't anything new, those feelings of the hatred and anger toward the pureblood.

Her opposite hand reaches out to try and pry his fingers from her wrist, but his grip is iron tight. Pulling back with all her strength she throws her weight into the opposite direction. Failing, and desperate, she glares up at him in response.]

And then...? When you get Bloody Rose back, is that what you intend to do? Correct that?

[How easy it may just be, when he doesn't know her any longer. Not like before. If he truly sees her as nothing more than a manipulative pureblood. Maybe it's a fate she even deserves.]

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notamasochist
2013-05-01 06:59 am UTC (link)

[Yes!...no. He doesn't know. There was a part of him that knew that was exactly his intentions, he wanted to rid the world of the purebloods.

Yet something in him knew that wasn't the case with this one.

He felt his grip begin to slip against her struggles, determined to maintain control over her so she was unable to escape. When she tries to pry his hand off, he grasps her free hand and captures it too.]

Hell if I know what my intentions even are at this point. Someone stole any knowledge of that away from me.

[Voice cold and angry, he knows he probably won't be able to get her much further away from the point he's got her now. It isn't as far as he'd prefer to be, but small as she might be, the girl was a pureblood. Here would have to do.]

You'd better hope I'm not pissed.

[Hands confining both hers, Zero hooked a foot behind her legs and with a swift movement, applied pressure to force her to the ground on her knees.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-01 07:24 am UTC (link)

[She winches when her knees buckle, both hands caught to either side in that same, unyielding grasp. It's no use, especially on her knees. She can't pull back far.

Gaze wide, she looks up at him in alarm and frustration.]

Zero...? Zero just stop, what are you doing!?

[Her teeth grit. Leaning back, and away from him, her eyes catch the gleam of the bracelet upon her wrist. That's right...! With a jerk forward, she hopes the sudden change in direction will throw him off enough, that it can connect with the tattoo upon his neck. Just something to get him to release her, even temporarily.]

I'm sorry about this, Zero!

[But she has to try.]

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notamasochist
2013-05-01 02:10 pm UTC (link)

[Hands struggle against the force she pushes against him. With the attempt at taking her down, his balance isn't as firm as he'd prefer it to be. There's little he can do but go with the momentum she's forced on him. Falling back, Zero focuses all his energy instead on keeping the taming charm off his neck and the spell from activating.

The moment his back hits the ground, he's moving again. His right leg swings out to cradle against her left hip as he keeps her left hand as far away from him as he can manage. Pressing their remaining hands against the ground, he uses the weight of his body to push off his left shoulder and the velocity of the movement to reverse their positions.

Hips suddenly now straddling her, he's able to use his weight to press her hands into the ground above her head and away from him.]

Yeah, you won't be keeping that thing...

[Head lowering to the curve of her neck, a single thought floats through his head as his fangs move to puncture the delicate skin of the vein that instictively calls to him. 'Her scent is the most intoxicating thing I've ever experienced...'

And then her blood hits his tongue and he realizes how quickly that statement was proven wrong.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-01 04:10 pm UTC (link)

[How quickly the tables turn.]

No... [Struggling is ineffective beneath his weight, and he has the advantage, with her hands solidly pinned above her. She can't struggle out of his grasp, and it's not as though she wants to hurt him with any of her abilities, either. Amazingly she even has to wonder what tricks and abilities he himself has, despite not being a pureblood himself.] Zero....?

[It's not until the fringe of his hair brushes her neck that she realizes just how he intends to take back his stolen memories. Her breath catches, eyes wide. The panic within builds. No- at this rate everything will have been in vain.]

Wait... stop!

[But it's too late. Fangs sink deep into her throat, and his mouth clamps upon her skin. Physically she can feel as he draws, for the first time in so long, upon her blood. Both hands spasm, and she squeezing her eyes shut tight, as though it will somehow block the memories. Body tense, she shakes her head, feeling devastation.]

Ze... Zero...!

[This isn't the way things were supposed to go. Her struggles are fierce to start, but he merely holds her tighter and the seconds that tick by slow her down. Was everything useless from the beginning?

I only wanted to protect him. I just couldn't turn off my feelings.

How can she move forward when everything binds her? She can't turn Kaname human if she knows Zero still loves her. She can't afford to be weak now, when lives are on the line. She doesn't want him to suffer the pain of starvation any longer because of her account.]

Ah-

[Her breath comes in a soft gasp. He's taking so much, even her energy is beginning to drain. What now, she wonders...?]

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notamasochist
2013-05-01 05:26 pm UTC (link)

[It's startling and a little frightening how quickly he finds himself completely lost in her blood. Overwhelmed with the emotions infusing him with every drop of the coppery fluid, he has difficulty dividing the feelings to determine which were his own and which belonged to the girl beneath him.

'If you were not a hunter, nor I a vampire...'

'It's a tattoo...'
'Whhhhh~y? Zero is becoming a delinquent!'

'I won't run away anymore...'

'I only desired your blood Yuuki...'

'Sorry Zero, I won't make blunders anymore.'

The emptiness he's felt slowly begins to fill the areas that previously were a void. Understanding. Pain. Heartache. Loss. Not all of it good, with the return of everything--so do the scars return. The parts of her etched on his heart and within his soul. The things he tried to cut out and remove himself, unsuccessfully.

Everything has to literally be pulled from her blood,five years of memories and feelings between the two of them. It isn't an easy task and the amount of blood he's taken in terrifies him because there just doesn't seem to be an end.

She'd stop struggling against him long ago,so he slid his hand down around the bracelet. Fingers curling around the delicate metal chain. She'd never removed it since the moment she received it, as far as he'd known.

'Use it. Force me to submit. The taming spell still works.'
'I won't need to. That's only for Level E.'

'Actually Zero-kun doesn't detest all vampires, does he? You would have killed Yuuki by now because she betrayed you...'
'Betray what...never once did I think of it that way.'

With a sharp tug, the metal gives way breaking the chain.

The image of his last memory before the last of his memories were taken tattooed in his head, Zero finally pulls away with extremely conflicting emotions tearing him apart.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-01 07:39 pm UTC (link)

[At some point her eyes slipped shut. She could hear the sound of her blood being drawn from her, the way his mouth moved against her throat but she couldn't do anything to stop it. Every drop taken was a memory returned, she knew.

When he finally pulls back she barely notices, slipping in an out of consciousnesses. Her eyes flutter, though, when she feels something snap against her wrist. On her wrist...?

What did he...

But it's like wading through water, trying to put coherent thoughts together. Her eyes catch only a glimpse of him, before the heavy feeling in her lids weight them down again. A quiet, lonely tear rolls down the side of a cheek.

I'm sorry, Zero. Truly. She's never meant to hurt him like this, or have things spiral out of control. She's just no good at watching over the people she cares about. It's one of her last thoughts before sleep claims her. I wanted to protect everyone, but instead I messed up again.

A sad thought. She never learns from her mistakes.

I don't know what to do anymore...]

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notamasochist
2013-05-02 03:19 am UTC (link)

[Tongue sliding out to clean up the escaped blood on his lower lip, Zero slowly slides his hands off Yuuki's arms. Fingers clench at the metal charm held tightly within his hand as he shamefully climbs off of her. He hadn't wanted to have to take everything by force in this manner, but he didn't regret getting the memories back.

Zero gives an emotional sigh, his own heart aching deeply as he watches her pulse beat in her neck. Even after all that he'd taken from her in those moments, it was almost sickening to think about the fact that even after all that, drinking to the point of her passing out from the blood loss was not enough deterrent to quench the desire for her--even for the slightest length of time.

It isn't hunger. That's the one thing he realizes, it's more than that. It's comfort, longing and the need to be surrounded by what he'd been missing. For probably the first time in his life...it isn't hunger. It's the simple act of wanting to be surrounded by her. All of her.

His left hand reaches over to brush the hair out of her face. Emotions all muddled up, he closes his eyes as he leans over her until they were forehead to forehead. For several seconds he just remains like that, content to just let the gentle exhalation of her breath glide over him.

He hadn't known. How could he have known?

Clenching the bracelet in his right hand, a reminder to himself of everything he'd almost lost out of sheer stubbornness.]

Who we are. Everything we've been through.

I don't regret it.

I wouldn't change any of it.

Yuuki isn't someone I would ever wish to forget. If we were both human, things would have been different. Everything might have been different.

A world without Yuuki in my life--is something I would never wish for. I tried to protect myself from everything and ended up hurting you...

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trappedinresin
2013-05-02 11:57 pm UTC (link)

[It's as his fingers gently brush the hair from her face that she stirs, just briefly. The warmth of his forehead rests against her. In the moment there isn't much she can do. Not yet. But she can listen.

And she does.

Ah- the heavy ache within her chest stirs emotions. Those words, so soft and tender, reach her heart. Words she's never thought she would hear. How can he possibly say such pretty things? If it wasn't for her family then his own would still be alive. If so many people weren't always trying to protect her, then Zero would have been left alone.

Even after all of that? Even after trying to spare him further misery and removing herself from his life. How...? She can barely believe the things she's hearing.

It's difficult to move, the feeling similar to being neck deep in quicksand. Somehow though, she manages to lift a hand. Fingers gently brush against the warmth of one of his cheeks.

This kind, beautiful, strong person. She loves him. Painfully so. These past few weeks have been some of the most lonely in her life.

Being hated... is almost easier than being forgotten.]

Zero...

[Her hand slips back down, eyes closing. She doesn't have the energy to speak, but she hopes, even just a little bit, her feelings can reach him. Past whatever he's seen in her blood. There's so much to say, yet words are inadequate. No apology is large enough, and there's no way to really say just how important and precious he is to her. The impact he's had on her life isn't small. Not at all.

His existence is great. And even after all of this time he's still so very loved and cherished in her heart.]

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notamasochist
2013-05-03 11:49 am UTC (link)

[He isn't sure if she has heard him or not, until the moment the touch of fingers brush his face. His eyes open and he pulls away just the tiniest bit to look into her face. Her eyes are still closed as his name falls from her lips, her hand only lingers a moment before it falls again to her side. The effort she is making is obviously herculean, though futile when she's so weak. He leans back down and brushes the slightest kiss across her brow.]

Don't push yourself. Just rest. We'll talk later.

[Sitting back, Zero opens the hand that holds the taming bracelet within it. Of everything, this is the part that hurts the most. He understood her reasoning, but the betrayal still hurts. With a long sigh, Zero places the bracelet in his pocket knowing he'd betrayed her as well in the past. Neither of them were blameless in this relationship.

Hands sliding beneath her body, he moved to stand up with her cradled in his arms. Her heartbeat steady in his ears as he holds her against him, Zero heads back to his apartment.

Their apartment.

The place they'd move into together with Yuuri and Hikaru when they'd been switched to this dome. Just like they'd lived together back in the old facility. The same apartment she'd high tailed it out of the moment he'd landed back in the facility.

He remembered everything.

Entering the apartment, Zero carries her down to the spare bedroom in their apartment. Her bedroom. Gently he places her on the bed and covers her up with one of the blankets.

He leaves only long enough to retrieve a book from his own room before returning to take a seat on the floor against the wall. And like he had countless times before over the years--he waited by her side until she needed him.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-04 03:06 am UTC (link)

[Time passes. When her eyes finally open again, it takes a moment for them to adjust, blurry and so heavy. Her mind doesn't quite catch up with the situation just yet. Staring at the ceiling above her, she's still dazed.

Her room.

Although she can't remember going to bed or the overwhelming drowsiness that prompts her to return back to sleep. Both her arms feel like led, weighted at her side.

Why am I so weak?

Thirsty, too. Painfully so.

Drawing a short breath, she turns her head to the side. And that's when she notices him. Zero. And that's when she notices for the first time that this isn't her room. Not her current one, anyway. It's her old one. Everything catches up with her all at once.

That's right. He knows exactly who she is. And after ingesting so much of her blood he's seen much more than just his own memories.

Hands lifting, she covers her face.

Ah-]

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notamasochist
2013-05-05 12:54 am UTC (link)

[Every little move or sound leaves him glancing in her direction to check her status. Zero starts rereading the same exact page probably fifteen times before giving up and placing the book on the side table he leaned against.

He doesn't know how long he'll have to wait for her to wake, but he has no plans on leaving her side until after she wakes and they talk.

She'd removed his memories because she'd planned on ending her life. Sacrificing her very life for the sake of someone she cared about. He'd put her in this situation before himself, but this time it was Kaname Kuran's doing.

She didn't want to lose anyone else. It was a sentiment he understood all too well, but to go as far as sacrificing her life is something he'd never want for her. Yuuki's blood was full of misery and heartbreak, not all of which was in relation to Kaname Kuran.

Zero himself held a large portion of that pain in her heart, something he hadn't realized the impact of until today.

Her shifting in the bed draws his attention, a hand lifting over her face an obvious indication that Yuuki was now awake. Getting to his knees he reaches over and grasps the hand that is covering her face. Reality can't be hidden away.]

Feeling better?

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trappedinresin
2013-05-05 01:31 am UTC (link)

[Her tongue flicks out to lick her lips. That's a complicated and loaded question. To an extent, an immense weight feels lifted off her shoulders. There's no more lies. She doesn't have to hide or hurt anymore by trying to keep such an unfair and terrible secret.

But the guilt is there. Oh it's there, strong and fresh and powerful. Although putting all of that aside, how she physically feels is another story all together. The thrum of his pulse through his hand is felt while he still holds her own. Her eyes are a dark, crimson shade, flecked much redder than their usual sorrel color.

'Feeling better...?'

She stares quietly, guiltily, across the room, and gives a small nod of her head. At least she's regained consciousness. She can't imagine she's been out for too long. In the end she really doesn't know what to say. Even though she has so many things she has to.]

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notamasochist
2013-05-05 03:02 am UTC (link)

[She's trying to avoid him, that much is obvious by the way she's not responding to his question or refusal to give him eye contact of any kind. He's not going anywhere though until she begins to talk. She'll understand that soon enough.]

Are you angry that I took them back?

[He knows she's not, otherwise she'd be pulling her hand away from his grasp and she hasn't done that. But getting her to come back her realm of guilt and self-loathing has to start someplace. He knows getting her to even talk--really talk about everything will take time. She isn't the only one that has something that needs to be said though. But they need to start someplace.]

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trappedinresin
2013-05-05 04:22 am UTC (link)

No.

[A soft, breathless word as she shakes her head. She isn't angry. Of course she's not. What right has she to such an emotion in regards to his memories? Although it's something that she stole, it's never been something she wanted to do. The whole time it just hurt.

The fact that he's taken them back... she can't be mad at him for reclaiming something that is rightfully his. Closing her eyes she draws another breath for the energy to speak, and gather her thoughts and emotions.]

Of course not.

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notamasochist
2013-05-05 03:36 pm UTC (link)

[Retreiving something by force, she wouldn't mind since it had originally been taken from him in the same way. They were his Her voice is tired and strained, as is her body. He'd very well drained her of most of her blood in the efforts to get his memories back. She needed some blood source to replenish her system.

He also knew now, because of everything he'd felt and seen while getting those memories back--what would help her the most was already in the room.

Not tablets.
Not bagged blood.
Not the blood of anyone else in the facility.
Or even anyone back home.

But somehow he had the feeling that getting her to drink his blood wouldn't be as simple as just offering it. Considering what she'd done the last time she'd taken it.]

You're thirsty.

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	trappedinresin 2013-05-05 03:51 pm UTC (link)
	[Her hand twitches in his. Lying to him is useless, of course he can sense it, even if he didn't know how much blood he had taken from her. Until she recovers more, she can't just up and walk home. It takes time, and more importantly-] I... I have tablets within my bag. [If he's brought it along with her. She's not so sure. It may have been left at the game.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notamasochist 2013-05-05 04:04 pm UTC (link)
	Your bag is not here. [Not that he doesn't have a huge stash of them himself around here.] We can pick it up later when we go retreive the rest of your belongings and bring them home. Just take what you need. It's fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2013-05-05 04:24 pm UTC (link)

[No no-- he can't just offer something like that up so freely. Not after everything. Bring her things home? Drink his blood?

She shifts, placing a hand beneath her to weakly hoist herself up into a sitting position. Leaning on her arm for support, she ignores the way everything spins or the way she shakes, thirsty and starved with need.]

Your tablets... I-I can just take those. If I just have those for the moment...

[She'll be fine. At least enough to go retrieve some more and swallow as many as she can stomach. I can't take his blood. I-I can't...

Even though every molecule that makes up her body, every fiber of her being wants nothing more than to sink her fangs into his delicate skin and drink her fill. It's painful just how badly she wants to.

Don't tempt me, Zero...]