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Zero Kiryuu (notamasochist) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-05-01 01:05:00

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yuuki kuran, zero kiryuu

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[Zero is only here to support his roommates, not play. Because of that, he's sitting in the grass a distance away from even the crowd, observing everyone. Both his roommates are the captains of each respective team, so choosing a team to cheer for was impossible for him as he couldn't choose favorites between Hikaru and Yuuri. He's here in spirit but not really mind, a million thoughts running through his head as he watches everyone go through the motions of the familiar game. He tries to avoid it, but his attention is continually drawn to a specific player on the field, irritation rising within him as he watches her. Yet still he sits, quiet and observant.]

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	trappedinresin 2013-07-03 04:25 am UTC (link)
	[It's one thing to hear and another thing to actually believe it. At some level she still can't sit aside and bare no responsibility. Neither can she sit idly aside and watch any more. In the end, she merely shakes her head. Fists clenching she feels tired.] It doesn't matter. In the end I can't erase the past. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notamasochist
2013-07-03 04:46 am UTC (link)

Even if you wanted to, you couldn't. It wasn't you that did it!

You haven't done anything wrong.

[Teeth clenching together. It's like talking to a rock, she's so stubborn.]

You'd really choose his life over your own? Even if he's the one with the trail of blood...not you.

[What is he even saying? His entire body language changes. Tense. Defeated. His hands drop from her, turning away. Of course she would.]

Even if the alternative would eventually bring both of us what we wanted, just not in the way we wanted. You'd still choose him...

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trappedinresin
2013-07-03 02:34 pm UTC (link)

[Her brows knit, a gaze lifting up to face his back with a watery glare. Is that what he thinks?]

This has absolutely nothing to do with choosing one person over another. Don't make it sound like that.

[Because that's the problem, isn't it? That she's never been able to commit her heart to just one of them.]

If it was Zero instead of big brother, of course I would make the same decision all over again.

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notamasochist
2013-07-03 02:48 pm UTC (link)

[She doesn't get it. At all.]

I know you would. It's not about me--it's about you.

Even though him turning you human--would stop him.

Even though you know he'd set things up in a way to force us together again. Even if neither of us remembers.

[Can't she see it?]

Isn't that pretty much best case scenario right now?

But you'd rather save him and just destroy us all.

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	trappedinresin 2013-07-03 03:03 pm UTC (link)
	How can.... how can you say that? [Eyes wide she stares at him in shock.] You- you think that, even having been manipulated into being placed beside me, that you'd prefer that...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notamasochist
2013-07-03 03:26 pm UTC (link)

How can I not? I said before I'd do it again and again if it meant that I would be by your side.

[How can you doubt that?]

The one thing I know for certain after everything recently--what I feel for you isn't something that can be manipulated or set up.

Even without memories--you're still the one I'm drawn to. That won't change.

I know it won't be easy. But yes...I would prefer that to losing you entirely.

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	trappedinresin 2013-07-07 03:38 pm UTC (link)
	[Stupid, stupid Zero. How can he be okay with that? Of course she doesn't want to lose him either. Isn't that part of the reason why she thought this was best?] I don't want to lose either of you. [Can't he understand?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notamasochist 2013-07-09 06:37 pm UTC (link)
	But you're okay punishing both of us because he's the one doing everything. [Teeth clenched as tight as his hands, they weren't getting anywhere. Won't get anywhere with this conversation.] We're just going around in circles. I know you did what you thought you needed to. I don't agree with it but understand why you did. Just leave it at that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trappedinresin 2013-07-14 02:30 am UTC (link)
	[Her head dips down. Silent, she merely nods after a moment. It's not like she expects him to agree with or be happy over what she did anyway. It's just... the thought of him being used again was unbearable. Even though she became a terrible person in the process of trying to stop it.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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