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Tweak says, "I is for Ignition"

Brynhild Ingouf (brynhild_ingouf) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2020-05-29 15:24:00

Entry tags:

!open, brynhild, dan foster, edward kenway, jacob frye, johnn redel, kelan, miguel o'hara, thor, zatanna

Filtered away from Astrid and Brenna
I have an odd request: Many humans offered their blood to me last time and the response brought me to tears. Are there any nonhumans that would offer the same?

Here is why I ask: A friend brought up the idea that I do not have to outlive everyone, that my 'immortality' could go away, for the lack of better words. Another seems to think this may end my life, but brought up a loop hole when I told him of the way I know of to remove my vampirism, to stave off of human blood. And I hope my self-loathing will be enough to open a door close to the time before I killed my Master so that I might do it again.

The reason I need to feed, and can't just go without blood all together, is I will lose selfcontrol. I will be come a ravenous beast, and that is not something I ever want to be, let alone on a floating island.

For those of you that are finding out about my vampirism this way, I am sorry. I did intend to be more delicate with it but opportunity did not present itself.

I am tired of being repulsive. I'm tired of outliving everyone I love, but I am not ready for an unnatural death.

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	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-30 11:27 pm UTC (link)
	Then it's obvious, the problem here is sobriety. Something ought to be done about that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 11:58 pm UTC (link)
	You know, I think you're right. Have you finished your book? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 12:06 am UTC (link)
	Nearly, I have been pausing to read sections aloud to Edward which has slowed me down. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 12:31 am UTC (link)
	I have an idea, you bring your book, and I'll bring another for you, just in case, and I'll bring mine and we make use of the giant copper baths in my club, and we'll open a bottle of Scotch that is begging to be drank with some Cuban cigars. How does that sound? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 12:54 am UTC (link)
	Sounds positively delightful. Should I try to drag our noble captain along or is this a private party? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 01:02 am UTC (link)
	Of course he can come! Should I bring him a bodice ripper too? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 01:20 am UTC (link)
	Absolutely, we mustn't leave him without some filthy literature of his own. I'll ask him if he's interested in joining us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 03:34 am UTC (link)
	Now I have to figure out what subject matter would suit the captain, if you have any ideas feel free to suggest them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 03:55 am UTC (link)
	Probably something where a woman isn't taken by force nearly every page would work. But the rest of it depends on if you want to excite or annoy him. Do you have anything where there's a terrible Welsh accent? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 04:29 am UTC (link)
	I might actually have something about a Welsh farmer that stumbles on a time traveler. Not exactly a bodice ripper but it is very descriptive with its scenes. And there are a lot of them. As far as whether I want to excite him or annoy him? I don't know. I don't think anything I could do would excite the captain. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 04:37 am UTC (link)
	What makes you say that? You're stunning, and good company, not to mention you essentially control his access to rum. Everything a man could ask for. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 04:43 am UTC (link)
	A gut feeling? But it could be they way I'm feeling right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 05:08 am UTC (link)
	I imagine his drunken singing didn't help much. It isn't my place to discuss his personal life but he has been having a difficult time, I think you both might benefit from the distraction. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 05:21 am UTC (link)
	In truth? I've come on to him twice. Once sober, once drunk, and got shot down both times. It had nothing to do with his singing, and I have just enough self worth not to try a third time. I am okay with being a source for booze and entertainment. I wouldn't have opened up two clubs otherwise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 05:30 am UTC (link)
	In that case, he has horrible taste and I will forever apologize for him. Which, since he's Welsh, is something one has to do a lot. He may regain his senses one day and kick himself for wasting his opportunity. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 05:51 am UTC (link)
	It's quite alright, you don't have to apologize for him, we all have our tastes, and I'm not his. And I am not a woman that chases often, but I know when I'm barking up the wrong tree. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 05:58 am UTC (link)
	You're an incredible woman, Bryn. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 06:05 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Jacob. You are one fine man yourself. And if I felt worthy of anyone I might buy you the finest cut of meat available and only the freshest caviar. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 06:15 am UTC (link)
	I do love being spoiled, I won't lie. But I'm happy to just to spend some time with you, some booze, a cigar and a wonderfully terrible novel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 06:58 am UTC (link)
	The question is do you want the captain to come along? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 07:11 am UTC (link)
	Perhaps not, but there are some things you ought to know first. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 07:22 am UTC (link)
	If you want him to come, I'm not mad that he shot me down, I can be in his company without any of the drama. What should I know? Are you secretly a werewolf? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-05-31 07:46 am UTC (link)

Wouldn't that be fun? But no, sadly, I've been told my level of chest hair is normal for an Englishman.

There might be something between Kenway and I. Perhaps it is primarily just a pair of lonely men looking for comfort in someone who reminds us of home, and the work we did. I cannot say for certain as I'm not at all prepared for a discussion of things of that nature without looking over my shoulder. But it is a thing that might be, and it may mean that we could be a package deal. Perhaps it is all just a touch too personal, but I wouldn't want you to think I was intentionally keeping things from you.

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Bryn | Jacob

brynhild_ingouf
2020-05-31 08:01 am UTC (link)

You say that and you have never met a werewolf in season.

Aaaah see, now my pride is not so marked. You are prettier than me. And to help your feelings of watching over your shoulder, you will not be arrested here, nor will you be judged. Least of all by me.

There are two married couples that might hold your interest as far as information goes, there are two women and one man married to each other, it used to be two women and two men, but one of the men disappeared a year and a half ago, they haven't quite rebounded from the loss but they are still together and still loving of each other. And, there is two men that are married to each other, who were also married to one woman but the woman was... she has passed. But the two men are still married to one another. It is not taboo here.

I hope that doesn't take any of the fun out of it.

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Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-05-31 08:26 am UTC (link)

I am simply closer, in proximity and technically in knowledge since we share some of the same secrets. If it were down to looks alone, as handsome as I am, I would lose every time let's not play with each other. That hair of yours is so striking.

Only ten years have passed for me since the act was punishable by death, not quite long enough for me to be thrilled by the danger of it all. A majority of the time I wasn't concerned about it as a majority of the time I am with a woman. My Lizzie, we were supposed to be married in the spring with the little one arriving before the end of the year, I haven't told her as it never seemed to come up. The few times I have been with men, it was something I had to pay for, simply for the sake of discretion.

I am glad to hear all of that however, it will be nice not to try to wish and will it away.