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Brynhild Ingouf (brynhild_ingouf) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2020-05-29 15:24:00

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!open, brynhild, dan foster, edward kenway, jacob frye, johnn redel, kelan, miguel o'hara, thor, zatanna

Filtered away from Astrid and Brenna
I have an odd request: Many humans offered their blood to me last time and the response brought me to tears. Are there any nonhumans that would offer the same?

Here is why I ask: A friend brought up the idea that I do not have to outlive everyone, that my 'immortality' could go away, for the lack of better words. Another seems to think this may end my life, but brought up a loop hole when I told him of the way I know of to remove my vampirism, to stave off of human blood. And I hope my self-loathing will be enough to open a door close to the time before I killed my Master so that I might do it again.

The reason I need to feed, and can't just go without blood all together, is I will lose selfcontrol. I will be come a ravenous beast, and that is not something I ever want to be, let alone on a floating island.

For those of you that are finding out about my vampirism this way, I am sorry. I did intend to be more delicate with it but opportunity did not present itself.

I am tired of being repulsive. I'm tired of outliving everyone I love, but I am not ready for an unnatural death.

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	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 04:37 am UTC (link)
	What makes you say that? You're stunning, and good company, not to mention you essentially control his access to rum. Everything a man could ask for. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 04:43 am UTC (link)
	A gut feeling? But it could be they way I'm feeling right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 05:08 am UTC (link)
	I imagine his drunken singing didn't help much. It isn't my place to discuss his personal life but he has been having a difficult time, I think you both might benefit from the distraction. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 05:21 am UTC (link)
	In truth? I've come on to him twice. Once sober, once drunk, and got shot down both times. It had nothing to do with his singing, and I have just enough self worth not to try a third time. I am okay with being a source for booze and entertainment. I wouldn't have opened up two clubs otherwise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 05:30 am UTC (link)
	In that case, he has horrible taste and I will forever apologize for him. Which, since he's Welsh, is something one has to do a lot. He may regain his senses one day and kick himself for wasting his opportunity. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 05:51 am UTC (link)
	It's quite alright, you don't have to apologize for him, we all have our tastes, and I'm not his. And I am not a woman that chases often, but I know when I'm barking up the wrong tree. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 05:58 am UTC (link)
	You're an incredible woman, Bryn. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 06:05 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Jacob. You are one fine man yourself. And if I felt worthy of anyone I might buy you the finest cut of meat available and only the freshest caviar. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 06:15 am UTC (link)
	I do love being spoiled, I won't lie. But I'm happy to just to spend some time with you, some booze, a cigar and a wonderfully terrible novel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 06:58 am UTC (link)
	The question is do you want the captain to come along? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 07:11 am UTC (link)
	Perhaps not, but there are some things you ought to know first. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 07:22 am UTC (link)
	If you want him to come, I'm not mad that he shot me down, I can be in his company without any of the drama. What should I know? Are you secretly a werewolf? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-05-31 07:46 am UTC (link)

Wouldn't that be fun? But no, sadly, I've been told my level of chest hair is normal for an Englishman.

There might be something between Kenway and I. Perhaps it is primarily just a pair of lonely men looking for comfort in someone who reminds us of home, and the work we did. I cannot say for certain as I'm not at all prepared for a discussion of things of that nature without looking over my shoulder. But it is a thing that might be, and it may mean that we could be a package deal. Perhaps it is all just a touch too personal, but I wouldn't want you to think I was intentionally keeping things from you.

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Bryn | Jacob

brynhild_ingouf
2020-05-31 08:01 am UTC (link)

You say that and you have never met a werewolf in season.

Aaaah see, now my pride is not so marked. You are prettier than me. And to help your feelings of watching over your shoulder, you will not be arrested here, nor will you be judged. Least of all by me.

There are two married couples that might hold your interest as far as information goes, there are two women and one man married to each other, it used to be two women and two men, but one of the men disappeared a year and a half ago, they haven't quite rebounded from the loss but they are still together and still loving of each other. And, there is two men that are married to each other, who were also married to one woman but the woman was... she has passed. But the two men are still married to one another. It is not taboo here.

I hope that doesn't take any of the fun out of it.

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Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-05-31 08:26 am UTC (link)

I am simply closer, in proximity and technically in knowledge since we share some of the same secrets. If it were down to looks alone, as handsome as I am, I would lose every time let's not play with each other. That hair of yours is so striking.

Only ten years have passed for me since the act was punishable by death, not quite long enough for me to be thrilled by the danger of it all. A majority of the time I wasn't concerned about it as a majority of the time I am with a woman. My Lizzie, we were supposed to be married in the spring with the little one arriving before the end of the year, I haven't told her as it never seemed to come up. The few times I have been with men, it was something I had to pay for, simply for the sake of discretion.

I am glad to hear all of that however, it will be nice not to try to wish and will it away.

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	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 09:18 am UTC (link)
	I'm sure you're closer emotionally too. If you don't mind me asking, do you prefer men, or do you lean toward both? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 05:23 pm UTC (link)
	Possibly. What I'm attracted to in a person isn't tied to their sex. I have more experience with women, and they seem to like me a fair bit more than men do, but I'm not certain if I prefer one over the other. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 08:24 pm UTC (link)
	That's a good way to be, you are a man before your time. There are many like that in my time. Many that take that feeling a step farther and don't discriminate between the races. But then there are a good many more races in my world than in your world. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	As long as they aren't French I can't say I've let many differences deter me. I'm pleased I haven't put you off, I was concerned that it might, and yes I do realize how funny that thought is given that you are what you are and informing anyone has to be a touch more nerve-racking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 09:23 pm UTC (link)
	I can't say I don't relate. But it is hard to know how a person might respond, regardless of their situation, you took my secret better than your companion may be. I'm sorry if I caused any strife. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-05-31 09:37 pm UTC (link)

Not at all. Our situation is a unique one, I knew of him before we arrived here. I saw his portraits many times as I was growing up, I've visited his home, read his journal, I know what becomes of him and his children and his legacy. I keep a great deal from him out of kindness and respect for his mental state, something he is largely aware of. I don't imagine this would bother him anywhere near as much as the rest of it.

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	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	That is good of you, many would not be so kind. I cannot say that the future is not cruel, even if I don't know your fates, so it's best not to seek it beyond what you need. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 11:39 pm UTC (link)
	If you keep telling me that I'm a good man I might start getting ideas. I'm not eager to find out, not that I think anything particularly terrible happens to me and my family, but it seems like torture as there's likely nothing I could do with the knowledge here other than stew on it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-01 03:01 am UTC (link)

You've been nothing but kind to me, and considering that I can count on one hand how many are kind to me at home, that's enough to be considered good in my book.

Doors do open to our home worlds. If you found out something you could prevent, and there is an opportunistic door you would have aid to prevent whatever it is that needs preventing. I don't know if it's obvious, but I like you quite a lot, and would have no trouble lending you what aid that I could. Be it monetary, or sword play. Human or vampire.

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Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-06-01 03:33 am UTC (link)

Don't worry, I am very aware that I am a good man, but I do like being reminded. If you come up with any more positive adjectives that describe me, please feel free to share. I always liked humble.

My terrible attempts at being charming aside, that means a great deal to me, Bryn. Thank you.

This is going to sound like an odd question, but have you ever, the way you are now or especially before you became as you are, focused on something so hard you experienced something like the world glowing or shimmering around you?