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Brynhild Ingouf (brynhild_ingouf) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2020-05-29 15:24:00

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!open, brynhild, dan foster, edward kenway, jacob frye, johnn redel, kelan, miguel o'hara, thor, zatanna

Filtered away from Astrid and Brenna
I have an odd request: Many humans offered their blood to me last time and the response brought me to tears. Are there any nonhumans that would offer the same?

Here is why I ask: A friend brought up the idea that I do not have to outlive everyone, that my 'immortality' could go away, for the lack of better words. Another seems to think this may end my life, but brought up a loop hole when I told him of the way I know of to remove my vampirism, to stave off of human blood. And I hope my self-loathing will be enough to open a door close to the time before I killed my Master so that I might do it again.

The reason I need to feed, and can't just go without blood all together, is I will lose selfcontrol. I will be come a ravenous beast, and that is not something I ever want to be, let alone on a floating island.

For those of you that are finding out about my vampirism this way, I am sorry. I did intend to be more delicate with it but opportunity did not present itself.

I am tired of being repulsive. I'm tired of outliving everyone I love, but I am not ready for an unnatural death.

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	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 08:24 pm UTC (link)
	That's a good way to be, you are a man before your time. There are many like that in my time. Many that take that feeling a step farther and don't discriminate between the races. But then there are a good many more races in my world than in your world. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	As long as they aren't French I can't say I've let many differences deter me. I'm pleased I haven't put you off, I was concerned that it might, and yes I do realize how funny that thought is given that you are what you are and informing anyone has to be a touch more nerve-racking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 09:23 pm UTC (link)
	I can't say I don't relate. But it is hard to know how a person might respond, regardless of their situation, you took my secret better than your companion may be. I'm sorry if I caused any strife. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-05-31 09:37 pm UTC (link)

Not at all. Our situation is a unique one, I knew of him before we arrived here. I saw his portraits many times as I was growing up, I've visited his home, read his journal, I know what becomes of him and his children and his legacy. I keep a great deal from him out of kindness and respect for his mental state, something he is largely aware of. I don't imagine this would bother him anywhere near as much as the rest of it.

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	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	That is good of you, many would not be so kind. I cannot say that the future is not cruel, even if I don't know your fates, so it's best not to seek it beyond what you need. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-05-31 11:39 pm UTC (link)
	If you keep telling me that I'm a good man I might start getting ideas. I'm not eager to find out, not that I think anything particularly terrible happens to me and my family, but it seems like torture as there's likely nothing I could do with the knowledge here other than stew on it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-01 03:01 am UTC (link)

You've been nothing but kind to me, and considering that I can count on one hand how many are kind to me at home, that's enough to be considered good in my book.

Doors do open to our home worlds. If you found out something you could prevent, and there is an opportunistic door you would have aid to prevent whatever it is that needs preventing. I don't know if it's obvious, but I like you quite a lot, and would have no trouble lending you what aid that I could. Be it monetary, or sword play. Human or vampire.

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Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-06-01 03:33 am UTC (link)

Don't worry, I am very aware that I am a good man, but I do like being reminded. If you come up with any more positive adjectives that describe me, please feel free to share. I always liked humble.

My terrible attempts at being charming aside, that means a great deal to me, Bryn. Thank you.

This is going to sound like an odd question, but have you ever, the way you are now or especially before you became as you are, focused on something so hard you experienced something like the world glowing or shimmering around you?

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Bryn | Jacob

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-01 03:52 am UTC (link)

Careful, I like to enable. And am shameless when it comes to compliments.

I would not call them terrible, if I wore them I would fling my underthings at you. But... You're welcome.

It is not the first time I have been asked that question, but no. The only skills I had as a human was where to put my sword and shield in a fight. I was moderately good at hunting, especially in the winter, and I was exceptionally good at growing things out of what seemed to be dead soil. But no, no shimmering.

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	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-06-01 04:02 am UTC (link)
	I knew I was so fond of you for a reason. Just for my own edification, it wasn't Kenway who asked you, was it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-01 05:02 am UTC (link)
	I like that I can be bluntly flirtatious with you and you do not mind, or you don't seem to. No, it was a fellow named Arthur Morgan, he is the reason I have copper baths in my club, is an outlaw in the United States, and comes from the year 1899. And the beautiful gold colored horse that bites if you don't bring him carrots, in the horse corral, is his. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

derailedatrain
2020-06-01 05:11 am UTC (link)

I enjoy it immensely. I always worried that my Rooks were only so nice to me because I was the boss, but it's nice to know that even people who don't work for me find me charming.

I promise to bring carrots should I ever need to visit the corral. Ah, right, the cowboy and denim you mentioned. I wonder if he and I might be from the same Earth as I'm told everyone is born with the ability though it takes training or raw talent to be able to discover it.

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	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-01 05:50 am UTC (link)
	Someone unused to flirting might be flustered by your charm. I don't know, with you both being so far apart it may be hard to figure out. There wouldn't be anything that you would know and he would know. Unless you have access to resources. He is 37 years old, so he would have been young in your time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-06-01 06:06 am UTC (link)
	They all get used to me eventually. Around twelve, and if I am to live that long I would be in my fifties in 1899, such a strange thought. He's an outlaw you said, so I imagine he doesn't wear a cross pattée, correct? Or a pair of compasses? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-01 07:51 am UTC (link)
	Well if it's the right person they'll still be flattered by it, possibly even flirt back. Not that I've seen, but I mainly see him in a checked shirt and dungarees. Or naked, in the tub. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-06-01 01:59 pm UTC (link)
	That is my general aim, flirtation is good for you. If he did you likely would have noticed it, we're not a subtle bunch. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-01 08:43 pm UTC (link)
	Agreed! It's very good for the self esteem. You have been especially good for my soul since you got here. A better person to ask would be Applejack, he works with her up on the farm. And the esteemed Captain will be joining us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-06-01 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	Jacob Frye, good for the soul. I like that a lot, I may need to embroider it on a pillow. I'll keep that in mind. I knew he wouldn't refuse if there was a chance to not only drink but also show off his tattoos. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-01 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	Can you do embroidery? Have you found the farm? If you're particularly sneaky you may be able to go up there and spy on him and see for yourself. Jacob you shouldn't mention these things, I don't need to be foaming at the mouth for someone who isn't interested. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-06-01 10:57 pm UTC (link)
	I can sew, embroidery can't be too difficult. You know, that sounds a bit like something that would happen in something like the book you lent me. Spying on an outlaw cowboy. I think you're giving up too easily on the captain. But if it helps I also have a couple tattoos. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-01 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	I wish you luck, I can sew, but I can't do embroidery. Well, that might be the running theme in many of the cowboy bodice rippers. Ah so I can foam at the mouth for you both? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-06-01 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	That doesn't give me much hope, to be honest. What can I say, I have a good sense for filth. But I will have to pay a visit to the farm at some point, I haven't taken the time to explore out that far. Yes, of course. What's wrong with that? Better a reaction that makes me blush than no reaction at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn | Jacob

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-02 04:32 am UTC (link)

It takes patience, something I didn't have. So I picked up the sword and let my sisters decorate things in a pretty way.

You know how the spine keeps going? It's at the end closer to the first wheel. Be very careful at the other end.

No, nothing wrong at all. You blush?

This leads a curious question. You said you two were a package deal, what does that exactly entail?

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	Bryn \| Jacob derailedatrain 2020-06-02 04:38 am UTC (link)
	My sister and I used to stab each other with the needles when we thought gran wasn't looking. What's at the other end? I do not, and if Kenway says differently he's a liar and he was very drunk at the time so his memory cannot be trusted. I said we could be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn \| Jacob brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-02 05:23 am UTC (link)
	I used to stab myself, in the finger, every time. A giant tree, from another planet. But there are creatures there too. Oh. Oh Jacob, you are very adorable. I will be able to now that who I'm feeding on has changed. Oh. Could. Well, what would that entail? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)