What am I supposed to do now? I have a daughter to raise and a pub to run.
Please....please I need her. Kat and I need her.
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June 2012
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Take it all away God. Every last memory. Change them. Change them so that what I see in my head of the last few months has been nothing but sleeping around and not getting attached to anyone. I can't deal with this. Not now. Dad, before you yell at me, God I need sleep. Blah. What happened to older me's good mood? You know, maybe this play isn't going to be so bad after all. I mean, I like to sing and this is a chance to do that, right? So what could be bad about it? Wow, that was even better than I imagined, AND it was worth Dad walking in on the aftermath. Well, this is just LOVELY, really. I'm here five minutes and I've already got my brother pissed off at me. Well, this is . . . different. Did I miss a memo about relocation or something? It never fails. I can't believe this. Well, I am just living in the lap of luxury, but I've got to say, it makes a girl a might bit lonely when she's got a penthouse suite all to herself. Hey, Jude God my head hurts right now . . . Oh god . . . What the- What- I never thought myself as one to have a family, no not at all. I loathed my mother because she was overbearing and demanding, always wanting me to become something I at the time wasn't, special, and then when I finally became what she'd always dreamed she said it was work of the devil. My father, he left, and that's the end of that, I don't talk about it strictly because I can't be bothered to waste my time on it. But that gave me a high distaste for having a family, I mean, why would I want something that was just going to break? Now that I have one though, in a way, a dysfunctional one, but one nonetheless, I'm not sure how I feel. It was different with just Elle, I was just taking care of her, but now I have a daughter, a teenage one that just appeared that's the same one as the baby in my . . . Okay, this really isn't funny. Des, if this is one of your stupid pranks, you are SO dead. |