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Tweak says, "noone told me it was demon poo"

Caroline Forbes (agelessbeauty) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2013-08-14 05:32:00

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adam hauptman, annabelle, caroline forbes, jeremy gilbert, josh levison, mercy thompson, niklaus mikaelson, rebekah mikaelson

No evil, no Matt, no Elena. no...idk anymore
[ooc: We are all going to pretend this post happened at like 2 am in Ireland even though its like 1pm something in Ireland. TIMEY WIMEY PEOPLE]

You know when you're on a haunted castle tour and listening to the guide prattle on and on about things that are supposed to make you all scared but hey you died at 17 and some things just aren't scary after that? And then somehow it went into wolf legends and how the Irish wolves were exterminated and then supposed wolf mating habits and I'm going how is this related to haunted castles????

The whole wolves mate for life thing is bullshit, right? Which, hey internet, being all 50/50 on this is so not helpful!

So. Inquiring minds possibly drank a whole lot of gin to get to this point.

Werewolves don't mate for life, right?

And then what’s even a mate?

I need to stop hanging out with werewolves. I’m like the little vampire who shouldn’t be. Like seriously, their bites kill. I'm a masochist. That has got to be the answer.

I need more gin.

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	Caroline aapisi_okos 2013-08-14 05:09 pm UTC (link)
	Are you okay? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Caroline/Mercy agelessbeauty 2013-08-14 05:43 pm UTC (link)
	Does drunk and confused count as okay? Because I'm pretty sure that's what I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline/Mercy aapisi_okos 2013-08-14 05:47 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. As a friendly but concerned acquaintance, I'm going to believe you if you think you're okay. But if you need to talk, I've been told I'm an excellent listener and I don't judge. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Caroline/Mercy

agelessbeauty
2013-08-14 05:52 pm UTC (link)

You ever take a chance on the guy who all of your friends despise and for good reason because he's done horrible, awful, terrible things to you and everyone you love, but you think just maybe there's something good underneath all of that darkness, something that you really like--hell you really like the darkness which is even more confusing and this isn't even a sentence anymore, but everything is just a jumbled mess. Apparently I need to learn to filter better.

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Caroline/Mercy

aapisi_okos
2013-08-14 06:12 pm UTC (link)

Well, the drunk explains the filtering fail.

But I got hurt pretty badly, in a romantic sense, when I was younger so I reacted by pretty much shutting down the whole romantic life thing. I dated in college, but I pretty much kept to myself when it came to guys.

I get what you mean, though. There's something you find attractive about this guy and even though you're sure it's bad for you, you want it anyway. If my experience with my little sisters is anything to go by, I'm pretty sure this is a normal thing.

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Caroline/Mercy

agelessbeauty
2013-08-14 06:18 pm UTC (link)

I got burned once...used, abused, and thankfully got out of that trainwreck that I didn't even know was a trainwreck but when I remembered I was like no more bad boys. They just break you in the end, but then the sweet one couldn't handle what I am, and the not quite bad boy isn't here and I still care for him, but the biggest bad of them all just had to go and be all annoyingly charming and show me sides of him that I like and I am really annoyed with him right now and his dimples. Dimples are stupid.

I hate normal. Can normal bite me? Because I'd like for it to do that.

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Caroline/Mercy

aapisi_okos
2013-08-14 06:40 pm UTC (link)

The charming ones are the worst of the bunch, in my opinion. Sadly, that's exactly what Samuel was. And, more than that, he protected me when I was too young and inexperienced and broken-hearted to protect myself. When I fell for him, I fell hard and there wasn't a single thing I wouldn't have done for him. But I found out that the reason he wanted me was because he thought I could give him children. See, where we come from, werewolves and humans can have kids, but only the fully human ones survive. And, because I don't have to change with the moon and I'm not fully human myself and wolves and coyotes can mate in nature...

The hardest thing I ever did was leave him, and the only home I'd ever known, to live with my mother when I was 16. He was much, much older than me. It was hard, but it was also the best thing I ever did, because I wouldn't be who I am now without experiencing that and growing from it.

Normal can, yeah. But I think it's not something you can escape from.

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Caroline/Mercy

agelessbeauty
2013-08-14 06:46 pm UTC (link)

He wanted to have little coyote/werewolf kids with you?

I don't know why Klaus wants me. I mean I'm eighteen. He's like a billion. But he tells me I'm beautiful and full of light and makes me laugh and angry and so many emotions I don't even think I can name them all. But I don't want to walk away when I haven't even experienced anything yet. Not really. I don't want my friends to hate me either though. And they said they wouldn't, but I don't know how true that really is in the end.

You'd think being part of the supernatural we'd be able to escape normal. It should be the bonus of all the other crap.

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Caroline/Mercy

aapisi_okos
2013-08-14 06:54 pm UTC (link)

He wanted children who had a chance to live. He'd been married a few times and of all the children he'd had, only one lived to adulthood. The rest didn't make it.

You are beautiful and full of light, but that ties in to the story I told you: Make sure he wants you for you and not what you could mean for him. Giving a bad boy a chance isn't a bad thing, but giving a bad boy the chance to use you is. There's a distinction and you're the only one who can make that call. If your friends are really your friends, they'll come around. They wont like him, but they'll support you.

Puberty and the young adult years are awkward no matter how "not normal" you are. It's a universal constant.

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Caroline/Mercy

agelessbeauty
2013-08-14 06:58 pm UTC (link)

That's kinda heartbreaking.

He tries to use me and I'm walking away. I won't be a pawn. I won't be some kind of crutch or anything like that. I already promised one of my best friends that and I think he'll be sure to hit me over the head if for some reason I don't walk away when I need to. I guess its just one of those 'only time will tell' things and those are the worst things. I really hate those kind of things. You get no control at all over them.

You really weren't lying when you said you were an excellent listener. I feel like I owe you therapy session money.

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Re: Caroline/Mercy

aapisi_okos
2013-08-14 07:09 pm UTC (link)

It is. But once I knew what he wanted, I knew I had to leave. Samuel is an amazing person, but I'm not the type of person who would have been happy leading the life of a doctor's wife. Not now and definitely not when I was 16.

Good. It's good that you're willing to do what you need to do to protect yourself. And you're right, it probably is a "time will tell" issue. The trick to dealing with those things is to be willing to go with the flow.

I have a fair bit of experience listening. My sisters are a little younger than you, and so is Jesse, Adam's daughter. We talk alot. The only thing you owe me is a visit when you're back. I might have a Oreo poke cake I need help eating.

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Caroline/Mercy

agelessbeauty
2013-08-14 07:16 pm UTC (link)

I think that's like seriously a lot of pressure for anyone but especially at 16. Like holy world altering moment Batman.

You can't chart out flows. It's really annoying, but I guess I'll just work at giving up that tiny bit of control.

So you have experience with the crazy girl talk that sometimes needs to happen. I usually have my friends for that because I have no siblings, but I don't feel like I can talk to them about this. Not yet at least. So I will so take you up on a visit and devouring anything that is made of Oreos.

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Caroline/Mercy

aapisi_okos
2013-08-14 07:29 pm UTC (link)

Exactly. Which is why I left.

The only thing you can control in the world is yourself. You can control what you do. The rest of the world will just have to take care of itself.

Yeah, some. But it's the price I pay for being the cool older sister/friend who's been around the block a time or two. Anytime you need to talk, just come on over or give me a call or post or whatever.

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	Caroline/Mercy agelessbeauty 2013-08-14 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	It totally makes sense why you did. Do you know how hard that is for a control freak to hear, Mercy?! You are breaking my little color coding heart right now. Seems like a pretty good gig. And thanks, I think I'll take you up on that sometimes because being able to talk about it all with someone who gets it and isn't judging really does help. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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