Caroline/Mercy
Well, the drunk explains the filtering fail.
But I got hurt pretty badly, in a romantic sense, when I was younger so I reacted by pretty much shutting down the whole romantic life thing. I dated in college, but I pretty much kept to myself when it came to guys.
I get what you mean, though. There's something you find attractive about this guy and even though you're sure it's bad for you, you want it anyway. If my experience with my little sisters is anything to go by, I'm pretty sure this is a normal thing.