We Were Called To The Forest We were searching for the secrets of the universe
Fillan tried to do the right thing. Or, not the right thing, necessarily, but the thing that his Dad wanted and expected of him. Harvey didn't like the idea of Fillan going off into the woods by himself. Mostly because Harvey knew what kinds of things could be in there. It made sense that the Van Helsing clan was more intuned to the risks associated with liminal and unexplored spaces, and their caution was something had Harvey had passed on to his son. However, regardless of how Fillan was brought up or what he was taught, he couldn't be trained out of who and what he was.
He was pretty good at being a house wolf. Fillan spent more of his full moon transitions in a crate (until more recently when he'd gained enough control to be chill as long as his Dad put canine CBD oil supplements in his dinner). He rarely shifted form outside of the moon or designated times, like when his Dad took him to the beach to throw Frisbee. During those times, he wore his oversized dog collar which included his dog 'name' (Bob Barker) and 'breed' (Alaskan Malamute). It was important to him to do his best to follow the rules of concealment his Dad laid out for him, he knew that that was what protected him from being found by the werewolves that killed his family and kept him safe.
But it was hard. Sometimes he would actually vibrate with the desire to run between trees, bite waves or feel the wet ground mush between his toes regardless of what form he was currently in. His heart beat faster at the smell of damp leaves in Autumn, mowed lawns, extinguished campfires and rubbed pine needles. He wanted to snap twigs in his jaws, chase squirrels, roll in the dust and dig in the mud all the time, and the more he was cooped up inside the more irresistible the call of the woods became. Now, living in a town virtually surrounded by the inviting rustle of leaves, he had to be disobedient.
Not a lot disobedient, just a little. He'd gone with his dad into the forest the day before because he'd hoped that would be enough. It wasn't. He needed to go back, he needed to escape the beaten path and step into the embrace of the overgrown brush. He didn't shift, even though he wanted to, and he kept his sneakers with the self-promise that if he encountered a brook or spring, he'd fling them (and probably everything else he wore) to the sky so he could splash around in the icy mountain water.
Fillan was trying to let his senses guide him to an anticipated water source when he first got a distinct impression that he wasn't alone.