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Tweak says, "It's not the size that matters"

MarinaNova NPCs (marinanova_npc) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-01-25 16:16:00

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360 - Instant Replay Mingle
[Maybe you're at the media store or educational center to play your disc. Maybe you're just out and about somewhere contemplating what you saw or whether to see it. Either way, you're bound to run into someone!]

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wraith_7
2016-03-01 09:58 pm UTC (link)

Future. Although my previous injuries would probably make great cinematic masterpieces, too. [He looks pretty calm about the whole thing, especially for a doctor who can take a good guess at the kind of internal injuries he's looking at.] Before I came here I actually wanted this to happen. Right down to having an opportunity to lecture Face about the whole self-destructive guilt thing.

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	nico_di_angelo 2016-03-02 02:45 am UTC (link)
	You wanted it to happen? [He frowns, hard. He doesn't understand. Or maybe he understands too well.] What do you mean? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

wraith_7
2016-03-02 12:33 pm UTC (link)

[Phanan looks at him levelly, mechanical eye blazing like always.] Nico, look at me. Imagine going through a battle like that, like yours, and waking up with half your body gone. Really think about how it would feel. Add in the fact that people don't generally like cyborgs all that much. We're subhuman. Kriff, I set off droid detection alarms in half the bars I walk into. I've spent the past five years trying to die one way or another. I ended up not being so talented at killing myself, which is frankly embarrassing for a doctor so I got a job where I get to blow up as many bad guys as I can before one of them gets me, which seems like it's going to be pretty soon. It's gotten better here, mostly thanks to Chuck and the fact that she's spiking my food with anti-depressants but it's not something you just fix overnight. And the only reason I mention any of this is because sometimes you say things that make me think you get what I'm talking about here way more than I would like you to.

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nico_di_angelo
2016-03-18 12:23 am UTC (link)

[He didn't know any of that. There's no reason he should have. Still, he feels guilty for not having to guessed, or suspected. He listens to the end, though at some point he has to look away, focuses on a scuff at the tip of his shoe. But he's still listening.

Demigods are not usually blessed with long, happy lives. So what if he's flippant about his mortality? So he's been reckless. He summoned a bunch of skeletons once and dropped like a stone - he's stronger now. He let Lycaon shred his arms so he could jump through his shadow puddle - it had to be done. And maybe his current quest is a little suicidal. (Okay, Hades was preparing a room in Underworld for him because even he didn't think Nico was going to make it - but he did.)

But it's all excuses in the end. Because yeah. He gets what Phanan is talking about.]

I... I'm sorry... [He doesn't know what else to say, or what he's apologizing for. Maybe everything. He hunches down.] I think I'm getting better sometimes. I have friends here. And Chuck. And ... and you. And nothing's trying to kill me. I don't understand why I still... [He shrugs off the rest of his sentence, the way it wavered at the end and how the last word cracked.]

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wraith_7
2016-03-18 11:49 am UTC (link)

Because this sort of thing is stupid and nobody understands it. You don't have to try to explain that part to me, trust me. Anyway I'm not trying to lecture you or tell you to change anything about how you're doing things.

[Its more than that though. He's always the one who notices things. He was the one at home who caught on to why Face does their stupid, dangerous job. He was the one who realized something was wrong with Tyria, the one who worked to reach out to Lara. The one who used medical excuses to hide Donos' mental breakdown until he could get himself together. Maybe because he knows what it feels like to be that much of a mess and have no one realize it.] I know it doesn't just get better. Trust me. And I know you can still be happy in present moments and appreciate what you have while still having a hard time with it.

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nico_di_angelo
2016-04-11 05:41 pm UTC (link)

It is stupid. [He mutters it, shoulders still hunched up. Maybe he should change how he's doing things. Sometimes it feels like how he's doing things isn't really working. But he doesn't really know what to do. It wasn't like he was making plans for a long, happy life.

Trust me, trust me. He keeps saying that. And he does. He's trying. But it's hard, you know?]

What if doesn't get better at all?

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wraith_7
2016-04-12 12:37 pm UTC (link)

[He shrugs.] Meet a girl whose willing to drug your food, I guess. Other than that I don't have any answers. Before I got here I was just planning to blow up as many bad guys as I could before one of them got me. People are more accepting here. I don't feel like as much of an outsider, or like I don't have a future. But that's not because of anything I did. It's because of other people. I don't have anything I can tell you that will magically fix things.

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	nico_di_angelo 2016-04-12 05:22 pm UTC (link)
	[He sighs.] I don't like girls. [But the rest cuts close. A few tweaks and he could have said it himself. Why can't there be magical fixes for things like this? He still misses that pink pearl sometimes.] I know you don't. But um, thanks for talking to me about ... all this. [hand wave] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

wraith_7
2016-04-12 06:29 pm UTC (link)

Good point. No offense to Yuuri but he doesn't strike me as the type to reliably measure and administer doses of anti-depressants. [Don't think he doesn't know about your love life just because he's refrained from giving you a hard time about it. Chuck talks. He knows. And it's only because he cares that it isn't being the most embarrassing dad ever about it.]

If you ever want to talk I'm here. I have fewer answers than the functional people but I've lived it, and that's more than most of them can say. I get it, even if I can't fix it.

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	nico_di_angelo 2016-04-30 07:18 pm UTC (link)
	No. Probably not. [He's not really ready to take that route, anyway. Thank you for not embarrassing him. Being in a new, awkward relationship in hard enough.] [A nod, and a long, deep breath.] I'll remember that. Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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