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Emma Swan finally found her fairytale (lostfairytale) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2013-12-18 13:09:00

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Christmas is in one week. ~~With warnings from Loki~~ Under the circumstances, I'd like to go ahead and celebrate Aislinn's birthday. It'll also get her into the habit of celebrating her birthday on a different day so she doesn't get forced into 'you only get one set of presents' syndrome.

We don't know what all is about to happen. I'd like to at least give my baby one happy day before ~~she could lose us all forever~~ this all goes down.

We're having dinner tonight at our house. Probably just pizza or sub sandwiches or something, and one of those ridiculous 1st birthday cakes that babies get filthy and messy in. But you're all invited. Presents not required, just the people who love her.

[Graham]

I can't say this in person. So don't expect me to. It isn't my thing, this talking about feelings stuff. But for you, I try. More than I think I ever have. And now, I really need to.

If we get sent back, once all this is said and done, I'll go home to my mom and dad, my little boy, friends who I've grown to love. I'll lose my daughter, but Loki has assured me he's found someplace safe for her if the worst happens and that's all I can ask.

But you. I'll lose you. Again. If I remember any of this, at least I'll have that, but if I don't, it will be the most heartbreaking thing in the world.

I came from right after we lost you. You were so rarely mentioned again that I began to worry you'd just been forgotten and that killed me. Because I was so close to feeling something for someone again and then you were taken from me. But I was watching the show and noticed something. I did a little research and I was right.

To the very last episode that's aired, I am still wearing your boot laces on my wrist. It sounds silly, but well, it's me, and it's so something I would do.

So know that. Know that no matter what happens here, should the world come crashing down around us and I lose you again, that you are never once forgotten and you are always in my heart.

And that I love you.

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	loveishope 2013-12-18 07:27 pm UTC (link)
	I think that's a wonderful idea and Aislinn will love it. Leave the cake to me! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-18 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	I doubt she'll remember it, but we will. And there'll be pictures. It'll be something to make the day a little easier on us all. I'm glad, it's hard to order those things last minute. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	loveishope 2013-12-18 11:12 pm UTC (link)
	Exactly. And we'll have them to show her when she's older. Pssh, Order. I'm already planning fancy things with icing! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-19 01:47 am UTC (link)
	~~If we're~~ Make it brightly colored icing if we're tormenting her with these pictures when she's older. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	loveishope 2013-12-19 02:30 am UTC (link)
	Has she a favourite colour or is she too little for one? Should it just be very very pink? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-19 06:04 am UTC (link)
	She seems to like green best. Her daddy's fault. Maybe pretty pastel greens and pinks? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	loveishope 2013-12-19 08:00 am UTC (link)
	Of course she does. He'll have her with her own little bow and arrow by her fourth won't he? Pastels I can do! I might even stretch to a pony on top of it! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-19 08:23 am UTC (link)
	And on a horse then, too, most likely. You'll never know she's a princess. Slap a horn on that pony and turn him into a unicorn. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	loveishope 2013-12-19 08:34 am UTC (link)
	A unicorn it is! I might accidently also have made some other baked goods. I went on a bit of a spree! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-19 03:36 pm UTC (link)
	She seems to like them. No one here is going to complain about fresh baked things. (Reply to this) (Parent)

Emma

gaveuphisheart
2013-12-18 07:30 pm UTC (link)

We can't leave
I don't want to
We need to stay
Where are you

I was wondering, if anyone in Storybrooke remembered me. You're really wearing the boot laces? It's not silly, it's amazing. It's an honor.

I love you. I love you so much, and I hope that you remember this time here so you remember me telling you this, and that I wouldn't change a thing. If I could do it all over again, I'd do everything the same, meeting you, falling in love with you. You saved me, Emma Swan. You really did.

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Graham

lostfairytale
2013-12-18 07:52 pm UTC (link)

I am. In every episode, every picture I've seen, everything I've done. I was wondering what they were, I had my suspicions, I looked it up. The actress confirmed it herself. It means what I'd hoped. That I could never just up and forget you.

I spent so long blaming myself for your death. You should, too, probably, but you don't seem to. You never have. You've only ever loved me unconditionally and I can't even begin to describe what that means to me. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. Here, home, my past, my future. But falling for you isn't one of them.

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Emma

gaveuphisheart
2013-12-18 08:11 pm UTC (link)

I guess all any of us can ask for in life is to be remembered, ideally in a good way. I'm far from perfect, so to know that someone does think of me like that, especially you, means everything.

I've never blamed you. Emma, you freed me. You didn't even know it at the time, but you did. I made choices for myself for the first time in decades. I wouldn't change that. And falling in love with you, being here with you and the kids, this is the first time I have truly been completely happy.

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Graham

lostfairytale
2013-12-19 01:54 am UTC (link)

You're close enough to perfect for me. I don't know what I would have done without you those first weeks in Storybrook. We were so close to something great and I'm still angry it was stolen from us.

But it does help to know you don't blame me. If the curse hadn't broken when it did, if Regina hadn't hated me so much... There's so many things that could have changed, that may have kept you alive. I'm so grateful for here and now.

Did I ever tell you about the time you haunted me?

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	Emma gaveuphisheart 2013-12-19 02:26 am UTC (link)
	We did have some good times, me arresting you, then hiring you. You making me feel alive for the first time. We could drive ourselves crazy thinking about the what ifs. What if I hadn't gone to meet the Queen and take the contract on Snow in the first place? What if I'd been just another cursed town resident? I haunted you? You've never told me about that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Graham

lostfairytale
2013-12-19 03:41 pm UTC (link)

Twice. You arrested me twice. Let's not forget that. And that uniform. Were you trying to not be attracted to me??

If you hadn't taken the contract, Regina likely would have killed you where you stood. You were a target and there was likely no escape. But if you had been just an ordinary cursed person, I'd like to think our paths would have crossed anyway. And someday, maybe it would have meant something.

You did. About two weeks before you actually got here, ironically. Most people were seeing them. Yours...was exactly what I needed at the time. He talked me down from a pretty dark place.

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Emma

gaveuphisheart
2013-12-19 06:20 pm UTC (link)

Well, you kept getting into trouble! And maybe I was trying to make you less gorgeous, a little bit. Completely failed, but I get points for trying?

That is true. Whatever else happened, I think we were meant to get here, to Lawrence, and have this. To be in love, to have a family. And that means everything.

Two weeks before I got here would have been only a few weeks after Moriarty died. Am I right?

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Graham

lostfairytale
2013-12-21 04:50 pm UTC (link)

Correction, Regina kept getting me into trouble. Hmph. You're adorable. But you were not getting me into that uniform. Though now I suspect you had secret intentions of getting me out of it.

God, I hope so. If that's true, if destiny is that pre-determined, then we're meant to stay here, too. And I want that. More than anything.

Close. A month or two. I don't know and I don't care.

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	Emma gaveuphisheart 2013-12-21 05:03 pm UTC (link)
	Okay, admittedly true. And do I at least get points for creative ways to try to not fall for you? Even if they failed, and of course I was imagining getting you out of it. I'm choosing to believe that our paths have brought us here and here is where we are going to stay, you and me, our kids, our friends. I'm glad ghost me was able to help you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Graham

lostfairytale
2013-12-21 05:29 pm UTC (link)

You do. But you were always meant to be mine, even if only for a moment, so I'm afraid ugly uniforms just wouldn't be enough.

I don't know what I did to deserve you. You should have so much better. But I love you so incredibly much and I plan to make every moment we have here count. Whether it ends tomorrow or it ends fifty years from now with us having kids and grandkids and great grandkids and I don't even care.

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	Emma gaveuphisheart 2013-12-21 06:27 pm UTC (link)
	I was a fool to think even an ugly uniform would get between us. There is no better than you. For me, you're the very best there is. I love you too. With every bit of my returned heart. And I have faith that there's going to be the kids and grandkids and great grandkids. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	subtletrick 2013-12-18 10:49 pm UTC (link)
	I will be there. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-19 01:48 am UTC (link)
	I'm glad to hear it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	thatlanewit 2013-12-18 10:54 pm UTC (link)
	I'll be there. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-19 01:49 am UTC (link)
	I'd be worried if you weren't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thatlanewit 2013-12-19 02:02 am UTC (link)
	I'd be worried if I missed my goddaughter's first birthday! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfairytale 2013-12-19 06:05 am UTC (link)
	Well yes, this was basically my point. Invite Kon if he's up to coming. Belle is making cake. (Reply to this) (Parent)