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Helena Wells has "disappeared" with the Astrolabe (ismellapples) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2012-08-23 02:15:00

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andrea rojas, claudia donovan, clint barton/hawkeye, cole turner, damien thorn, faith lehane, guy of gisborne, harry lockhart, helena g. wells, jacen solo, jaime lannister, john watson, natasha romanoff/black widow, oliver queen/green arrow, pete lattimer, robin hood, ruby winchester, tess mercer

[Filtered against evil, Katherine and Gaia]

Hypothetically, say someone had thoughts of publishing a book while here. What are the chances it would attract too much attention?

Also on a separate note, I wish to make an offer I made some time ago ~~I just got side-tracked by the bastard Irishman trying to kill me and Myka and dealing with my daughter's death~~. I had made the offer of installing an anti-gravity trap within the main entrance of the complex for added security in the event we are attacked by things like those Autons again and some try to get inside the complex for some reason. The anti-gravity trap basically renders an area devoid of gravity, causing anyone and anything within it's range to be stuck to the ceiling when it is activated. If anyone is fearful of potentially getting caught within the area of effect, I can easily make your shoes magnetic so you wouldn't be affected.

If anyone not living at the complex would like me to install one, or more, within their residence, I would be more than happy to oblige.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I would not do this without consent from everyone. It was a thought I had when we were confronted with a mass attack that the usual magical wards do not protect against.

For those who do not know me, I am Helena Wells, better known as H. G. Wells. Yes, that H. G. Wells.

[Filtered to non-evil aligned characters that have killed in cold blood/taken lives on purpose]

This topic is hard to approach, but I do not think I am the only one here who has a dark past in this regard. Is it ever possible to get the inner darkness under control again? Provided control was able to be exerted before, of course.

[OOC: Also to all in House Warehouse, tonight you were serenaded by angry/dark music. So there's probably some of Beethoven's heavier symphonies, "In the Hall of the Mountain King" from Peer Gynt, among other things that I'm too lazy to look up right now.]

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H.G.

avengingwarrior
2012-08-29 10:28 pm UTC (link)

Can I ask what used to work for you? I think that would be a great idea. For me, I used to do gymnastics and I've been working on taking that back.

Twice? I'm so ~~I can't even imagi~~ I don't even have the words to say that -- you're really stronger than you give yourself credit for. ~~Because I couldn't~~ Moving forward once, has been hard enough, I don't think that I could get through it a second time. And to answer your questions, yes, sometimes. I'm less of a wreck on Mother's Day and her birthday. I think saying that it's better directed? That might be more accurate. And a lot of my decisions, still, tend to be based on what I think would make her proud. I think the pain - I don't want to say is duller because it's not. At least it doesn't feel like it. It still colors, you could say even drives ~~because I'm still the Angel of Vengeance, even if it's become not as primary, and that was for her~~, a lot of who I am - but for the better. There are moment when it consumes me - my thoughts, my actions - but it does become ~~less dominant~~ ~~less negatively dominant~~ less of a pressure. You'll be able to breath again, that's for sure. I didn't think I would be able to either but it's happening, if a little slowly and uncertainly.

You'll find it. People are usually stronger than they feel. Especially those who've been pushed down by circumstance and life. If you ever need to talk, no matter what time it is, I'm around. Me too. ~~It's one of the reasons that I pushed my friends away~~

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Andrea

ismellapples
2012-08-30 12:39 am UTC (link)

I learned the martial art of kenpo. I channeled the feelings and urges into my writing and my inventing. The War of the Worlds was born from an especially...violent and chaotic period of my life. ~~That was after I failed to save Christina using my time machine~~ I used my job as well, though that part only made everything worse once Christina died.

I truly feel anything but strong, but considering I am alive right now, that speaks to that, perhaps. Honestly, when bending the laws of time itself to save Christina failed, that was truly more than I could take. It pushed me further down a road that ultimately led me to nearly committing genocide against the human race. Though at least as you have experienced the pain to become less of a pressure, that does give me some hope that perhaps it will lessen for myself now that I am choosing to feel the pain instead of ignore it. That is largely how life is, moving forward with uncertainty because one never knows what is lurking just around the corner, but moving forward is truly the only way one can live.

Thank you, truly. And if you ever need to talk, regardless of the time, I'm here as well. It is a most difficult road, but it is made easier knowing one is not completely alone in the journey.

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