War Is Coming Communications.

I'm sensing some major unbalanced vibes here, perhaps if we just take a moment to find our center we can all just chill. I suggest meditation or yoga.

I know you don't know me and I don't know you, but I hope whatever happened last night, you and everyone else is okay.

I know that you moved yesterday and I hope it went well, so perhaps this is not the best time. That I should wait until I am calmer and you have settled, but I know if I wait, I may never say anything as this has been on my mind for months yet I have never been able to find the words. I still do not know if I have them but I need to ask you something so just please, hear me out.

Is our friendship even worth working on? Is it even a friendship at all?

I ask because it feels one sided. I did not put much thought into it initially because it is what I am used to. Being the one to offer advice, support yet not ask for it. I have never been open with my feelings. I know this and I know that I am not easy to get to know but I have always been honest. I do not mind being there for you, I enjoy your company. Yet this whole mess with Molokov made me see that I was back in the same habits as I was in Moscow. You wrote the letter and while it did no good because he somehow had the school board on his side, I appreciated it. Yet you never asked if I was okay. I may not come out and say how I am feeling but if asked I will always answer even if it is that I do not know.

I know you have been upset about Clark and Ethan and the future twins and yet despite the threat of Molokov, I still tried to be there for you even though I was distracted. Yet the only person who ever asked if I was okay during this was Freddie. There have been inquiries since Friday from those I may have spoken with yet do not know well yet not from someone who claims they are my friend. Even Florence and still you. He is dead but it could have been me and perhaps that is why I am finally saying something instead of waiting and trying to find the words to avoid upsetting you. Because I am tired. And as I said, I have been wondering about this for months. I know you are closer to Florence and I know you saw Chess and if that is the issue, I cannot change that. But I would never get in the middle of that, to ruin it. Had I wanted to, I could have said something when we first began talking yet I did not. That is not who I am.

It is hard for me to trust, it always has been and I hide behind a mask to protect myself. I could handle this as I always have. Keep you at a distance, not invest my energy and time so much. Because if this is just a repeat of those 'friendships' as in Moscow, I know how it ends.

The difference from Moscow, for me, is that somehow I allowed myself to consider you a friend, which I do not do often or easily. And because of that, this entire situation hurts even if I should be used to it.

It really is unwise to engage in Moriarty's game, unless you have some strange wish to explode. In which case I suggest you seek help. Nothing Moriarty has to offer is for the good of humanity.

Happy Easter!

Lets play a game shall we? Every little sin you reveal to me will earn you a clue to the wonderful prize I have lined up for you lovely people today! And don't lie to me. I'll know, I always know.

Tick Tock my dears!

[Filtered to Connor]
I'm bored. Today is boring. Lets fix it with burgers?

[Bart]
You said you'd tell me about that other Superboy? I had another dream about him last night.

» Hey
» Someone said you were the person to talk to about getting some vervain.

You know, Lawrence has gotten kinda boring for me.

I think I'll take a vacation. You crazy kids try not to have too much fun without me while I'm gone.

And in case your peanut brains couldn't put this one together on your own, this means that I'll be relieving you all from my pranks for a while. I know, I know. It's an absolute tragedy, but I think you'll manage just fine.

You should pay more attention to the comms. You have a case.

I have a question for you, one I hope doesn't seem too strange and please, be honest.

Do you think it might be wise for me to take a retreat of sorts and get my head clear of what happened this weekend? I still feel a little...touchy and I don't want something setting me off and sends me spiraling out of control again.

I'd ask Jacen too but I'm giving him the distance he requested

I just don't want to hurt anyone.

[Added a little later]

[Rikki]

Hey, giving you a heads up but I'm gonna be leaving town for a few days. I'm still not in a good place mentally and I'm still a bit touchy with people. Part of me is afraid it'll lead to me hurting someone. And I can't, I won't let myself do that. So some time away might help and one of my teachers here thinks it could help too.

But I just wanted to let you know since you're my friend here and all and didn't want you to think that the sithspit Seal sent me back or anything.

hi

I'm going to be happy if it kills me, screw Molokov and Moriarty, too

You know the great thing about holidays?

All the shops are closed. So I actually have to spend quality time with my husband!! and enjoy the city.

I can happily say the place in Trocadero with the chocolate crepes is, indeed, still open. I can also happily say I've had three since we've been here. Good thing I've walked all over the city or the plane wouldn't carry me back.

( My actual view right now )