Caroline Forbes (![]() ![]() @ 2013-10-11 19:28:00 |
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Entry tags: | caroline forbes, kol mikaelson |
Who: Caroline and Kol
What: returning
When: Saturday late afternoon
Where: out in Lawrence and then the Mikaelson place
Warnings: Feeels at least, but the rest is TBD
There was nothing--absolutely nothing. No sound, no sight, no feelings, just some sort of existence that didn’t really matter and she couldn’t quite grasp onto as she was suddenly surrounded by everything. Sounds crashed into her body, enveloping her in their wave lengths and it was too much for a moment, causing Caroline to press her hands to her ears, to close her eyes to block out the expanse of color that suddenly burst into her world. Going from one extreme to the other was disconcerting and she tried to steady herself, repeating mantras in her head that she had used to say back when she’d started out cheerleading and needed to get her jitters under control. That’s what it felt like then and she refused to let it overwhelm her.
She was Caroline Forbes.
Head Cheerleader.
Hopscotch champion.
Mean Girl of Mystic Falls.
Girl who’d walked away from torture at least three times in under a year and survived.
Like hell she was going to let...whatever had happened knock her down and out.
Bits of what had occurred flittered into her mind. The impact and sound of the explosion, the jagged piece of wood piercing her heart before she was enveloped in nothingness. But it didn’t make sense, because if it had pierced her heart then she had to be dead. Was she dead? Was this what dying was in Lawrence? Was she a ghost? Oh god, she didn’t want to be a ghost. How was she supposed to tell if she was or not?
She opened her eyes, blinking as she looked around at her surroundings, trying to adjust to the brightness of the sun. But there was no one around, the park seemed to be deserted and she wasn’t getting any answers by standing there all alone. She started to walk, feeling the gravel beneath her toes and looked down to see that she was barefoot. The shirt she wore also had a long rip in it right above where heart was located. Shaking her head, she started to walk, ambling about the pathway and across the grass, thankful she couldn’t actually feel the cold. No, it was a different sort of coolness that seeped into her skin, soaking her through as she wandered aimlessly, not sure what she was supposed to do or where she should go.
And then the smell came. That delicious, tantalizing aroma of blood that she whipped around toward, gaze roaming across the park once again, determined to locate it. Her fangs had already descended but she managed to keep the rest of her face fairly normal, but oh god how she wanted to drink, to take it all and satiate the overwhelming thirst that wanted to consume her.
And that’s when she spotted her.
A little girl of around seven had fallen and scraped her knee and a man knelt in front of her, assuring her it would all be okay. No doubt the girl’s father and he tucked little blonde ringlets behind the girl’s ear. She remembered a time in a park like this one, with her own father, and the gentle words and promises to protect her from all the monsters. How foolish had she been to actually believe he could do that? How had she become one of those very same monsters he had been speaking about?
It was too much, too familiar and Caroline pressed her hand to her mouth, forcing the need down and stumbled away from the scene. She didn’t know where she was headed, just kept moving, the world spinning by her in a mess of colors that all seemed to be bleeding together. She meandered through Lawrence before she finally ended up on the steps of the Mikaelson place. Except she didn’t have the key or her phone and god, what was she supposed to do now? She hovered at the door for what seemed like an eternity to her, trying to listen for movement inside, but the mess of sounds the rest of the world created were screwing with her focus and she walked away from the door, heading down the steps and around the side of the house.
Had she died? Was that what happened? She was fairly certain she must have because a slice of wood, no matter how small, meant death for her. But then how was she back? She vaguely remembered a conversation with Lydia about death in Lawrence, but she couldn’t quite hold onto it, sensory overload getting the better of her.
Caroline ended up at the stable, slowly walking inside to stand in front of the white mare’s stall. She tried to smile when she was greeted with affection, giving the horse the attention she wanted, but it wasn’t enough to ground Caroline to the here and now. Everything was still spinning, colors too bright, sounds too loud and god the cravings. She was so hungry and so lost...and not sure what she was supposed to do any longer.
She gave up on stroking the mare’s mane and slid down on the opposite wall. Pulled her legs to her chest, pressing her face into her knees as she hugged herself tight, slowly rocking back and forth as she tried to get her emotions under control. She couldn’t have died because if she died…
Klaus.
She didn’t even want to think of how that would hurt him. Of how...she hadn’t ever told him her own feelings. She hadn’t gotten the courage up to accept just how much he’d come to mean to her and she vaguely remembered their last conversation. How he had told her that she meant the world to him and that terrified him.
That…
Where are you where are you where are you where are you where are
She was just going to sit in the stable until the world stopped spinning and hope she could find him once it did. Because she could only imagine how he would have reacted to her being dead and it wouldn't be good. And she had a feeling she was going to need to kick some ass once she could stand on her own two feet again. And then there were the others who would have been affected by her death and Caroline clenched her eyes shut, blocking out any more thoughts as she focused on getting herself under control.