She did feel it, and that squeeze and the fact he didn’t disappear like she half-expected him to do so helped her believe what he was saying was true. Plus the horses were still around. They hadn’t left and that had to mean something, didn’t it? She was pretty sure it did and so she focused her attention on Kol, still sitting there with her arms wrapped around her legs and her head resting on her knees, but the tears weren’t flowing freely. Even the sobbing had mostly ceased, only little hiccups remaining as she forced herself to gain that control she always so desperately sought.
“I died, didn’t I?” It was such a weird question to ask, and maybe it made her insane, but considering she’d already died once before and came back a vampire, who even knew what constituted an actual insane question. She vaguely remembered the explosion and the nothingness that followed the piercing of her skin. “I think...I remember Lydia...I think it was Lydia who died and came back before. I don’t know.”
It was hard to hold onto everything, and certain memories were harder to hold onto than others. She frowned, annoyed at that, wanting everything to make sense then and there. Not liking how out of sorts she was feeling or that it was taking her so long to get a grip on reality. “What happened?”
She wasn’t sure what she was really asking with that question. What happened to her? What happened after? What happened to specific people? It was probably all of it wrapped into one and she figured Kol would dole out the answers that he was able and it would hopefully give her something else to focus on aside from the fact that she’d been killed.