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Tweak says, "god won't let me die"

Katherine Pierce believes her own lies. (believesownlies) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2013-10-03 11:43:00

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hal yorke, katherine pierce

Katherine & Hal
Another meeting, but it's not quite the same this time
Thursday late morning/early afternoonish, October 3, 2013; Room 4 at some shoddy motel
PG13-bordering-R?/In progress

What had she done now? Gone and made herself his own personal blood bank.

Katherine had been so stressed over the last week or so. This new...arrangement she had going with Hal and keeping it from everyone was certainly taking it's toll on her. Of course, Regina had noticed that something was wrong. She had no clue, not even a single inkling as to what it could be, just that something was off about her best friend. And how Katherine wanted to tell her, but instead, she'd simply insisted that everything was fine and tried to side-step any questions about it. Elijah, thankfully, hadn't exactly had time to see her lately with Kol being possessed and now having his emotions turned off. He was too busy to see her, focused too much on the family. Which might have annoyed her a bit at any other time, but not now. Now, it was to her advantage, really, because how could she hide the marks on her thigh? And what could she even use for an excuse?

But as much as she tried to let herself continue thinking this is what was best, that this was actually helping him keep the other, monstrous side of him at bay, she couldn't help thinking about what he'd told her before. He had told her how this would happen eventually. How he would beg and plead and reason with her. And he had insisted that no matter what, under no circumstance was she ever to cave and give him blood. And what had she done now? Gone and made herself his own personal blood bank. What was she even doing anymore? She wasn't sure.

Katherine sighed as she sank down onto the bed in the shoddy motel room Hal had insisted they come to. She wasn't sure why the change of scenery, hadn't the house been just fine? She didn't pretend to understand his reasoning, but she knew whatever it was, it was definitely there. That man did nothing without a specific reason.

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believesownlies
2013-10-05 10:59 am UTC (link)

She kept her eyes on him as he stepped up to her. The way he was carrying himself, the way he was talking, it was different. This was not Hal, not really. And that smirk said it all.

"Pet?" she repeated, frowning at the term. And then he voiced the fears she'd had during all of this. She should have said something, anything. They wouldn't have held it against her if she had. But now? Now, it was too late, wasn't it? Because now they'd done this a few times and why hadn't she said anything before, what did she have to hide, she'd been the victim, they would have understood. But not now. Now, it was something she'd kept from them all, something she had felt the need to hide. That made it worse, didn't it?

She shuddered slightly at the feeling of his lips against her ear. She didn't say anything, though, instead she just stepped back until her legs found the bed and she sat down. If she had been scared before, she was terrified now.

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needstheroutine
2013-10-05 11:15 am UTC (link)

And Hal knelt next to her, entirely aware that he had her where he wanted her. Oh he had ultimate plans but he needed her sane for the first few so there'd be no breaking her yet. He'd feed now, more to prove a point than anything else, and then they'd have a nice little chat.

"Oh yes, Pet. Or did you have a better term in mind. Blackmail is such an ugly word." His hand rested on her knee, wondering just how much blood he'd take from her. Enough that it wouldn't be visible or make her weak. But it would prove a point to her, where the control was. Katherine who was so fond of her control and her power. Now had none.

"Oh I may not need to feed from you as much. Unlike your friend, I don't mind who I hurt. But with you, its just so dammed entertaining. You shake, you're actually scared of me and god I've missed fear." By now of course his eyes were black and his teeth visible. "Do you miss it? Being a vampire. Being strong, being able to defend yourself. Right now darling, do you feel strong? How must it be Katherine Pierce, to be nothing?"

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believesownlies
2013-10-05 11:34 am UTC (link)

"Well, it's all the same really, isn't it?" She shrugged, her lower lip resting between her teeth as she watched him. He was so different like this. She didn't like it. God, what had she done? And how could she get out of it now?

"I'm an entertainment piece now. Great. Just wanted I always wanted to be when I grow up." The sarcasm was a defense mechanism, a weak and futile attempt to hide the fear that they both knew he could sense anyway. "Wouldn't it be kind of stupid of me not to be scared?" She wanted to look away, but something about his gaze was hard to break. Be it fear or fascination at the differences she'd never really seen up close and personally until recently, she couldn't quite be sure. "I miss being my world's kind of vampire," she admitted, but made sure to be specific because by no means did she want him to take the basic admission and run with it. She didn't dignify the last part with an answer, though. He knew. He was just being twisted and wanted her to admit it and dammit if she could have at least one single ounce of control, she would take it.

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needstheroutine
2013-10-07 04:36 am UTC (link)

Poor little Katherine. Once again in over her head, never entirely sure how she'd gotten there and very likely regretting the decision. And she missed being her worlds kind of vampire. Of course she did, couldn't want to be like Hal, like Mitchell. Slaves to the blood. Not like him. "Oh but my kind isn't so bad? Your friend he starved himself of what he needed and personally I think it was making him crazy."

He was sort of annoyed she didn't answer him though, but figured he would get to that later. For now he was just going to roll his eyes and wonder why the hell he had decided to let her live.

"Katherine, hide from the truth all you want, you're surrviving. You won't tell Alex, or Mitchell or anyone because it doesn't really paint you in the best light either now does it." Hal knelt beside her, biting sharply into her leg, there was less desperation in his eyes, less need. This wasn't about feeding the monster, this was the monster. And this was about control.

Pulling back eventually, longer than their usual ten seconds Hal laughed, blood on his lips.

"There see, you can be reasonable"

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believesownlies
2013-10-07 09:36 am UTC (link)

"Says you. Who revels in all of it. I didn't get off when I killed like I'm pretty sure you probably do." She would do anything to stay as well on his good side as she could, but that didn't mean she wouldn't still speak up. Especially for her friend. "It made him a better person than you." her words were biting and full of venom.

She scowled slightly at that remark. She hated how he knew her, how he could predict her behavior so easily. But it was no secret that Katherine Pierce always did what was best for her. "Better you die than I." It was something she'd told Elena once and something she still believed, still lived by, even now in her attempt at a more morally acceptable life. At her core, Katherine was a survivor, always had been, always would be. Even if it meant thowing someone else under the bus or lying to people she cared about.

She sucked in a sharp breath at the pain as he bit into her thigh. He didn't stop at the ten second rule they'd agreed to in the beginning, but she didn't dare try to stop him. The last thing she needed was to do something to make him change whatever plans he had and decide she was useless to him. Because she had a feeling the moment people became useless to Lord Harry was the moment they died. And she couldn't have that.

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needstheroutine
2013-10-07 10:24 am UTC (link)

"Not just at the kill." he told her wiping the remainder of her blood away from his hand. He was fairly sure Hal would be incapable of such a thing. It amused him though how good she tried to be when they both knew so completely that she was doomed to fail. Poor dear "It makes him a better person that you too my dear but lets not argue."

At his core, Lord Harry was a hedonist. Life was there for the taking of course, to control those less than him was a right. And Katherine who even Hal had known upon meeting would be so much fun for him, was now right here and entirely stuck. She'd never tell them and he knew it.

"So, you miss it, this, the blood. Perhaps not suffering the way Hal does, the way the attack dog does. But you miss it all the same don't you? Are you wondering if you could kill me if you were strong, well obviously I wouldn't need your blood. And of course you're important now aren't you. Your blood. Oh Katherine. You'd be so much safer with me." he told her brushing hair away from her face in almost a mockery of affection. He didn't know the meaning of the word.

"How long do you imagine I can play at being Hal then? Days, weeks, I might go a month just for kicks. Break the little ghosts heart. Do you know he can't touch her, not in any way either of them can really feel? Do you know how mind numbingly boring it is being inside watching them? Suffering their ridiculously chaste PG ridiculous love life? God, its dull. I should find someone better, now how is Lily Potter of late. I hear the other me, from the other world, I hear he was quite taken with her. And then of course there's you. There always was you."

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believesownlies
2013-10-07 10:40 am UTC (link)

"I don't claim to be good. Just trying to be better than I once was." she pointed out, but semantics, she knew he wouldn't be interested in it, not really.

"I miss the strength. The power. The blood is just another survival tactic." Like so many things in her life were. "Important to you? I don't know, am I? And if he gets a crazy whim, maybe to Klaus. My blood at least. For the hybrids." She shuddered slightly at the feeling of his hand just barely grazing her cheek as he pushed her hair away. "Safer how?" She wasn't sure if that was genuine curiosity or if she was playing a part, everything was blurring together now because everything was about survival. But if she was really safer with him....

"Oh, I think you could do it for as long as you please. It just depends on what strikes you at any given time." Her jaw set, annoyed at the threat to her friend, but helpless to do much more than say, "She doesn't deserve that, you know. And what's so special about me, then?" He kept making mention of it, she wondered if there was more to it than the fact that he thought she was fun to toy with or if it even could be any more than that for him.

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needstheroutine
2013-10-07 05:13 pm UTC (link)

What was special about her, her name? The fact she shared a name with the first woman to ever really confuse him with her morals. The fact she had been a vampire and had had it taken from her and just how jealous it had made Hal and how much it had annoyed him that she didn't want the 'gift' she had been given. Bloody idiot.

"Of course you miss it. It made you strong. And you could be again Katherine but you do have to wonder...would it make sense to go back to what you were. Under the risk of control from the man you hate, and actually, from the one you love too. On my side at least you're free of that. And the blood is only a weakness if you deny it to yourself. That's what he was trying to do you know, drink just enough that it didn't take him over, that it didn't release me. Sad fact is, it wasn't even the blood, it wasn't even Alex not trusting him. It was just my time. Its how it is I'm afraid, we follow each other, wake up in the world the other has created around him. My world is generally more successful. Definitely more fun. But...well they won't see it like that. All they'll see is you, and your blood, and me back in control."

"You fascinate me sometimes is all, so very bad at being human but look how you're trying. Playing a part, like they all want, am I right? Wouldn't you rather just give in to what you truly are?"

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believesownlies
2013-10-07 06:04 pm UTC (link)

"I built a tolerance to vervain as a vampire before, I could do it again. Then I don't have to worry about being compelled." That wasn't such an easy thing to do and she would starting over. She wasn't entirely sure that, were she to be turned again, that the newly-made vampire system could handle the ingesting like her five century self had. But he probably didn't know the real answer to that either, so she would hold her ground on that stance for now anyway.

Katherine nodded slowly. "That's what he told me before. It's a cycle, regardless of the blood, eventually you just come back around for awhile anyway." She shook her head, "You underestimate the people here. Their sheer optimism, their lack of pushing blame on people because of circumstance." But then it was her and she was already so hated by so many...he had a point really, and she knew it, but she wouldn't show it.

She tipped her head up slightly at that last little quip of his. "And just what is it you think I really am, Lord Harry?" the title came out of her mouth like poison.

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