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Tweak says, "Fresh Blood - GAME ON!"

Ashley Ellenore Darcy (ashleysully) wrote in spinningcompass,
@ 2018-08-11 01:38:00

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fitzwilliam darcy, ~ash sully

Who: Ashley and Mr Darcy
Where: His apartment
What: Talking
When: Saturday after breakfast
Rating: TBD
Open: Nope
Status: Ongoing
Ashley wasn't as nervous as she thought she'd be. It was a very important conversation they were about to have but she felt confident in the outcome. She was mostly nervous for showing up on his doorstep without any warning. No letter, no phone call, just a knock on the door.

She went only slightly conservative with her outfit. Of course the shirt was only revealing if she removed her jacket. She fully planned to keep the jacket on so he wouldn't be distracted. She also decided to go with her four inch red heels making her only 4 inches shorter than him rather than the usual 8. She wasn't sure why she needed that extra height. Especially since they would most likely be sitting down for most of the conversation.

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, letting it out slowly. No matter what happened, she was going to be okay. With that thought in mind, she knocked on his door.

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 06:37 am UTC (link)

A tingle ran down her spine when he touched her shoulders. Her mind was suddenly thinking about how it would feel for him to touch other parts and she blushed a bit, even though she knew he didn't know what was going on in her head. She took the jack back off and set it aside.

"I've never felt that I needed to change anything about myself. I just wanted to change a couple of things to help you adjust. To make it easier." She really didn't want his hands to move from her shoulders.

"You have adjusted a couple of things, too, so it's not a one way street. We're meeting in the middle." She looked him in the eye as she said the last part.

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 07:02 am UTC (link)

Darcy felt glued to her, unwilling to let go again even though she had taken the jacket back off. And he really was listening to her, even if at the same time he was busy watching her lips move. She had such fantastic lips, and when he was close to her like this all he could think about was being permitted to kiss them.

“You’ve made everything a lot easier. You’ve just tried to ease me in rather than giving a shove, and indonappreciate that, you know,” he told her, eyes moving up from her lips to look into her eyes. Oh, God - there was that look again, the same look she’d had in the library. Eyes practically begging him - or was it just his wishful thinking?

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	ashleysully 2018-08-12 07:17 am UTC (link)
	Ashley nodded. "I'm glad I can help." She leaned in a little closer and put a hand on his knee. She kept her eyes locked on his as she licked her lips. She really did want him to kiss her again. It had been the most amazing kiss. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 07:25 am UTC (link)

Darcy gave her a little nod, feeling his heart picking up a little speed. She touched his knee, and it was like a shock of electricity rushing through him. He was suddenly very aware that he was wearing a lot less clothing than he had been last time. That had provided some sort of literal and figurative barrier before, but now he felt strangely vulnerable. It wasn’t necessarily a bad feeling; it was a little exciting.

He mirrored her lip licking, eyes dropping to look at hers just for a second before he leaned in slowly. One hand lifted from her shoulder to gently touch her cheek, and he pressed a kiss against her lips.

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	ashleysully 2018-08-12 07:31 am UTC (link)
	Literally nothing else mattered when his lips touched hers. They were the only people in the universe. She moved a little bit closer. The hand that wasn't on his knee rested lightly on his arm. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 07:38 am UTC (link)

He sank into the kiss a lot more easily and comfortably than the last time. There wasn’t the tension of a fight on it, and they were generally in a bit more of a relaxed state. His lips moved against hers and he felt a tingling warmth spreading all over his skin. She moved a little closer, and he did the same and so there was barely an inch between them. He could practically feel the heat from her body.

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	ashleysully 2018-08-12 07:42 am UTC (link)
	Ashley couldn't help herself. Her hand moved from his arm to rest at his side, gripping the fabric of his waistcoat. The hand on his knee moved just a little bit higher. She didn't think she'd ever wanted a kiss so much and she found herself moving close enough that her chest touched his. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 07:52 am UTC (link)

Darcy pulled back barely a centimetre and gasped as her hand moved up a little, but any thought that he might be objecting would be quickly squashed as he almost immediately sank back into her kiss. The hand on her shoulder slid round to her back, and held her gently so that she would get the message to stay so close, that he did want her to be right there.

Oh, God, had he not just gone off on one at her mother for even suggesting this situation? Well, he might have felt a bit of an idiot if he’d had space in his brain to think of anything other than her lips and her body against his.

When he felt that he couldn’t possibly handle another second without snapping, he pulled back on a breath, just an inch or so. “Iloveyou-“ he said breathlessly before his brain had a moment to catch up. Oh, shit - had he said that out loud?

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 08:03 am UTC (link)

She gripped his waist coat a little tighter as the kiss continued. She wanted more. There was a tiny little voice telling her they should stop but it was drowned out by the pounding of her heart. And then he broke the kiss and she was just about to catch her breath when he spoke. Ashley smiled and she was almost positive that she had tears in her eyes.

"I love you, too." And she meant it with everything that she was. She knew he wouldn't have said it without truly meaning it and she wanted to scream it for everyone to hear. Instead she put her hand on the back of his head and pulled him into another kiss, the hand on his knee moving just a tiny but higher.

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 10:06 am UTC (link)

When she said it back, Darcy felt as though all the air had been sucked out of the room. The wave of emotion was stronger than any he usually permitted to take ahold of him, but there was no stopping it this time. She said it back. He’d been quite ready to concede that he was probably the least loveable man in the universe, and then in walked Ashley Sully and said it right back.

He didn’t have time to react, because suddenly lips were on his again. He kissed her fervently, as if he’d never been kissed before - and he supposed he hadn’t really. Not like this. Not lovingly, not with genuine passion and desire.

He almost whimpered as she moved her hand again. The moral part of him was screaming at him to stop, to move her hand back down again, but desperate desire was winning out for the moment.

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 02:08 pm UTC (link)

Ashley played with his hair as they continued to kiss. He loves me just kept playing over and over in her mind. Since there wasn't any real thinking going on, she wasn't stopping herself from doing whatever her body wanted. The hand on his thigh went up to his chest, pushing him back just a little. Without breaking the kiss she was suddenly straddling his lap, gripping at his shirt. This wasn't what she had planned at all.

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 02:38 pm UTC (link)

At first, Darcy was so lost in her kiss that he just went with her wherever she wanted him to move, and so when she climbed into his lap, it was an incredible surprise but he automatically just continued kissing her.

It was a few seconds before another voice started kicking into play. A louder, sterner, more judgemental voice. Christ, hadn’t he been furious with Shepard for even suggesting this? Why has she? What was this world all about. Was this okay? He didn’t know if it really was, or if he was okay with it even if everyone else seemed to think it was fine.

So, his hands moved back to her shoulders, and he pulled back a little as he gently pushed for her to do the same. He gave her an almost apologetic look.

“Erm- I - give me a minute?” he requested. His heart wasn’t racing, his lips felt swollen with kisses, and he was quite afraid that he didn’t entirely trust himself. It was a lot, especially mixed in with then declarations of love, and probably work taking a moment to think for both of them.

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 02:55 pm UTC (link)

Ashley was a little disappointed when the kiss broke. At least his hands were on her shoulders again. When he spoke, she nodded. She gave him a quick peck on the lips. "Of course." She smiled, both hands now flat on his chest. She didn't bother to move off his lap, but she would if he asked. It was definitely better to take a moment to think than to risk doing something you might regret later. She knew she wouldn't but it might cause him a great deal of guilt.

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 03:03 pm UTC (link)

It was still a little difficult to get his thoughts in order with her still on his lap, but it was better than just mindlessly going with it against his better judgement. He’d hate himself later if he didn’t allow himself a moment to engage his brain. He took a couple of breaths, and sort of examined her face for a moment. There didn’t seem to be any shame or fear or hint of regret there.

“I’m.... told that this is generally the way things progress now, but... it’s...” he sighed, he wasn’t sure what it was exactly. “When I say it feels wrong, I don’t mean you and me, but just the order of things.”

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 03:14 pm UTC (link)

She gave him another quick kiss and then she did settle on the couch next to him. She took one of his hands and laced their fingers together, resting her head on his shoulder.

"We did get a little carried away." She chuckled. "And for the record, how things progress is entirely up to the two people involved and them only. There isn't any 'normally' when it comes to relationships."

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 03:23 pm UTC (link)

Darcy breathed something of a sigh of relief when she moved next to him. She was far too difficult to resist, and when she was right in his lap none of his thoughts were pure.

“Thank you,” he said, grateful for the space for the moment. He curled his fingers with hers, and settled back beside her. He thought about what she had to say about, and then nodded a little. That was exactly it. Was he going to repress what he really wanted because of her mother? But by the same token... if he proposed right now, and she said yes, she’d surely want to tell her mother right away, and he didn’t want her to be surprised by a negative reaction.

“What makes you most comfortable?” he asked after a moment.

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	ashleysully 2018-08-12 03:28 pm UTC (link)
	She chuckled softly and squeezed his hand a little bit. "It depends what you mean." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 03:43 pm UTC (link)

What did he mean? There was a question. He was apparently trying to propose without actually having to take the risk of proposing first.

He shifted a little where he sat, turning so that he was facing her more directly. “I am struggling, I am fighting against my own better judgement. I should have proposed before now, and I’m not delaying because I don’t want to, I really want to. I’m delaying because I don’t know if it will make you very uncomfortable, maybe you would prefer to do things your way. It’s just that way makes me uncomfortable. Maybe I’ll get used it, in time. Right now it feels... backwards.”

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 03:52 pm UTC (link)

Ashley shifted when he did, but she didn't let go of his hand. It took a second for her brain to catch up to what he was saying. He wanted to marry her. She closed her eyes for a moment and didn't try to hide the smile that was slowly turning into a grin. Her heart was fluttering in her chest. After a second, she looked him in the eye.

"As I said, how things progress is entirely up to us. And I know that a lot more has gone on without a proposal than you're comfortable with." She looked down a moment. "And....I wouldn't be uncomfortable with a proposal, were one to be offered." She cleared her throat, looking up at him through her lashes. "But there would have to be some discussion about the length of the engagement."

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 06:08 pm UTC (link)

Her smile was beautiful, perfect. He could observe how it was lighting up her face and there was no hint of embarrassment or disgust in it at all. Quite the opposite. She looked so happy.

“I would not want you to agree just to make me comfortable,” he said after a moment. “But there is perhaps also a limit to how much I should consent to for your comfort. As much as I am willing to adjust, I do not want to risk losing my sense of... self worth, I hope that makes sense without insult,” he tried his best to explain to her.

“You would prefer a longer engagement, I think?”

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 06:22 pm UTC (link)

"I understand completely. You want an acceptance to be completely genuine. And I shouldn't expect you to change any more than you expect it of me." She smiled. "Of course...were an offer to be made, acceptance wouldn't be strictly for your benefit." She smirked a little and then nodded at his question.

"Maybe not as long as most, but definitely a couple of months. I know in your time marriages tended to fall fairly quickly after proposal." She smiled a little. "Some people have been known, in modern times, to wait years between engagement and marriage. Though I don't plan to wait that long." Sje chuckled a little and squeezed his hand.

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 07:34 pm UTC (link)

Ashley's response was very reassuring, and very pleasing to hear. A smile was playing on his lips too, and he gave her a nod of understanding. "Well, good. I wouldn't want to be so awfully selfish about it," he insisted, the smile threatening to become more of a grin now.

His heart was racing; she was actually talking about it, she wasn't offended or upset, she seemed genuinely happy about the prospect. "Then you, and no one else, shall name the date," he told her, giving her hand a squeeze in return. "If I were to ask, I mean, of course," he added with a chuckle.

"One thing more..." he said, shifting to take both hands now, his expression turning more serious. "Your mother. It has been made very clear that she will not be giving her approval. She also made it very clear that you are a consenting adult and that you can do as you wish. I mention it, though, because I would not wish to cause damage to your relationship with your mother. And also, perhaps... you may expect a happier reaction, and I don't want it to be a bad surprise when it is not received."

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 07:42 pm UTC (link)

"Selfish is not a word I would use to describe you." She smiled.

"If you were to ask." She chuckled softly, then she noticed the change in tone. It didn't really surprise her that her mother was against a speedy engagement. She nodded.

"I appreciate your concern for my relationship with my mother. Times have quite changed in that while people advance quickly in their physical relationships, talk of marriage sometimes waits years. It's backwards for you, I know." She sighed softly.

"I think, were you to ask." She smirked briefly. "That perhaps for now it would be our secret. Just for now. And then when the time came for us to be married....we could announce the engagement shortly beforehand." She looked down at their hands as she started to gently move her thumbs along his knuckles.

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mrdarcy_
2018-08-12 08:11 pm UTC (link)

"Yes, I have been... told," he said softly, really not wanting to dwell on how terribly that entire conversation had gone. He had not known that his outrage at the concept of modern relationships would be so entirely offensive to her mother.

"It is..." he agreed. "Let me be clear. I know things have progressed a little quickly, and perhaps you might be mistaken in thinking that I would feel that morally I have to propose," he told her. "I mean, I do feel that, but it is far from the true motive. I am from a place where you do not begin a familiar relationship until you are prepared to commit to that person. I would not have.. held your hand, or kissed you, or..." he paused, just to give her a loving smile for a moment. "I mean to say, I would never toy with your heart, my dear Ashley."

"Our secret. No one else needs to know just yet," he agreed, and gave her hands a little squeeze. "Thank you. For answering all of my questions. Well. All of them so far. You must excuse me for a moment," he told her, before gently letting go of her hands. He stood up a little shakily, gave her a little bow, and left the room just for the moment.

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ashleysully
2018-08-12 08:16 pm UTC (link)

"I know you would never do that." She smiled. Even with their fight she never really doubted his feelings for her. Well, not never but very briefly and that was quickly resolved.

When he got up and left the room she did a silent little happy dance, though she made sure to contain herself quickly. She didn't want him to see her being completely ridiculous just yet.