It was still a little difficult to get his thoughts in order with her still on his lap, but it was better than just mindlessly going with it against his better judgement. He’d hate himself later if he didn’t allow himself a moment to engage his brain. He took a couple of breaths, and sort of examined her face for a moment. There didn’t seem to be any shame or fear or hint of regret there.
“I’m.... told that this is generally the way things progress now, but... it’s...” he sighed, he wasn’t sure what it was exactly. “When I say it feels wrong, I don’t mean you and me, but just the order of things.”