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Tweak says, "I LIKE GROG!"

Nᴀᴛʜᴀɴ (bartonesque) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2021-02-21 21:02:00

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active: amy bendix, active: bruce banner, active: hope mikaelson, active: josie saltzman, active: kate bishop, active: michelle jones, active: morgan stark, active: nathaniel barton, active: tandy bowen, active: torunn thorsdottir, active: wanda maximoff

[ MORGAN ]

I need you to come and punch me in the face really fucking hard, okay? Please?

[ TEENS & FRIENDS* ]

Is it okay if I randomly show up places you might be to hang out? When it's not okay you can totally kick me out, but I have a feeling ~~I'll spiral~~ I'm going to need distractions from my head for a bit.

[i started naming people, it got out of hand you wanna be his friend you are his friend]

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	Nate \| Hope bartonesque 2021-02-21 11:12 pm UTC (link)
	I'm literally terrible company, and it's really just actual company that I need, no matter what you're doing, and I'll try not get underfoot or anything. I feel like I know rationally it's not my fault, but everything keeps circling back to how it wouldn't have happened if not for me, y'know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Nate | Hope

baculum
2021-02-21 11:28 pm UTC (link)

There's been a lot of eating, tv watching, and wrapping up in blankets. As long as you don't mind some crying, too, I don't think it's possible to get underfoot.

Yea, I know. Really well actually. The therapists like to point out that they're adults who make their own choices, regardless of ours. ~~I particularly like when they tell me I was just a kid and I was doing my best. Like that changes wha~~

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Nate | Hope

bartonesque
2021-02-21 11:36 pm UTC (link)

Oh, I am a sympathetic crier. Just don't tease how blotchy and red I get, it's not attractive at all.

Yeah, there's usually a lot of 'it's no one's fault' that crops up, and sometimes it's true, I guess. But that doesn't exactly make it easy to agree or even grasp onto.

My mom was always really good at talking through cause and effect and my relation to it, and I'm sure dad or Nat would do it, but fuck if I wanna bother them with my shit right now.

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Nate | Hope

baculum
2021-02-21 11:42 pm UTC (link)

I promise no judging. And not just about your face.

You would have never chosen to hurt him. I think that means a lot. The Entity is always there to blame, shitty muffins or not.

I think they would both want to make sure you're not hurting. But I can do my best until you feel okay talking to them? If you want to. No pressure, I know you've got better friends than me to talk to.

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Nate | Hope

bartonesque
2021-02-21 11:48 pm UTC (link)

I'm annoyed I ate those now, I retroactively decide I didn't like them. Yick.

Yeah. I mean, I constantly feel like they have to put their shit to the side for mine first, cause they do tend to check on me first. I'm probably like stupidly fragile out of everyone around me. So like, I wanna let them deal with each other and shit.

So like, can I hang with you tonight then? Whatever you're doing. I usually only have Morgan, cause like, I'm shit at keeping friends.

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	Nate \| Hope baculum 2021-02-21 11:55 pm UTC (link)
	I tried one but it didn't really taste like anything. But, I have a lot of beignets here with no strings attached. You might have a different perspective on that than they do. There's nothing wrong with being ~~human~~ fragile. But I'm not going to push you. The good thing is they'll be there when you're ready. Yea, of course. There's plenty of room. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope bartonesque 2021-02-22 12:00 am UTC (link)
	They're probably 600% better than dry muffins. ~~Yeah cause going anywhere right now is dumb since dad literally~~ I guess. This is probably why I should resume therapy somehow, but seems a bit harder here. Thanks Hope, I really appreciate it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope baculum 2021-02-22 12:08 am UTC (link)
	Yea, I feel that. I tried talking to one of the ones here, the strangers who don't live in the Villa. But it's kind of hard when they don't understand the basics of my life. Being able to help someone makes me feel better, so you're really doing me a favor. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope bartonesque 2021-02-22 12:14 am UTC (link)
	Spend more time trying to explain where and what you come from? That'd be more exhausting than the problems. I am a constant mess and need help almost all the time. I will happily help you feel better any time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope baculum 2021-02-22 12:20 am UTC (link)
	Right? 'So, first of all you have to believe that vampires, witches, werewolves, and phoenixes exist.' And that's where you lose them. But it's also too much of who I am to not mention. Perfect, then I just have to watch myself to make sure I'm not not helping you get better so I have someone to help me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope bartonesque 2021-02-22 12:34 am UTC (link)
	Probably hard to explain why you go off to become a wolf without touching on werewolves at the very least. This is going to become a confusing circle, but a lot of things confuse me anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope baculum 2021-02-22 12:42 am UTC (link)
	And hard to explain how I caused my parents' deaths if you don't understand vampires. Which then makes it hard to explain how much it sucks that the Entity sent them back. And this is why we only really need ice cream, a tv, and blankets. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope bartonesque 2021-02-22 12:50 am UTC (link)
	The entity is being a giant bag of dicks lately. The best three things, honestly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope baculum 2021-02-22 01:00 am UTC (link)
	I'm not convinced it's ever been anything but. I know a lot of people disagree, though. Right? I'll try not to eat it all before you get here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope bartonesque 2021-02-22 01:06 am UTC (link)
	I think that's the point; gives us things then takes them away. It sucks more for some people than it does for others I guess. If there are still beignets I could forgive you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Nate \| Hope baculum 2021-02-22 01:25 am UTC (link)
	I guess. But it also means you're not the only fragile one here. Oh, well, in that case... (Reply to this) (Parent)

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