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Tweak says, "Thank God I'm Pretty."

stephanie nashton does it all (forthem) wrote in rooms,
@ 2014-10-19 23:07:00

Entry tags:

!tales, *journal, *log, barbara gordon, bruce wayne, damian wayne, death, eddie nigma, helena wayne, selina kyle, stephanie brown

selina k, bats & birds, muerte, eddie n
[All of this is handwritten in her messy, girlish hand.]

[locked to selina k.]

Meow.

[locked to batfam+]

Mandatory check-in. I'm living with a squat, old witch who insists on making me learn how to cook frog stew. Now your turn.

[locked to muerte.]

[She's not sure if this will go through, but she can't help but try. Pen press then eventually:] Hi.

[locked to eddie n.]

[She's been gone most of the day with Agnes. Eventually, midway through the afternoon he gets this locked to him.]

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	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-20 07:22 pm UTC (link)
	Is there some benefit to eating it? [Pause.] I am fine. Mostly. [Blink. Blink.] I'm moving back to the Manor. I think Jason and Dick are, too. Damian is [...] Damian. Selina doesn't think we can last. What does "okay" entail? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-20 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	Probably, but it's gross. Eddie says she's fond of me though, so maybe I'll make it out with all my limbs. [...] It'll be good to have everyone under the same roof. [Pause.] Damian is being a brat. [...] Selina is just worried. Okay entails a lot. And not enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-20 07:28 pm UTC (link)

That's [...] encouraging. [Blink.] Maybe. Dick's been under a lot of pressure lately. And Jason isn't exactly the family type. But being together might be what we need. [...] I don't know what to do. I love him, but it's not enough. [...] I know she is. I know. I'm not blaming her. We don't exactly have the best track record.

[Pause.] Eddie told me what happened.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-20 08:03 pm UTC (link)

Dick's a wreck, from what I've heard. I need to check up on him. Maybe I should have checked in with him myself. [...] Jason needs to be around everyone. So does Dick. [Pause. Sigh.] Damian is being a little fucking brat. He's giving me shit, too. [...] You need to remember to reassure her, okay? I know that it's hard and people are frustrating, but it's worth it.

[Beat.] Yeah. Selina told me he's downplaying it.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-20 08:08 pm UTC (link)

I'm trying to talk to him, but he's [...] well. You'll see for yourself. [Blink.] Jason actually suggested it, him and Dick moving back in. [Blink, blink.] He doesn't want me with Selina. He never has. I don't know how to make him see that it's not him or her. It isn't a competition. [...] I'm trying. I haven't made a mess of it yet.

[...] Have you talked about it?

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-21 01:46 am UTC (link)

I've heard. [Pen press.] I'll see. I want to try to get the whole family together, and I know none of them are really my biggest fans right now, but I think it'll be important. For the holidays maybe? [...] I'm happy Jason knows he can come to you guys, at least. I don't think he trusts me very much either. [Pause.] I know. He says that Eddie's taking me away from the family which is not true. And it's never a competition. I don't know why he doesn't get that. [...] I don't think you will.

[...] About how he almost got beheaded? Yeah.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-21 02:04 am UTC (link)

Why aren't they you're biggest fans? [Blink. Blink.] The holidays. That would be nice. Being together can't be a bad thing, can it? [...] Jason's always been tough to reach, especially after Carnage. [Pause.] I think he believes Selina is doing the same with me. That she takes me away from him. He told me, once, that I love her more than him. [...] I haven't always made the best choices. I know that, and I know he has reasons to be angry at me, but Selina isn't one of them. [Blink.] I don't want to.

[...] That, and what happened after. How he survived.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-21 03:51 am UTC (link)

I haven't been a very good sister lately. [Pause.] I wouldn't think so, but then again this is our family we're talking about. I'll shop it around. Helena's already said no. [...] He's taking the steps now though, and that's important. Have you seen him? [...] Damian is being a brat. He's making things a competition when it doesn't have to be. It never has to be. [Blink.] None of us have always been perfect, and that's fine. He's got reasons to be angry at all of us. Being in love with a rogue? Isn't one of them.

[Pause.] I couldn't let him die like that.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-21 04:16 am UTC (link)

How so? [Blink.] We can hope, I suppose. [...] I wish that surprised me, but it doesn't. [Blink.] Yes. We patrolled together. [Blink. Blink. Blink.] I want to make things right with him, but not at Selina's expense. I won't. And talking to him never seems to work. I don't even know if moving back to the Manor will make a difference. [Aaaand no comment about being in love with a rogue.]

Of course you couldn't.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-21 04:47 am UTC (link)

I don't know. I feel like I've been really selfish and inconsiderate with my time. [...] She said she'll get back to me. I don't want to hold my breath. How is she doing? She says she's fine, but I'm not so sure I believe that. [...] No, and it shouldn't be at Selina's expense. Maybe living with him at the Manor will help. Maybe having the other boys around will help too. [She sees that no comment, Brucie.]

He [...] tried to stop it. But I wouldn't let him.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-21 06:02 am UTC (link)

[Blink.] It sounds like Dick feels similar. Like he hasn't done enough. But you're here for everyone, and you try, and you're supportive. That's not nothing. [...] I don't know. She's on her feet now, so physically she's recovering, but she doesn't want to stay in Gotham. [Blink. Blink.] Maybe. Jason suggested it, but I don't know if Dick will even agree.

Have you talked about that?

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	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-21 07:06 am UTC (link)
	It feels a lot like nothing a lot of the time. [Sigh.] Maybe getting out of Gotham is what she needs. She said something about a company overseas wanting her. That could be good for her. [...] He probably will. Dick wants the family to work more than anyone, especially with the baby on the way. [Beat.] A little bit. Enough. We talked about a lot of things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-21 07:20 am UTC (link)
	I know what that's like, but what more do you think you should be doing? [Blink.] Maybe. [...] If leaving Gotham is what she wants, what will make her happy, then she should do it. What matters is what's best for her. [...] You're probably right. [Blink.] How did it go? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-21 07:33 am UTC (link)
	I don't even know what I should be doing anymore. I can't even think of what else to do. [...] I just hope we all find our way. I know we can find a way eventually. [...] We're both upset, but we're working towards fixing everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-21 05:50 pm UTC (link)
	I'll tell you what I told Dick, which is hypocritical but no less true: don't put too much pressure on yourself. [...] Yes. I'm sure we can. [Blink.] I think I've managed to convince Selina that we're not doomed to fail, at least for now. [...] Good. I know you'll get there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-22 03:41 am UTC (link)
	You guys aren't doomed to fail. I think we all feel that in Gotham sometimes, but you aren't. I have to believe that. We're trying. I love him so much, and I know he loves me. I just [...] I broke his trust. I understand why, and I need to earn it back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-22 03:55 am UTC (link)

[Blink.] I spent a lot of time thinking I wasn't good for her, and that's not easy to overcome. But I'm trying to believe that, too.

[...] I don't know a great deal about relationships, I'll admit that. But [...] the boy I shared a mind with, before, he's married too. Like you and Eddie. He and his wife [...] they've been through things most people wouldn't be able handle. They had trust issues, and there were times when their relationship became very, very difficult, but they're still together. They made it. You and Eddie will too.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-22 04:08 am UTC (link)

[A beat.] I know none of us really helped with that. I'm sorry for my part in it, in encouraging you both to stay away from each other. I really, really regret that.

[...] I believe in us. It seems like we're in a pit, like we're fighting to get ashore, but I know we're going to get to the other side. We've been through too much to just fail at this, too. And I'm sure as fuck not giving up on him.

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	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-22 06:05 am UTC (link)
	[...] I know you meant well. It's in the past now. Good. That's the right attitude to have. You won't give up on him, and he won't give up on you. That's why you'll get there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-23 01:27 am UTC (link)
	You guys are going to work it out. I know it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-24 12:48 am UTC (link)
	[...] I hope so. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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