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Tweak says, "The committee says yes."

stephanie nashton does it all (forthem) wrote in rooms,
@ 2014-10-19 23:07:00

Entry tags:

!tales, *journal, *log, barbara gordon, bruce wayne, damian wayne, death, eddie nigma, helena wayne, selina kyle, stephanie brown

selina k, bats & birds, muerte, eddie n
[All of this is handwritten in her messy, girlish hand.]

[locked to selina k.]

Meow.

[locked to batfam+]

Mandatory check-in. I'm living with a squat, old witch who insists on making me learn how to cook frog stew. Now your turn.

[locked to muerte.]

[She's not sure if this will go through, but she can't help but try. Pen press then eventually:] Hi.

[locked to eddie n.]

[She's been gone most of the day with Agnes. Eventually, midway through the afternoon he gets this locked to him.]

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-21 03:51 am UTC (link)

I haven't been a very good sister lately. [Pause.] I wouldn't think so, but then again this is our family we're talking about. I'll shop it around. Helena's already said no. [...] He's taking the steps now though, and that's important. Have you seen him? [...] Damian is being a brat. He's making things a competition when it doesn't have to be. It never has to be. [Blink.] None of us have always been perfect, and that's fine. He's got reasons to be angry at all of us. Being in love with a rogue? Isn't one of them.

[Pause.] I couldn't let him die like that.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-21 04:16 am UTC (link)

How so? [Blink.] We can hope, I suppose. [...] I wish that surprised me, but it doesn't. [Blink.] Yes. We patrolled together. [Blink. Blink. Blink.] I want to make things right with him, but not at Selina's expense. I won't. And talking to him never seems to work. I don't even know if moving back to the Manor will make a difference. [Aaaand no comment about being in love with a rogue.]

Of course you couldn't.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-21 04:47 am UTC (link)

I don't know. I feel like I've been really selfish and inconsiderate with my time. [...] She said she'll get back to me. I don't want to hold my breath. How is she doing? She says she's fine, but I'm not so sure I believe that. [...] No, and it shouldn't be at Selina's expense. Maybe living with him at the Manor will help. Maybe having the other boys around will help too. [She sees that no comment, Brucie.]

He [...] tried to stop it. But I wouldn't let him.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-21 06:02 am UTC (link)

[Blink.] It sounds like Dick feels similar. Like he hasn't done enough. But you're here for everyone, and you try, and you're supportive. That's not nothing. [...] I don't know. She's on her feet now, so physically she's recovering, but she doesn't want to stay in Gotham. [Blink. Blink.] Maybe. Jason suggested it, but I don't know if Dick will even agree.

Have you talked about that?

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	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-21 07:06 am UTC (link)
	It feels a lot like nothing a lot of the time. [Sigh.] Maybe getting out of Gotham is what she needs. She said something about a company overseas wanting her. That could be good for her. [...] He probably will. Dick wants the family to work more than anyone, especially with the baby on the way. [Beat.] A little bit. Enough. We talked about a lot of things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-21 07:20 am UTC (link)
	I know what that's like, but what more do you think you should be doing? [Blink.] Maybe. [...] If leaving Gotham is what she wants, what will make her happy, then she should do it. What matters is what's best for her. [...] You're probably right. [Blink.] How did it go? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-21 07:33 am UTC (link)
	I don't even know what I should be doing anymore. I can't even think of what else to do. [...] I just hope we all find our way. I know we can find a way eventually. [...] We're both upset, but we're working towards fixing everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-21 05:50 pm UTC (link)
	I'll tell you what I told Dick, which is hypocritical but no less true: don't put too much pressure on yourself. [...] Yes. I'm sure we can. [Blink.] I think I've managed to convince Selina that we're not doomed to fail, at least for now. [...] Good. I know you'll get there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-22 03:41 am UTC (link)
	You guys aren't doomed to fail. I think we all feel that in Gotham sometimes, but you aren't. I have to believe that. We're trying. I love him so much, and I know he loves me. I just [...] I broke his trust. I understand why, and I need to earn it back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: bruce w/steph n

onerule
2014-10-22 03:55 am UTC (link)

[Blink.] I spent a lot of time thinking I wasn't good for her, and that's not easy to overcome. But I'm trying to believe that, too.

[...] I don't know a great deal about relationships, I'll admit that. But [...] the boy I shared a mind with, before, he's married too. Like you and Eddie. He and his wife [...] they've been through things most people wouldn't be able handle. They had trust issues, and there were times when their relationship became very, very difficult, but they're still together. They made it. You and Eddie will too.

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Re: bruce w/steph n

forthem
2014-10-22 04:08 am UTC (link)

[A beat.] I know none of us really helped with that. I'm sorry for my part in it, in encouraging you both to stay away from each other. I really, really regret that.

[...] I believe in us. It seems like we're in a pit, like we're fighting to get ashore, but I know we're going to get to the other side. We've been through too much to just fail at this, too. And I'm sure as fuck not giving up on him.

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	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-22 06:05 am UTC (link)
	[...] I know you meant well. It's in the past now. Good. That's the right attitude to have. You won't give up on him, and he won't give up on you. That's why you'll get there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n forthem 2014-10-23 01:27 am UTC (link)
	You guys are going to work it out. I know it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: bruce w/steph n onerule 2014-10-24 12:48 am UTC (link)
	[...] I hope so. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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