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Jason Murphy ([info]jmurph) wrote in [info]providence_rpg,
@ 2008-10-15 22:42:00

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Awkwardness, anyone?
WHO: Jason & Kate
WHAT: Kate's shadowing him at work.
WHERE: Gunter Studios.
WHEN: ALL DAY. Lmfao.
RATING: Who knows? TBD.
OPEN? To [info]stillnotkatie only.


To say that Jason was a little nervous and apprehensive about Kate shadowing him at work would be a complete understatement. While he did want to see her again and spend some time with her, he knew that things couldn't be like they had been before. They weren't together anymore, they weren't dating. He had a girlfriend, she had a boyfriend. They were only going to be friends, and that was really for the best. Though Jason had never really completely gotten over Kate, he knew that they could really be no more than friends. Things couldn't miraculously return to the way they had been when he had said goodbye to her when she left to come here. He couldn't hold open his arms and let her run into them and hug and kiss her, no matter how much he thought about it. And then, after thinking about it, he always felt incredibly guilty.

Pushing all those thoughts out of his head, Jason focused on the task at hand. He was sitting at his desk about ten minutes before Kate was scheduled to show up, and he couldn't exactly concentrate on the things he was supposed to do today. He had saved some developing for a project for when she showed up, to give her something to do. He figured that, since she was a photography student now, she knew how to develop without his help. Which just made him smile, of course. He couldn't get over the sense of pride and the little bit of nostalgia he felt whenever he thought about Kate going into photography. However small of a part he played in that decision, he still played a part in a huge decision in her life. It touched him, really. And then he ended up feeling guilty again. 'Hey, Jason! There's a Kathleen Shore here to see you? She says that she's supposed to be career shadowing you.' Jason looked up at the sound of his co-worker's voice, and he nodded. "Yeah, send her on back, please," he said, reaching a hand up to run through his hair. He needed to get his head together, and fast.

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-19 02:53 am UTC (link)
Jason snickered at Kate's comment about her sense of direction, and he covered his mouth for a moment. "Yeah ... you were never any good with them. But, you'd insist that you knew where you were going, and for some reason, my dumb ass kept believing you," he said, shaking his head and laughing quietly. "And then, when you'd get us completely lost, turned around backwards, you'd refuse to ask anyone to help us," he smiled, proving to her that he remembered exactly how Kate was with directions. "It used to piss me off, but make me laugh at the same time," he told her, writing down some notes on a pad of paper. Notes of things he had to get done, that Kate would be able to help him with.

Nodding, Jason smiled. "Yeah, it would make working together here pretty difficult if all we did was yell at each other," he told her, giving her a big smile, then shrugging. "Besides, you and I were never really able to stay mad at each other," he said quietly, turning his attention back to the computer. That had slipped out before he could stop it, and he just figured 'oh well'. He was sure that there was a lot about their past that would slip out if the two of them hung out together. It was just a given, it was the way things worked.

The smile that the internship put on Kate's face made everything completely worth it. Jason's own smile grew a little, and he had to bite his tongue to keep himself from saying something about her smile. It hadn't dimmed at all, and it still had the same effect on him. It still made him want to do anything he could to keep it on her face. He caught himself staring at her smile longer than he should have, and he cleared his throat to cover his tracks. "What work do I have for you?" Jason repeated Kate's question, and then pushed his chair out, turning to face her and leaning back into it, crossing his hands over his stomach. "Well, there's some developing that needs to be done. And then I have some prints to make. They won't be big, just the small proofs to show to a client, and then the client will choose which she wants made into actual prints," he explained, reaching a hand up to run through his always unruly hair. "Sound good?" he asked.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 03:42 am UTC (link)
Kate couldn’t help but laugh a bit as Jason brought back the memory of his first hand account with her and how bad she was with directions. What he said was exactly true, Kate couldn’t deny it but she never did anything about it either. She was stubborn like that and probably would never change no matter what. “I remember that, I think it took us like over half an hour to get to the place we wanted when it normally only took like ten minutes,” Kate said to Jason with a smile. “I was so surprised that you let me drag you around for that long, if I were you I would of strangled me in about the first ten minutes,” Kate then added with another laugh. Kate and Jason had a lot of memories together and she knew for a fact that the two of them would be going through tons of them by the end of the day.

The next thing that Jason said caught Kate by surprise a bit, only in the manner that he said it, and she wasn’t sure how to respond to that. She knew that it was true, her and Jason could never stay that angry with each other, and that still held up to this day. When they first ran into each other they were yelling at each other constantly, but not long after that did they find out each other’s cell phone numbers and were calling each other constantly. “Yeah, we never could stay angry with each other,” Kate commented quietly, but that didn’t stop her from giving Jason a smile as she said it. She knew it was a comment that was slipped out, but really she didn’t mind it that much.

Kate sat up straighter in her chair as Jason leaned back in his as she consciously remembered about her posture and how bad it was. Kate slouched all of the time and recently decided to try and sit up straighter to try and help out her back. Kate couldn’t afford to be getting a really sore back from something that she could of just avoided in the first place by not being so lazy. “Yeah, that sounds great,” Kate said with a nod, but she bit her lip when she thought about developing film and the dark room. Kate and Jason certainly had a lot of history when they were together in the dark room, and she already knew that things would be a little weird if the two of them were together in one again. Though, Kate tried to stay positive and push those thoughts out of her head. She had to be professional about this and not let things get weird.

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-19 01:07 pm UTC (link)
Jason laughed and nodded. "Yeah, it did take way too long. And I still have no idea why I let you drag me around that long. If you would have asked someone, we would have been there so much sooner," he remembered, shaking his head. "Oh well. That's in the past, though it's nice to hear that you haven't gotten any better at it," he smiled. Glancing over at her as she repeated his statement about not being able to stay mad at each other for very long, Jason nodded. He glanced away and cleared his throat, looking at one of his co-workers. His co-worker was making kissy faces at him and Kate, and Jason rolled his eyes. That was the last time he confided in that friend about anything. Glaring at his friend, he slowly returned his gaze back to Kate, giving her a small smile.

Nodding as she agreed that the developing and making proofs sounded good, Jason stood and glanced around his desk for a minute before his eyes landed on the few rolls of film he had to develop. Reaching out, he grabbed them and then glanced over at Kate. "Okay, let's get started," he smiled. "Follow me, the dark room is back here," he told her, making his way through the studio. Jason was really kind of apprehensive to have the two of them both in the dark room, alone, at the same time, but there was nothing he could do about it. Nobody else had any work to do in the dark room, and he had to do something with Kate for her shadowing. He would just have to concentrate completely on his work, and try to forget who it was in there with him.

Reaching the dark room, Jason opened the door and then let Kate enter the small little hallway with him before he closed the door. Taking a few more steps, he opened the door that went into the actual dark room, and he cleared his throat. "Anyone in here?" he called, and he didn't hear anything. "I'm gonna turn on the lights," he warned, and still nothing. Nodding, Jason reached for the light switch and flipped it on. He turned to Kate and gave her a smile. "Okay," he said, setting the rolls of film on the table and then turning to grab the supplies he would need to develop the film. He handed Kate the circular film separator and the large black container that it went into. "Here," he smiled.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 02:32 pm UTC (link)
It was a good thing that Kate didn’t look over and see Jason’s co worker making kissy faces at her and Jason because she would of immediately started blushing like crazy and either walked over to the friend and given them a good smack or jumped over the desk and start kissing Jason. Neither of those options were good ones, so it was just a relief that Kate didn’t see it. Kate grinned at Jason’s comment about her not getting any better at it. “No I haven’t, and you are still as understanding about that flaw as ever,” she said. Kate herself couldn’t believe how much Jason let Kate do her own thing even though it was quite obvious that she was wrong, but that was just how Jason was.

As soon as Kate heard Jason say the word dark room a whole much of memories came back to Kate. There was a whole bunch of history between the two of them that revolved around a dark room, and Kate always found herself thinking about them whenever she was in the room, or smelling the familiar chemical smell that was associated with a dark room. Now, the thought of being alone again with Jason in a dark room worried Kate and made her a bit nervous, but she swallowed quickly and tried to get a grip on herself. It was just Jason, they were friends now and doing work together. Nothing more. “All right,” Kate said with a nod before following Jason to the back where the dark room was. Maybe someone else would be in there and then things wouldn’t feel so awkward? Probably not, but Kate liked to hope that there was still a possibility of that happening.

Kate walked into the hallway with Jason and waited for him to close the one door and open the other. He called into the room, but it was obvious that it was empty. In a way it was better that the two of them were alone, things could get crowded in there, and Kate wasn’t sure if she liked the idea of someone else listening into what her and Jason might say to each other. Not like their conversation would need to be private, but in a way she liked being able to be completely alone with him since it never happened anymore. Kate returned Jason’s smile when he turned on the lights and took a look around to how the dark room was set up. It was pretty familiar to how the one at her school was, and Kate was glad for that. It wouldn’t take her long at all to figure out where everything was. Kate took the separator and the black container and set them up on the counter so that it was easy to work with once the lights were turned off. “Remember when you first showed me how to develop film?” Kate found herself asking before she got a chance to stop herself. Going down memory lane right now probably wasn’t a good idea, but Kate couldn’t help it.

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-19 03:50 pm UTC (link)
Being back in a dark room with Kate was a really strange experience. He felt like he was back on the island and that wasn't exactly a good thing. He had to remind himself that Kate had a boyfriend (that wasn't him), and he had a girlfriend. THey weren't dating anymore. End of story. It was as simple as that. They were just friends now, and that was the way that things had to be, right? Right. Jason tried to block out any memories that were trying to come to the front of his mind with the whole dark room thing, but he was failing miserably. He kept thinking about the first time Kate kissed him, when she just walked into the dark room and then kissed him, and left. The memory brought a small smile to his face, and he cleared his throat, shaking his head.

Turning to look at Kate as she set up the stuff on the counter, Jason rose a brow when she brought up the first time he showed her how to develop film, and he smiiled. "Yeah, I remember. It was the first day we met. And you scared the shit out of me by accusing me of trying to take half-naked pictures of you," he smiled at her, bumping his shoulder against hers gently. He laughed, shaking his head. "That was fun. I loved that there was someone who wanted to learn about what I did for a living, something I was so passionate about. I loved teaching you how to do everything," he told her quietly, nodding his head. The memories of all the times they'd make out in the dark room, and when Jason would get absolutely no work done were trying to surface, but he was trying like hell to keep them at bay.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 04:12 pm UTC (link)
Jason’s smile was infectious, Kate found that whenever he smiled at all when he was around her she would find herself grinning or even beaming back at him. Kate remembered the first day that her and Jason met, and how much fun it was. She had just arrived on the island and been there less then a month and Jason was one of the first people that she actually sat and talked to. She remembered how the two of them immediately became friends and how easy it was for Kate to be herself around him. She trusted him enough to let him lead her into a dark room that had a lock on the door and spend quite a large amount of time alone with him in there. “Yeah, I did,” Kate said with a bit of a laugh. She may of scared the shit out of Jason, but to this day Kate was still glad that she did it. If she hadn’t would the two of them ever gotten talking? Probably if the both of them stayed on the island long enough, but she didn’t know if it would of lead to them being friends and then dating. “But you totally tried to feel me up when you bumped into me,” Kate teased as she bumped Jason’s shoulder back, obviously just joking. “It was a lot of fun, and you were a great teacher,” Kate said with a grin, happy that Jason enjoyed teaching her things. He loved it, and she loved being taught by him.

Once the separator was set up and ready for the film Kate shifted to the counter and picked up one of the rolls of films that Jason had placed there. With what she learned on the island from Jason and everything from school developing film had become pretty easy for Kate and she looked forward to showing Jason all that she knew. “Ready to turn off the lights?” Kate asked, making sure to note where the light switches were for the red tinted lights. She didn’t want to be stuck in the dark and then not be able to find the red light switch, that would just make her look like an idiot. Kate then walked over to the light switch and flicked it off, then flicked on the red lights immediately. She stood still for a moment while her eyes got used to the red light, it took her a little bit longer then usual sometimes to be able to see what she was doing. Kate couldn’t help but look over at Jason and smile, the image of what his face looked like under the red lights was always something that would stay in her memory since the two of them spent so much time in the dark room together before.

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-19 08:14 pm UTC (link)
Smiling, Jason shook his head and glanced over at her for a moment, his mind flooding with memories of the time he and Kate spent together. He didn't want to spend the time thinking about how things used to be between them, it would just make things even more awkward between them. The longer he thought about what used to be, the more awkward things would get. And Jason didn't want things to be incredibly awkward, not now that he had agreed to spend so much time with her, letting her doing her shadowing there. He wanted to spend the time with her, so he should just forget about the old times, and focus on their newfound friendship. Or, that was what he kept telling himself anyway. Laughing as she told him that he tried to feel her up, he rose a brow. "When? When did I bump into you, and try to feel you up?" he asked, laughing a little bit. He didn't remember that.

Nodding at Kate as she asked him about turning off the lights, Jason gave her a small smile. "Yeah, ready," he said, moving to the light switch and turning on the red light, shutting of the overhead ones. He let his eyes adjust a little bit and then moved back to the counter, getting stuff together to put the film into the separator. He got his film wound around the separator and then put the separator into the container, putting the black portion on top so that he would be able to turn the lights back on as soon as Kate finished. He wanted to keep the lights on as much as possible, becuase he could feel an electricity surge through the two of them as soon as the lights were off. Jason swallowed, reaching a hand up and brushing it through his hair as he waited for Kate to finish. "Let me know when you're done, I'll turn the lights back on," he told her.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 08:37 pm UTC (link)
“When we were in the dark room. You totally bumped into me and touched a boob. It was an accident, but I gave you a hard time about it because you were so damn shy. It was adorable,” Kate said before she could hold back her last comment. It was true, when Kate first met Jason he was really shy about a lot of things, but it didn’t take too long for Jason to loosen up a lot as soon as he started spending time with Kate. She had that affect on him. “I was in a bikini that entire time we hung out. Though, I sort of lived in a bikini and shorts when we worked in Mexico, didn’t I?” Kate missed being able to just walk outside in a pair of shorts that were too short for her and a bikini top or t-shirt to go with it. The hot weather on the island was awesome and something that Kate would have to visit again.

Once Kate’s eyes adjusted to the light she went to work on her own roll of film. It took her a bit longer to get her own film wound but she finished not long after Jason. It was hard for Kate to concentrate when she was in the dark with Jason, it suddenly brought back a rush of emotions and feelings that she thought was long gone, or at least hidden away deep inside of her. She wasn’t even thinking about the fact that Jason had offered to turn off the lights after she finished with her film and moved to turn on the lights herself, knowing that Jason had finished before her. She turned to reach to the light switch but she misjudged how close she was to Jason in the dark and her arm ran along Jason’s body. She suddenly took a breath in of his smell, even with the chemicals of the room and before she knew what she was doing she wrapped an arm around his body and leaned her head against his chest. Kate normally would of pulled away right away, but there was something there that just pulled her to him and before she knew it she had both of her arms wrapped around him. Kate had no idea what she was doing, but her feet were planted in the floor and she couldn’t bring herself to pull away from him yet. She didn’t say anything, but just stood there probably looking like an idiot while she closed her eyes.

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-19 09:08 pm UTC (link)
Jason laughed, running his hands through his hair as she reminded him of the time he groped her. "Oh yeah ... I remember now. The first time I touched your boobs," he snickered, covering his mouth. "But, just so you know ... that really was an accident. I didn't mean to touch your boob that day. I wasn't that big of a perv yet," he laughed. "And, yes. You did give me a really hard time about it, because you were incredibly mean to me," he laughed. Listening as she talked about what she wore, he nodded. "Yeah, you did wear a bikini all the time, it was incredibly distracting, I won't lie to you," he told her, nodding. His hand moved to run through his hair again, it was a nervous habit. And talking about the past made him kinda nervous.

Jason was pretty impressed that he was able to get his film taken care of as fast as he did, because he was incredibly distracted by Kate. He could feel the warmth from her body next to him, and all he wanted to do was touch her. But he made himself focus on his work at hand, and he was able to get it done pretty quickly. Waitin for Kate to answer him as he asked about turning on the light, Jason wasn't expecting for her to reach for the light switch. Kate's hand brushed against his stomach, and he sucked in a breath, and then before he even knew what was going on, Kate's head was resting against his chest and her arms were hugging him around the waist. He closed his eyes tightly, his arms instinctively moving to wrap around her as well. He hugged her to his body, moving his head to press his face into her hair.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 09:35 pm UTC (link)
Kate grinned at Jason, the memories of how shy Jason was and what he was like when she first met him flooding her mind. If Kate had known that she would of ended up dating Jason for a year that day when she first met him she probably wouldn’t of believed it. In ways her and Jason were very different people, but the more they hung out they were able to teach each other so many things, and make each other better people. Kate was determined that Jason was still a person who was ten times better then her, he was such a nice and genuine person when she sometimes really…wasn’t. It still surprised her that he kept her around for so long. “Yeah, I just wanted to see your reaction, it was pretty cute,” Kate said with a grin. She then laughed a bit as his comment about her in a bikini. “I couldn’t help it. It isn’t like you get the chance to practically live in bikinis all of the time.”

A few moments after Kate wrapped her arm around Jason she was expecting him to pull away from her since what she just did was obviously inappropriate considering their situation. He didn’t, and soon enough Kate felt Jason wrap his own arms around her, hugging her closer to him. Kate couldn’t help it but she let out a soft content sigh, just realizing exactly how much she missed the feeling of Jason’s warm arms wrapping around her. It had been so long since they were close like this, and now that they were hugging Kate wasn’t sure if she wanted to let go of him. When Jason pressed his face into her hair she pressed her own face into the crook of his neck and just held herself against him. “I really missed you,” Kate murmured into his neck as she let her body lean into his again. Her heart was already starting to beat fast and she breathed a bit harder to try and slow it down. Though, not long after did Kate hear something drop of the floor and it made a somewhat loud crack. Kate jumped at the noise as it acted like a reality check and immediately pushed herself away from Jason. She took in a deep breath and stepped away from him just realizing exactly what the two of them just did. “Shit, what just dropped?” Kate said to herself as she immediately reached over and turned on the lights. Shit, what did Kate just do?

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-19 10:52 pm UTC (link)
Jason smiled, rolling his eyes as she told him that she wanted to see his reaction. "Uh-huh. Great idea. Bothering me to get some kind of a rise out of me," he teased, glancing back at her. He ran his hand through his hair, raising a brow at her as she talked about her bikinis. "They were crazy skimpy, woman. Well, even if they weren't skimpy, they still showed way too much skin. And all it did was distract me all the time," he said, laughing. He ran his hand over his face and then glanced back at her.

Having Kate this close to him again, having his arms wrapped around her again ... Jason didn't know what the hell he was doing. His mind was telling him that it was a horrible idea to have his arms around her, to be hugging her this closely, but he couldn't make himself move away. His hand moved around to her back, running up and down it slowly. His heart beat faster as she told him that she missed him, and Jason swallowed, his lips moving to her forehead and pressing to it slowly. "I missed you too. So much," he told her, sighing softly. His face moved down to glance at her, taking in the look on her face. "Kate ..." he said, and then something banged off in the distance, and the two of them jumped apart so quickly it shocked him. He ran a hand over the back of his neck, clearing his throat. "Um, I don't know what it was," he said. Jason scratched the back of his neck again, sighing softly. "I'm ... I'm sorry," he said, glancing back at Kate. He felt horrible, he felt guilty. But most of all, he felt like he wanted to keep holding her.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 11:10 pm UTC (link)
“That is the point of a bikini, silly. They are suppose to be skimpy.” Kate said with a playful grin. She had never been so comfortable with her body until she arrived on that island. After that Kate got to the point where someone could see her naked and she probably wouldn’t care, but that was because on a hot resort like that everyone was walking around half naked most of the time.

When Jason pressed a kiss to Kate’s forehead she couldn’t help but tighten her hold on his body and lean into him even more. She let out a sigh when he told her that he missed her too, and waited to hear what he had to say but the sound interrupted them too early. When the two of them were apart again and the lights were on Kate ran a hand through her hair and looked all over on the ground to see what dropped, and so that she wouldn’t have to look directly at Jason since she knew for a fact her cheeks would be flushed. Kate spotted a couple of rolls of film that they had not touched yet on the floor and assumed they rolled off and made that noise so Kate quickly bent down and picked them up before setting them on the counter by Jason. It wasn’t until he apologized that she looked at him and she wasn’t sure exactly how she should feel about it. “No, it is okay… it was nice,” Kate said, trying to act as casual as possible. The skin on her forehead where he kissed her still felt extremely hot and her breathing and heart rate were still up a bit more then normal, but she did her best to ignore it.

“So, now we just have to let the chemicals do it’s…thing,” Kate said, referring to the film that was inside of the black separator and hidden from the light. Kate would normally of used more technical terms, but her mind was all over the place and she couldn’t seem to be able to concentrate on anything.

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-20 03:17 pm UTC (link)
Jason’s heart was still beating way too fast to be healthy, and the palms of his hands itched to touch her. He wanted to keep her close to him, to pull her back and hug her again, even though he knew it would just be a BAD idea. Like, a REALLY bad idea. He had more sense than to shut the lights back off and pull her to him again. Because, if he did that, he wasn’t sure he’d be able to stop himself from completing the sentence he had started, or from kissing him. Both bad things that did not need to happen. And he knew this. Which was why he took a step backwards, pretending to go check the projector machines to make sure they were working. Why the hell wouldn’t they be working? He knew very well that they were, since he had used them the other day. But he needed space. He could still smell her perfume, or her shampoo, and all it was doing was drawing him to her.

Clearing his throat, he glanced over at her as she told him that it was nice. Giving her a small smile, Jason nodded. “Yeah, it was nice. But it was also a bad idea,” he said, turning his attention back to the projector. Why lie about it? It was a bad idea for them to hug, for them to be that close to one another. Granted, working together in a small space like a dark room didn’t give them much room to stay away from each other, but they would have enough room to not be touching. Which was what he needed right now. He needed to not touch her. Returning his gaze to her as she made the comment about the chemicals, Jason smiled. “Yeah, pretty much. We have to make sure to swirl the chemicals around every so often so that they reach all parts of the film,” he reminded her, moving to pull himself up to sit on the counter. “But other than that, we just wait,” he added, shrugging. What the hell were they going to talk about while they waited? The weather? Lame.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-20 04:43 pm UTC (link)
No matter how many deep breaths Kate took it felt like her heart was never going to calm down. Now that she had hugged Jason and felt his arms around her body her skin practically screamed to feel it again. She so desperately wanted to feel his warm body against hers and to be able to hear his breathing and press her cheek to his chest so she could hear and feel his heart beat. She just wanted to be close to him again, but it was obviously a very bad idea. Kate knew herself well enough to know that if she let herself get that close to Jason she probably wouldn’t be able to take herself away from him. It wasn’t fair to either of them, or to Jamie and Nicole. Kate cared about Jamie enough to know that she couldn’t put herself in a situation like that, and she felt extremely guilty for the feelings that she was sorting through now as she stood there in the dark room with the lights on looking at Jason.

Even though what Jason said was very true, that didn’t stop Kate from feeling a little bit hurt when he said it. It was certainly a bad idea, but if it was so bad when why did it feel so damn good when they did it? People always said that you want what you can’t have, so Kate assumed that since she obviously couldn’t have Jason near her then that was all that she would want. Or at least that is what she used as an excuse for what she was feeling. “Yeah, it was,” Kate said quietly with a nod as she wrapped her own arms around her body. Kate bit down on her bottom lip and watched as Jason checked out the projector and then nodded when he reminded her to swirl the chemicals around every once in a while. She watched as he sat on the counter and Kate let herself lean on the counter she was by, making sure that she wasn’t standing too close to Jason. Great. Now what? Kate could tell that this next fifteen minutes would be the longest fifteen minutes she would experience in a long time. “So, my mom got married,” Kate said randomly, knowing that she was going to have to think of something for the two of them to talk about. “Well, re-married I guess,” Jason knew all about Kate’s family situation and how her parents were divorced.

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[info]jmurph
2008-10-21 01:25 pm UTC (link)
Jason’s eyes watched Kate as she stood there, her arms wrapped around herself, and he cleared his throat. He wanted to reach out and touch her again, even though he knew it was wrong. He saw the flash of hurt cross Kate’s face, and he immediately regretted saying that the hug was a bad idea out loud. Whether or not Kate knew it, Jason was still better at reading her than anyone she knew. He had spent an entire year staring at her face, and never tiring of it. He would definitely be able to pick out an emotion as it crossed her face. “I … yeah,” he said, shrugging. She had agreed that it was a bad idea, but that didn’t stop him from feeling bad. “Don’t get me wrong … it really was nice. I did miss you. But we just … we shouldn’t hug, or anything like that,” he said, clearing his throat and crossing his arms over his chest.

Watching as Kate moved to stand by the counter he was sitting on, Jason grabbed one of the canisters with the film inside and started nervously swirling the liquid inside in circles. He needed to do something to keep his hands busy. Having Kate this close to him wasn’t something that Jason thought would be difficult. He thought he would love having her this close to him again. The problem was that he actually did love it. He wanted her back in his life, in more than a friendly way. Pushing those thoughts out of his head, Jason’s eyes concentrated on the canister in his hand. He didn’t want to admit those thoughts to himself, let alone her. And since he was still able to read her so well, he only assumed that she’d be just as good at reading him. He couldn’t help but glance back at her as she spoke again, though, and Jason smiled. “Really? That’s great. I always liked your mom,” he told her, nodding, then laughing. “Well, once I got over the fear that she was going to castrate me, I liked her,” he smiled. “Your dad, though … I still haven’t gotten over that fear,” he added, unable to hold back a laugh as he ran a hand through his hair.

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[info]stillnotkatie
2008-10-21 08:55 pm UTC (link)
Kate knew very well that Jason could read her better then anyone and that was because the two of them were inseparable when they were together. Jason got to know Kate better then anyone, better then her friends back in Colorado and even sometimes better then her own parents. Kate used to love that about them, it was such a good thing for their relationship when it came to understanding each other, but now that they were not together and Kate had so much she wanted to hide she wished that he couldn’t read her so well anymore. She tried to cover up the hurt look on her face, but once it surfaced she knew that it was too late. She did look up at him when he said that he missed her, those simple words brought back a bunch of feelings and caused that small ache in her heart to increase. She swallowed hard and looked away again, pretending to be suddenly interested in the shoelaces on her worn out converse runners. “Yeah, I know,” Kate said, confirming that she knew they shouldn’t do anything like that, but it didn’t stop her from wanting to.

As Jason grabbed one of the canisters and started swirling the chemicals inside Kate reached over to grab her own and mimicked what he was doing. She too needed something to do with her hands, she was just afraid that since she was so nervous her hands would start shaking. Luckily they didn’t and she swirled the chemicals around a bit before placing the canister back on the counter beside her. Kate had been looking forward to spending time with Jason again, but she didn’t consider how awkward or tense it might be. Kate hated it and missed just being able to be herself around Jason, to not have to think about the things she was going to say or do to him to make sure that they were appropriate. Kate did smile and laugh a bit when Jason talked about her parents. She remembered how scared Jason was of her mom, and especially of her father Simon. “My mom always liked you,” Kate said. “I think Simon did too, he just didn’t show it so well,” Kate then said with a grin. Though, since Kate and Jason were no longer together Simon’s opinion of Jason was indifferent, but she didn’t want to bring that up mainly because she didn’t want to admit out loud that her and Jason were no longer together, and couldn’t be together.

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