No matter how many deep breaths Kate took it felt like her heart was never going to calm down. Now that she had hugged Jason and felt his arms around her body her skin practically screamed to feel it again. She so desperately wanted to feel his warm body against hers and to be able to hear his breathing and press her cheek to his chest so she could hear and feel his heart beat. She just wanted to be close to him again, but it was obviously a very bad idea. Kate knew herself well enough to know that if she let herself get that close to Jason she probably wouldn’t be able to take herself away from him. It wasn’t fair to either of them, or to Jamie and Nicole. Kate cared about Jamie enough to know that she couldn’t put herself in a situation like that, and she felt extremely guilty for the feelings that she was sorting through now as she stood there in the dark room with the lights on looking at Jason.
Even though what Jason said was very true, that didn’t stop Kate from feeling a little bit hurt when he said it. It was certainly a bad idea, but if it was so bad when why did it feel so damn good when they did it? People always said that you want what you can’t have, so Kate assumed that since she obviously couldn’t have Jason near her then that was all that she would want. Or at least that is what she used as an excuse for what she was feeling. “Yeah, it was,” Kate said quietly with a nod as she wrapped her own arms around her body. Kate bit down on her bottom lip and watched as Jason checked out the projector and then nodded when he reminded her to swirl the chemicals around every once in a while. She watched as he sat on the counter and Kate let herself lean on the counter she was by, making sure that she wasn’t standing too close to Jason. Great. Now what? Kate could tell that this next fifteen minutes would be the longest fifteen minutes she would experience in a long time. “So, my mom got married,” Kate said randomly, knowing that she was going to have to think of something for the two of them to talk about. “Well, re-married I guess,” Jason knew all about Kate’s family situation and how her parents were divorced.