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Tweak says, "and the half blood prince"

Jason Murphy (jmurph) wrote in providence_rpg,
@ 2008-10-15 22:42:00

Awkwardness, anyone?
WHO: Jason & Kate
WHAT: Kate's shadowing him at work.
WHERE: Gunter Studios.
WHEN: ALL DAY. Lmfao.
RATING: Who knows? TBD.
OPEN? To

stillnotkatie only.

To say that Jason was a little nervous and apprehensive about Kate shadowing him at work would be a complete understatement. While he did want to see her again and spend some time with her, he knew that things couldn't be like they had been before. They weren't together anymore, they weren't dating. He had a girlfriend, she had a boyfriend. They were only going to be friends, and that was really for the best. Though Jason had never really completely gotten over Kate, he knew that they could really be no more than friends. Things couldn't miraculously return to the way they had been when he had said goodbye to her when she left to come here. He couldn't hold open his arms and let her run into them and hug and kiss her, no matter how much he thought about it. And then, after thinking about it, he always felt incredibly guilty.

Pushing all those thoughts out of his head, Jason focused on the task at hand. He was sitting at his desk about ten minutes before Kate was scheduled to show up, and he couldn't exactly concentrate on the things he was supposed to do today. He had saved some developing for a project for when she showed up, to give her something to do. He figured that, since she was a photography student now, she knew how to develop without his help. Which just made him smile, of course. He couldn't get over the sense of pride and the little bit of nostalgia he felt whenever he thought about Kate going into photography. However small of a part he played in that decision, he still played a part in a huge decision in her life. It touched him, really. And then he ended up feeling guilty again. 'Hey, Jason! There's a Kathleen Shore here to see you? She says that she's supposed to be career shadowing you.' Jason looked up at the sound of his co-worker's voice, and he nodded. "Yeah, send her on back, please," he said, reaching a hand up to run through his hair. He needed to get his head together, and fast.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 09:35 pm UTC (link)

Kate grinned at Jason, the memories of how shy Jason was and what he was like when she first met him flooding her mind. If Kate had known that she would of ended up dating Jason for a year that day when she first met him she probably wouldn’t of believed it. In ways her and Jason were very different people, but the more they hung out they were able to teach each other so many things, and make each other better people. Kate was determined that Jason was still a person who was ten times better then her, he was such a nice and genuine person when she sometimes really…wasn’t. It still surprised her that he kept her around for so long. “Yeah, I just wanted to see your reaction, it was pretty cute,” Kate said with a grin. She then laughed a bit as his comment about her in a bikini. “I couldn’t help it. It isn’t like you get the chance to practically live in bikinis all of the time.”

A few moments after Kate wrapped her arm around Jason she was expecting him to pull away from her since what she just did was obviously inappropriate considering their situation. He didn’t, and soon enough Kate felt Jason wrap his own arms around her, hugging her closer to him. Kate couldn’t help it but she let out a soft content sigh, just realizing exactly how much she missed the feeling of Jason’s warm arms wrapping around her. It had been so long since they were close like this, and now that they were hugging Kate wasn’t sure if she wanted to let go of him. When Jason pressed his face into her hair she pressed her own face into the crook of his neck and just held herself against him. “I really missed you,” Kate murmured into his neck as she let her body lean into his again. Her heart was already starting to beat fast and she breathed a bit harder to try and slow it down. Though, not long after did Kate hear something drop of the floor and it made a somewhat loud crack. Kate jumped at the noise as it acted like a reality check and immediately pushed herself away from Jason. She took in a deep breath and stepped away from him just realizing exactly what the two of them just did. “Shit, what just dropped?” Kate said to herself as she immediately reached over and turned on the lights. Shit, what did Kate just do?

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jmurph
2008-10-19 10:52 pm UTC (link)

Jason smiled, rolling his eyes as she told him that she wanted to see his reaction. "Uh-huh. Great idea. Bothering me to get some kind of a rise out of me," he teased, glancing back at her. He ran his hand through his hair, raising a brow at her as she talked about her bikinis. "They were crazy skimpy, woman. Well, even if they weren't skimpy, they still showed way too much skin. And all it did was distract me all the time," he said, laughing. He ran his hand over his face and then glanced back at her.

Having Kate this close to him again, having his arms wrapped around her again ... Jason didn't know what the hell he was doing. His mind was telling him that it was a horrible idea to have his arms around her, to be hugging her this closely, but he couldn't make himself move away. His hand moved around to her back, running up and down it slowly. His heart beat faster as she told him that she missed him, and Jason swallowed, his lips moving to her forehead and pressing to it slowly. "I missed you too. So much," he told her, sighing softly. His face moved down to glance at her, taking in the look on her face. "Kate ..." he said, and then something banged off in the distance, and the two of them jumped apart so quickly it shocked him. He ran a hand over the back of his neck, clearing his throat. "Um, I don't know what it was," he said. Jason scratched the back of his neck again, sighing softly. "I'm ... I'm sorry," he said, glancing back at Kate. He felt horrible, he felt guilty. But most of all, he felt like he wanted to keep holding her.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-19 11:10 pm UTC (link)

“That is the point of a bikini, silly. They are suppose to be skimpy.” Kate said with a playful grin. She had never been so comfortable with her body until she arrived on that island. After that Kate got to the point where someone could see her naked and she probably wouldn’t care, but that was because on a hot resort like that everyone was walking around half naked most of the time.

When Jason pressed a kiss to Kate’s forehead she couldn’t help but tighten her hold on his body and lean into him even more. She let out a sigh when he told her that he missed her too, and waited to hear what he had to say but the sound interrupted them too early. When the two of them were apart again and the lights were on Kate ran a hand through her hair and looked all over on the ground to see what dropped, and so that she wouldn’t have to look directly at Jason since she knew for a fact her cheeks would be flushed. Kate spotted a couple of rolls of film that they had not touched yet on the floor and assumed they rolled off and made that noise so Kate quickly bent down and picked them up before setting them on the counter by Jason. It wasn’t until he apologized that she looked at him and she wasn’t sure exactly how she should feel about it. “No, it is okay… it was nice,” Kate said, trying to act as casual as possible. The skin on her forehead where he kissed her still felt extremely hot and her breathing and heart rate were still up a bit more then normal, but she did her best to ignore it.

“So, now we just have to let the chemicals do it’s…thing,” Kate said, referring to the film that was inside of the black separator and hidden from the light. Kate would normally of used more technical terms, but her mind was all over the place and she couldn’t seem to be able to concentrate on anything.

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jmurph
2008-10-20 03:17 pm UTC (link)

Jason’s heart was still beating way too fast to be healthy, and the palms of his hands itched to touch her. He wanted to keep her close to him, to pull her back and hug her again, even though he knew it would just be a BAD idea. Like, a REALLY bad idea. He had more sense than to shut the lights back off and pull her to him again. Because, if he did that, he wasn’t sure he’d be able to stop himself from completing the sentence he had started, or from kissing him. Both bad things that did not need to happen. And he knew this. Which was why he took a step backwards, pretending to go check the projector machines to make sure they were working. Why the hell wouldn’t they be working? He knew very well that they were, since he had used them the other day. But he needed space. He could still smell her perfume, or her shampoo, and all it was doing was drawing him to her.

Clearing his throat, he glanced over at her as she told him that it was nice. Giving her a small smile, Jason nodded. “Yeah, it was nice. But it was also a bad idea,” he said, turning his attention back to the projector. Why lie about it? It was a bad idea for them to hug, for them to be that close to one another. Granted, working together in a small space like a dark room didn’t give them much room to stay away from each other, but they would have enough room to not be touching. Which was what he needed right now. He needed to not touch her. Returning his gaze to her as she made the comment about the chemicals, Jason smiled. “Yeah, pretty much. We have to make sure to swirl the chemicals around every so often so that they reach all parts of the film,” he reminded her, moving to pull himself up to sit on the counter. “But other than that, we just wait,” he added, shrugging. What the hell were they going to talk about while they waited? The weather? Lame.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-20 04:43 pm UTC (link)

No matter how many deep breaths Kate took it felt like her heart was never going to calm down. Now that she had hugged Jason and felt his arms around her body her skin practically screamed to feel it again. She so desperately wanted to feel his warm body against hers and to be able to hear his breathing and press her cheek to his chest so she could hear and feel his heart beat. She just wanted to be close to him again, but it was obviously a very bad idea. Kate knew herself well enough to know that if she let herself get that close to Jason she probably wouldn’t be able to take herself away from him. It wasn’t fair to either of them, or to Jamie and Nicole. Kate cared about Jamie enough to know that she couldn’t put herself in a situation like that, and she felt extremely guilty for the feelings that she was sorting through now as she stood there in the dark room with the lights on looking at Jason.

Even though what Jason said was very true, that didn’t stop Kate from feeling a little bit hurt when he said it. It was certainly a bad idea, but if it was so bad when why did it feel so damn good when they did it? People always said that you want what you can’t have, so Kate assumed that since she obviously couldn’t have Jason near her then that was all that she would want. Or at least that is what she used as an excuse for what she was feeling. “Yeah, it was,” Kate said quietly with a nod as she wrapped her own arms around her body. Kate bit down on her bottom lip and watched as Jason checked out the projector and then nodded when he reminded her to swirl the chemicals around every once in a while. She watched as he sat on the counter and Kate let herself lean on the counter she was by, making sure that she wasn’t standing too close to Jason. Great. Now what? Kate could tell that this next fifteen minutes would be the longest fifteen minutes she would experience in a long time. “So, my mom got married,” Kate said randomly, knowing that she was going to have to think of something for the two of them to talk about. “Well, re-married I guess,” Jason knew all about Kate’s family situation and how her parents were divorced.

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jmurph
2008-10-21 01:25 pm UTC (link)

Jason’s eyes watched Kate as she stood there, her arms wrapped around herself, and he cleared his throat. He wanted to reach out and touch her again, even though he knew it was wrong. He saw the flash of hurt cross Kate’s face, and he immediately regretted saying that the hug was a bad idea out loud. Whether or not Kate knew it, Jason was still better at reading her than anyone she knew. He had spent an entire year staring at her face, and never tiring of it. He would definitely be able to pick out an emotion as it crossed her face. “I … yeah,” he said, shrugging. She had agreed that it was a bad idea, but that didn’t stop him from feeling bad. “Don’t get me wrong … it really was nice. I did miss you. But we just … we shouldn’t hug, or anything like that,” he said, clearing his throat and crossing his arms over his chest.

Watching as Kate moved to stand by the counter he was sitting on, Jason grabbed one of the canisters with the film inside and started nervously swirling the liquid inside in circles. He needed to do something to keep his hands busy. Having Kate this close to him wasn’t something that Jason thought would be difficult. He thought he would love having her this close to him again. The problem was that he actually did love it. He wanted her back in his life, in more than a friendly way. Pushing those thoughts out of his head, Jason’s eyes concentrated on the canister in his hand. He didn’t want to admit those thoughts to himself, let alone her. And since he was still able to read her so well, he only assumed that she’d be just as good at reading him. He couldn’t help but glance back at her as she spoke again, though, and Jason smiled. “Really? That’s great. I always liked your mom,” he told her, nodding, then laughing. “Well, once I got over the fear that she was going to castrate me, I liked her,” he smiled. “Your dad, though … I still haven’t gotten over that fear,” he added, unable to hold back a laugh as he ran a hand through his hair.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-21 08:55 pm UTC (link)

Kate knew very well that Jason could read her better then anyone and that was because the two of them were inseparable when they were together. Jason got to know Kate better then anyone, better then her friends back in Colorado and even sometimes better then her own parents. Kate used to love that about them, it was such a good thing for their relationship when it came to understanding each other, but now that they were not together and Kate had so much she wanted to hide she wished that he couldn’t read her so well anymore. She tried to cover up the hurt look on her face, but once it surfaced she knew that it was too late. She did look up at him when he said that he missed her, those simple words brought back a bunch of feelings and caused that small ache in her heart to increase. She swallowed hard and looked away again, pretending to be suddenly interested in the shoelaces on her worn out converse runners. “Yeah, I know,” Kate said, confirming that she knew they shouldn’t do anything like that, but it didn’t stop her from wanting to.

As Jason grabbed one of the canisters and started swirling the chemicals inside Kate reached over to grab her own and mimicked what he was doing. She too needed something to do with her hands, she was just afraid that since she was so nervous her hands would start shaking. Luckily they didn’t and she swirled the chemicals around a bit before placing the canister back on the counter beside her. Kate had been looking forward to spending time with Jason again, but she didn’t consider how awkward or tense it might be. Kate hated it and missed just being able to be herself around Jason, to not have to think about the things she was going to say or do to him to make sure that they were appropriate. Kate did smile and laugh a bit when Jason talked about her parents. She remembered how scared Jason was of her mom, and especially of her father Simon. “My mom always liked you,” Kate said. “I think Simon did too, he just didn’t show it so well,” Kate then said with a grin. Though, since Kate and Jason were no longer together Simon’s opinion of Jason was indifferent, but she didn’t want to bring that up mainly because she didn’t want to admit out loud that her and Jason were no longer together, and couldn’t be together.

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