and my thoughts surround me like a prison wall, it's true.
Who: Christian and OPEN.
Where: Butterfly Gardens.
When: Early afternoon.
There had been an anxious knot in his stomach all day that nothing had been able to shift or chase away. The dream had worked a number on him, putting him in a state of tense unease from the first moment he’d awoken and it hadn’t eased up in the hours since. The news Michael had relayed to them all across the hotel’s network hadn’t helped, but Christian couldn’t lie and say that the arrival of three new softies at once was the primary source for his anxiety. He certainly couldn’t convince himself of that fact, not when the real reason was still working its way through his brain, creeping like poison, infecting every other thought.
Like a few choice other members of staff Christian had spent time in the hotel before accepting a position as a member of staff. A long time ago though it had been he remembered it well, at least the times when he had been sober. As he bent to pick up the ball the aptly-named mongrel dropped at his feet he tried not to remember how he’d felt in the times between fixes, when his hands had trembled so badly that he’d barely been able to function, when he’d felt on the verge of a nervous breakdown because the need was so strong. So intense. Just briefly, as he closed his fingers around the ball, his hand shook. Christian thought he might drop the ball but instead he tightened his grip around it, picked it up as he tightened his jaw in a defiant clench, and straightened, drawing in a sharp, sudden breath.
Just a dream, he told himself, turning the ball over in his hand and then rolling it to his other. Just a dream.
Rusty hopped in front of him, making breathless panting sounds, eyes bright and ears perked, his tail sweeping furiously from side to side. Waiting, just waiting, for the ball to fly again. Christian obliged, sending it out across the garden in a powerful throw, feeling the pull of the muscles in his arm and through his shoulder and back, a rewarding flash of sensation that briefly derailed the disturbing thoughts about a past he very much wanted to leave behind.
When the dog came barrelling back towards him Christian recognised immediately that Rusty was too excited, that the animal wasn’t going to be able to pull up before crashing into him, and so he did the only thing he could think to do. He stepped aside. Too late he realised there was someone else there, behind him, and that part of Rusty’s enthusiasm was their very arrival.
“You might want to brace yourself,” he told them, as Rusty whipped past him. He hadn’t had time to grab the dog by the collar. Luckily, the excited mongrel was able to judge the distance properly and managed to apply the brakes in time to stop short of slamming into the new arrival’s legs, though he did greet them by dropping a somewhat damp ball on their toes, proceeding to look up at them expectantly, as if to say Well?