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Scorpius Malfoy ([info]hd_scorpius) wrote in [info]hogwarts_dawn,
@ 2021-06-19 14:25:00

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Entry tags:character: draco malfoy, character: james s. potter, character: scorpius malfoy, character: theodore nott

RP: Making Decisions
Who: Scorpius, open to multiple tails
When: throughout the day, 19th June
Where: infirmary
What: Scorpius has been thinking about what Marlene had said

Marlene had given him a lot to think about. Until their discussion, he had assumed that he'd be covered in scars for the rest of his life. Sure, they could work to make them a little less obvious, but they couldn't cure them. What Marlene was suggesting meant recreating his entire body. Except that it wouldn't be exactly his body, because spells weren't that perfect and it was better to be something else that trying to get it exactly right and botching it.

He'd never heard of it before, but then he supposed that for a few burns, people wouldn't consider changing who they were. He couldn't imagine Charlie Weasley losing his scars, for example. Of course, they could try to get as close to his look as possible and keep their fingers crossed. It was a possibility, but he could also be someone else.

For years, he'd played at being a woman, with dresses and make up. It had made him famous. The boy who could look like a boy or a girl. He'd walked down the catwalks for both styles. If he did what he was thinking of doing, he'd be boringly female, but would he be happier? Would she be happier?

Scorpius knew that he had to talk about it. Normally he'd have talked about it with Albus, but he was petrified at the moment, instead, he brought it up with his visitors.


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Theo and Scorpius
[info]forgetme_nott
2021-06-19 08:26 pm UTC (link)
It was time for a break. In fact it was time for a break hours ago but they kept trudging on, until they were so bleary eyed that Theo insisted they take time to rest. At a certain point, with fever delirium things started to just get silly rather than productive.

He had meant to come sooner but things were just too hectic. At least now they were close to coming to a solution and he'd be able to crash and hopefully be cured. It was dreadful really, this slow needling feeling of crawling death. The sooner he could rid himself of it and move on the better.

With a little time to spare he decided now was the time to stop by to see Scorpius. Walking over to his bedside he lazily dragged a chair and plunked it down by his bedside. He turned it around, so his arms and head could rest on the backrest. He sighed softly.

"So, what's new?" He said with a wry yet tired smile. "Is there anything you need?"

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-19 09:08 pm UTC (link)
"You look worse than I feel," Scorpius said in greeting. "Have you slept at all?" He could understand why they didn't want to. Peter had joked that they'd sleep when they were dead. He didn't know how they could joke so casually about that. Scorpius had never dealt with death unless it was old people and then Cassandra. This was a completely different situation.

"I was trying to book my vacation, but I'm not sure where I should go," he teased when he answered. "But no, I'm good. I'm... trying to make a decision about life altering experiences, because... why not, right? It's what you do when you almost died."

He closed his eyes. "Marlene says that she can take care of the scars, except that there's no guarantee that I would like I did. It's magic, you know? But on the other hand, I can look like anyone I want to. I'm trying to decide who I want to look like."

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]forgetme_nott
2021-06-20 01:12 am UTC (link)
"I am in a state of being death warmed over at present so I can't even hold that against you," he said in good humor. "We take turns, but sleep doesn't come easily right now. Too much to do and get done, and time is something we cannot afford to lose much of," he said feeling so very weary and worn out.

A vacation sounded like a wonderful idea right now. He could imagine it, a week not in the castle. It would be glorious, and well earned. "I'd go to Tinworth," he said. "Go home for a little rest." At the mention of life altering decisions, he quirked a brow questioningly. "Ah, yes. The deep musings of someone close to death. I suppose it is if ever there was a time for it."

Marlene seemed more than competent and he'd be a little worried by this idea that was floating, but given all he had seen any worries he had about it quickly faded away so soon as they came to mind. "Are we going to be twins?" He asked with a chuckle. Although he suspected he knew where this conversation was going. "So what will it be, a man or a woman. A bloke or a bird? A lad or a maiden?" He asked with genuine interest.

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 01:32 am UTC (link)
"That's the new trend, don't you know? Who needs health when you can rock the almost dead look? It even comes with bandages or petrification, for all your fashion desires," he joked. "I'm sure you can afford some sleep," he added in a serious tone. "If you don't, you know the poison will get to you faster and then Marlene will have to petrify you."

He frowned, or tried to, at the answer. People always picked exotic places. "What's in Tinworth that's so special? And I'd go to Les Seychelles." Scorpius answered with the hint of a shrug. "I know I'm the lucky one, all things considered, but considering that I could be dead-"

"No, not your twin. I want to stay as close to me as possible, but I'm not sure. Man or woman, I mean," he said, softly. "I never thought of the possibility before and obviously that kind of change requires a whole different set of potions and spells that don't cover skin or looks, but... I don't know."

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]forgetme_nott
2021-06-20 02:35 am UTC (link)
Theo laughed softly it was a fun thought. "That would make a rather fun edition of the Scarlet Letter. Oh I do miss those," he said with a grin. "I'd rather avoid being petrified, that being said the efforts we are making now are having results. I'm in it for however long Peter is, and I don't see him giving in just yet either."

"My home for one. I admit I have a habit of hoarding things, and my home is filled with hiding places. We are a secretive lot, the Nott's," he said with a chuckle. "I am curious as to what if anything I might have left there. The land is rather nice as well. And your choice is much more exciting than my own." Shifting in his seat a he leaned back to stretch a little to shake of a few aches, nowhere at present was particularly comfortable and he settled back as he was before. "I don't think your lucky at all. I think you had a awful go of it really."

He was quiet and listened, wanting to be somewhat thoughtful with his answer. It seemed like one of those things where he should, and it was relatable to him in some small way. All he had ever wanted really was to be himself, and that didn't require a drastic physical change like in Scorpius's case. But it did require choices to be made to get there. "When you look in the mirror, be the person you first want to see looking back at you. If that is who you really are. Be who you are, so long as you are sure it is who you want to be and truly are. But you will need to say it first. Choices are hard that way, but worth making if they mean enough."

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 02:53 am UTC (link)
"When this is done, we need to write to her, give her just enough to get her going. Sure Mr. Potter's head might explode, but it'll be fun." He could imagine that petrification was terrible. "You're still conscious. I think that's the worst part. It'd be so much better if you lost all consciousness."

He should have known that, but he wasn't thinking clearly. "I think you should go back home. If it's still there and spend at least a day there. I feel like some of the old families would have trusted their own house elves more than the Ministry's vault." They wouldn't want to share with the commoners was left unsaid. "I'm sure there'll be something exciting At least exciting for you." He didn't think that any of them had been lucky. "At least I'm not dying, and I can't believe I just said that. It sounds like something that one of the older generations would have said."

He bit the inside of his cheek. It seems so simple when Theo put it that way. "I've always seen a woman. Or a girl when I was little. It wasn't even a secret. I told Mother. She laughed, put some make-up on me and then never mentioned it again. There are just so many reasons why I shouldn't An heir, my career, Grandfather."

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]forgetme_nott
2021-06-20 03:54 am UTC (link)
Theo's eyes widened with excitement and he grinned brightly. The idea did sound like a good bit of fun and he could keep that going for quite some time. "Needless to say I am on board for that. That sounds like a good cure for a boring day. " Petrification was a gruesome thought, and he shuddered slightly. "It's being trapped."

In an ideal situation he hoped he would return to find nothing. His home he had no doubt was still standing. He would have seen to that. But if there was anything to be found he'd hope to find a letter or some sort of writing. About his future self he had a lot of questions and a few concerns, and it seemed now was as good a time to consider how to best contend with that.

"We never had house elves. Father didn't have much trust in them, and I don't either to be honest. No ill will though, I'm just a little paranoid by nature. I just maybe might have some things to purge is all. I sometimes tend to push my luck a little when it comes to work I do on the side." He nodded in agreement. "You do sound like it, but we do know a thing or two."

"Then that's who you are, be who you are," he said without hesitation. "You can accept that and find some measure of fulfillment in life or live a life of compromise. And such a compromise will wear you down after time, and then it's nothing but regret."

There was a lot to consider. And that Scorpius was thinking about them all meant to Theo that he was very resolute in his desire to change. "If you marry insist they take your name. If you wish to pursue children by other means, let them have your family name. That can be fixed. So I wouldn't worry on that much. You can change your career to be women's fashions. It's less flexibility but who cares. If you like it, do it. As for your grandfather, I imagine that will be harder," he said with a shrug. "I could buffer some of that if you'd like. He does think well of me. But that will be harder. But Mr Malfoy has always put protecting his family above all else and he will adapt in time. He's adaptable, in enough measure to help in any case."

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 04:04 am UTC (link)
"We need to do it secretly. She needs to think that we're some kind of spies for her, because that's how we'll get her to write all sort of outlandish stuff. I know what they think, about bad publicity and the Confederation, but I think if we get public opinion on our side, then we're in a better position." He certainly didn't like the sound of that. "We need to talk about gossip more and petrification less. It sounds terrible."

He raised an eyebrow. "You? Paranoid? I'm shocked. I never would have guessed," he teased. "I doubt that anyone here cares at this point. What are they going to do? Send the Aurors after you for something that your future self did? This must be boring. No rules to break." Theo seemed to be the type who needed the rules to find ways around them. "And we do, but is this how it starts? You do this long enough and start thinking like them?"

Scorpius smiled. "You make it sound so very easy. Maybe it is. Maybe I'm just scared." Although he was sure that his fears about his grandfather were justified. "You find it normal, don't you? Not everyone will be so accepting, not even here with so few people. Men especially." He really wished he could talk to Al about it and see what he thought, but it was a good sign to see that Theo was taking it so well.

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]forgetme_nott
2021-06-20 01:55 pm UTC (link)
"I am very good at keeping secrets," he said with a contented sigh. "And talking my way around things so I feel it is doable. People will likely assume it's me that is the leak, if they assume there is one. I have been somewhat vocal in my appreciation for sensational media," he said with a chuckle. "But suspicion isn't the same as proof. Any press is good press when you've been swept under the rug, so I am inclined to agree. And yes, it is terrible so let's not dwell too long there," he said with a small nod. "In fact, let's shelf it now."

Theo didn't think the law would magic itself out of thin air and come down on him any time soon for his future, which was now in the past. Which was a funny thought. He did think it wise to make sure all his affairs were tucked away, removed or put into good working order. "I do want to help here. I am who I am and do things as I do them and pursue the things I want in the way I do. That being said, knowing someone has done less than savory things and suspecting are not one and the same. I don't generally garner a great deal of faith in people, so anything that might hamper the things I feel I need to do, to improve our lot, that needs resolving." Theodore just smiled softly. "There are always rules to break."

He couldn't help but laugh a little. "You say them like it doesn't include me as well. Although, and I say this not to be unkind, a little of our way of thinking might have served you well," he said calmly and evenly. "What happened was undeserved but in the circumstances we are in, it would do many well and not just yourself, to stop and think, what would the paranoid generation do?"

Theo could imagine it was scary. Definitely intimidating and daunting and his concerns about his grandfather were surely justified. His offer to help though was genuine, and would be given asked for or not. "Yes. I do," he said without hesitation. "It should be noted that I am hardly the measure by which normalcy is dictated. I know I am a different sort." He said in good humor, with a small laugh. "Not every one will. Those who matter will accept and adapt in time and the rest, well. Fuck them, really. Your father will accept it, I know that's true. Draco has always been unconditional with those he has affection for. I'd say your generation will be as well. People can surprise you at times, so I wouldn't count them all out. It just might take it's time."

"So what are you going to change?" He asked with a hint of excitement in his voice. "What do you really look like?"

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 05:28 pm UTC (link)
"That's not necessarily a good thing, you understand that right? Not in a society that is made up of twenty-five people," he said, gently. "I don't have to talk myself into anything and you shouldn't either. If you don't want to, then you shouldn't." He snorted. "Suspicion is as good as proof around here, but I can agree about the international stage. We need something to press them, although I can't really blame them, considering what's happening in this castle at this very moment."

Scorpius smiled. "It really kills you to do things how they are meant to be done, doesn't it? You enjoy driving people crazy with the vagueness." He rested his head back, snorting. "Do you really think that with someone like Mr. Potter knowing and proving are any different? I'm not telling you what to do, but consider how harder life can be if you have him on your case. He comes with a lot of people. On the other hand, I don't think he'd punish you for something that you would have done in your future. He's rather fair that way."

That was true, Scorpius never associated Theo - this Theo - to his father's generation. "You don't sound like them. They are all about rules and survival. You are about causing mischief. If you were a Norse god, you'd be Loki, while Mr. Potter would be Thor." The warning wasn't unwarranted. "I know, I've told myself how stupid I am plenty of time. I will not pet strange creatures in the future."

Scorpius laughed. "I'm not normal either. I've been wearing women's clothes since I was a child. I just- I keep going back and forth in my head, and Dad is pretty awesome." He hoped that Draco would say no, though. It would make the choice easier.

"Not too different from what I was. I know that it's never going to be exactly the same, but close enough. The problem is that close to before can go either way." This was much easier when it was just a dream.

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]forgetme_nott
2021-06-21 12:38 pm UTC (link)
"It might not be a good thing but I guarantee it will be a fun thing," he said all too happy to proceed. "I'm in and really if everyone is looking at me, who is watching anyone else?" He said feeling rather pleased by the idea. It was likely to yield some results and that added to his interest, but mostly it felt exhilarating. "We manage to pull a few heartstrings and people get up in arms, then they have to at the least extend some aid. I truly doubt they will come here or invite any of us round, not for quite some time. Still, it will push things. We could use a little momentum."

Unable not to smile he couldn't help the wide grin that lit up his weary face. "I don't really try that it sort of just happens that way. It's my nature. I do from time to time do so for sport that much is true." He almost rolled his eyes at the mention of the Minister, but just shrugged instead. "You know, I think I could speak on the other side of the castle and Potter would somehow sense it and still be annoyed. So I generally don't factor him into much of what I do. I do hear what your saying, but it's not an immediate concern of mine. It's just cleaning house."

"Oh I am different to be sure, but the same in some ways. I've just learned to make a game of it. It's far less depressing a fate that way," he said happily. He couldn't help but feel terribly complimented by the comparison. "Thank you, that's actually very flattering. For me at least. I rather like it," he said thoughtfully. "Malfoys and their preening birds," he said with a chortle. "Shit happens. Let's just proceed with that idea that everything wants to kill you, and be pleasantly surprised when most times it turns out false."

Normal was boring and predictable and all the most interesting and significant people were usually anything but. He knew how that felt though, being outside the norm. "Your father is one of my favorite people, with good reason. He'll accept anything you chose." He said listening to not only what Scorpius said but what he didn't. "Just be sure. Man, woman, or linger in the grey areas. If it's what you want, just reach out and take it. Just be sure it's all your bargained for."

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-21 03:41 pm UTC (link)
"And we need fun right now. Oh who am I kidding? The world always needs fun, especially with all the doom-and-gloom types around here. I get the reason, but I'll teach them to enjoy life." The smoke-and-mirror approach might just work and Savannah had proven that if you pushed enough, someone would answer. Maybe that should be their goal. "We'll need Savannah's help. She hates writing, but she's good at saying what people need to hear. People want to please her because they don't want to disappoint them."

Scorpius laughed. "Exactly, that's Loki's nature, too just like Mr. Potter's nature is to fight against injustice and protect the weak like Thor. I would try to make it work though. On the other hand, now he has a new enemy, so you should be all right for a while."

He could hardly see the similarities, but he also knew that Slytherins hid what they didn't want others to see very well, s o he didn't dismiss it. "I'm glad you enjoy the comparison." Regardless of how brutal the attack was, he had to laugh. "I'll stick to white peacocks, thank you very much, but I'll see what I can do about changing my approach to life." He'd never worried about things killing him.

"I'm not sure, that's the problem. I don't want to linger in between, because I've been doing it already. I want to be both and I don't know how to do it. I'm no metamorphmagus. If I were, then it wouldn't be a problem, but is there anything that can let me do the same?"

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]forgetme_nott
2021-06-24 01:19 am UTC (link)
"The world always needs more fun," he said with a chuckle. It really would be a fun way to pass the time, he wagered. He didn't mind running people around on some sort of misleading chase. In fact he felt it's appeal far outweighed whatever good it would likely do. "Is it wise to include Savannah?" He questioned, knowing her approach would likely yield optimum results. Still he had to ask, since he was whimsically volunteering to be schemes scapegoat. "You sure she won't sell us out?" He liked to think not, but still it had to be asked.

"I do sometimes try, but it tends to fall apart," he said with a small smile. "It's just so easy," he said and a little gratifying and a sure cure for boredom. "I could try harder, sure," he said doubtfully. "Although that is very convenient."

He nodded. "See that you do try," he advised.

That would be a neat trick, he thought silently. he had read some sort of paper that floated around the DoM back in his time, he hadn't thought of it in such a long time that he had almost forgotten. "I have no idea exactly. But I did once read something about a muggle tribe in Zimbabwe called the Shona. They worshiped a god who was both male and female. They could be either at will. There was some evidence I believe that there was magic at play. A false messiah, with an unusual spell. Don't know if that would help, but it may be a good place to start."

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Re: Theo and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-24 01:26 am UTC (link)
"She won't. She's more likely to take the blame and then convince everyone that it was a great idea and people will end up thanking her for it, while they would have hexed anyone else," he said, with a laugh. "She's got a way with people. They seldom want to disappoint her, and it works because most of it is genuine. She's not trying to use it; it just comes naturally."

He snorted. "Right, but at least you try, that's the important thing." His grandparents would disagree. They believed that trying was not enough, but that was also why his grandfather never recovered from his failure with the dark lord.

"It makes sense that it started with some wizard. They have such powerful school there. All the students are animagi by forth year, they don't use wands. They are so much more advanced than us. Maybe that's where we should look. Not the Muggle world, but the African school." He might have to get someone to get in touch with the African wizarding community.

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Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-19 10:35 pm UTC (link)
Jamie had been to check on Al and the others in the Infirmary the day before after speaking with his dad. But, when he'd looked, Scorpius was in conference with Marlene and Jamie hadn't wanted to intrude. The next time he checked, Scorpius had been asleep. Since Jamie had decided to spend his birthday evening outside the infirmary, he hadn't gotten back.

So, after he'd done his usual check-in on LiLu and Al that morning, he made a point of going to check on Scorpius. This time, he found his brother's best friend alone, seemingly awake, and he pulled a chair nearer to the bed. Transfiguring the uncomfortable visitor's chair into something with a little more padding and contour, -- after a week of sitting in the things at various bedsides, Jamie's back and arse would be happy never to do so again -- he gave the younger man a smile as he sat down.

"So, spill. Dad actually remembered my birthday yesterday and said there had been a surprise dinner planned. Which one of you forgot to tell him or the grandparents I hate surprises?" he teased before reaching out to let his hand hover over Scorpius' arm a moment in greeting. "How are you feeling?"

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-19 11:37 pm UTC (link)
"Oh hello, I'm fine, thank you and how are you?" he answered with a grin. "Just because I'm stuck in a make-shift hospital, it doesn't mean that we do away with social norms. Grandmother would be horrified to know that I'm associating with people who don't remember this fact." It wasn't often that he pulled out the Malfoy tone, but if he didn't do it now when he could get away with everything, he didn't know when.

"I'm glad he did," he added in a much more genuine tone. "And it wasn't really a surprise. Just dinner with your family, Dad and me, but-" He didn't want to share the reason, but it was better than lying, he supposed. "You've been disappointed in the past, with your father having to be late or not showing up, so we figured that we'd wait to share until we were sure, but then we got distracted by homicidal birds."

He almost shrugged, but knew better than to try that. He'd done it one too many times and the pain hadn't gotten any better. "I'm... the same physically. Dad is giving me a potion to rebuild the burnt flesh before we move onto the skin, but- Marlene said that there's a way to recreate skin without scars. It's unlikely that I'd look like me though. Spells aren't that precise."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-20 12:51 am UTC (link)
Jamie laughed at the admonishment. "But, if I was perfectly proper and followed all the niceties without any press about, even your grandmother knows you'd have to check me for hexes or Imperius." He might not be as bad as his dad when it came to social pleasantries, but Jamie didn't do formal the way the Malfoys did. He wasn't sure anyone, with the possible exception of Regulus Black, did the formal social niceties that way any more.

Surprised and oddly touched at the reason, Jamie smiled, one of the sort of smiles the press never got to see. "Thank you. I...appreciate the thought." He had tried to pretend for years that it didn't matter. He was over the disappointment. But, the way he knew he'd lit up at seeing his dad come out onto the tower battlements, cake in hand, told him he wasn't as over it as he'd thought. It would have been crushing if it had happened here. "It was good, though. We talked, really talked, and shared the cake. Then we had dinner just the two of us last night." Honestly, it was probably the best birthday for their relationship since Jamie could count his age in single digits.

"That's a step forward, though, being able to start healing some of the damage, right? How's your dad holding up?" he asked, thinking Draco Malfoy had to be feeling rough with his son so badly injured and his father teetering on the brink of death. Then he frowned, confused. "What do you mean you wouldn't look like you? Like 'you but different'? Or If I saw you on the street and didn't know, I wouldn't recognize you?"

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Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 01:02 am UTC (link)
"Of course, those Potters. No manners to speak of. The press can never realize how bad they are. Truly bad. Even Albus, who's not terrible, can't seem to understand proper etiquette," he said, sounding a lot more like his grandfather used to.

He nodded. "It wasn't just me. It was everyone." He knew that such a simple thing could be the best. He had always enjoyed the quiet moments with his parents a lot more than the public parties and imagined that it was even more important to the Potters considering their history. "You sound happy. That's good. Maybe this whole crazy world is good for something."

Scorpius knew that it was a lot more than a step forward. "He's busy, working. I think that's making him stay sane. If he's working, he can't think of the rest. Besides, he's really good at compartmentalizing. It's why he was always good at occlumency." He was starting to get good at this. "Well, they can't be sure it'll be exactly like me and she can go as close as possible or as different as I want, because it's all magic. Well, as different as bone structure would allow obviously. I could even become... a woman if I wanted to."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-20 01:21 am UTC (link)
"Nope. Can't take us Potters anywhere. You'll appreciate the irony. I was just talking to Dad yesterday about an etiquette book we used to have in the library." Jamie could only assume it was something inherited as part of the Black Family holdings, especially after his dad's reaction to the book the day before. He might ask Regulus or Sirius about it sometime.

"It's just you I'm talking to right now, though." Blinking, he took a moment to poke around at the word in his head. Happy. Would he know happy if he felt it? Jamie knew he put on a good act at home. But, he wondered if he'd ever truly felt happy. He must have, right? It wasn't like he was a depressed moper all the time! "Maybe. I guess we'll see. It does seem like it's getting better for now, though."

He nodded slowly. "That makes sense." And Jamie could sympathise. Not being able to do anything was the biggest reason he'd been ready to crack for days. If he had something else to focus on, he wouldn't have to focus on his fear, either. The rest wasn't as straightforward. Jamie thought it was, following along easily enough. Until he caught the hesitation near the end of Scorpius' explanation. "Is that something you're considering?" he asked carefully. "Becoming a woman?"

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 01:49 am UTC (link)
Scorpius laughed lightly, careful not to move "I can just see all of you sitting around and discussing etiquette rules from some book you have. I don't know who'd feel more insulted by the idea: your father or your mother. Maybe your grandparents, as if you aren't good enough, need to be like those snob Slytherins." The Weasleys had never pretended to like him and he felt no problem reciprocating.

"Then you're very welcome." He raised an eyebrow. "Are you not aware that you sound happy? Or are you so used to expecting the worst that you haven't processed it yet? You sound like I do when Dad does something sweet and caring. It's a good look on you. Makes you look almost human."

Scorpius had been considering it for a long time and now it seemed so possible. "There have been a few people who have done it, couple of international models. There were no burns then and I thought 'maybe', but then I was the Malfoy heir, only son. Now- I don't know, there's no one to care, but there are also so few of us. It would truly mean the end of the Malfoy line. I'm... undecided."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-20 03:20 am UTC (link)
Jamie waved his hand in mock dismissal. "Who said anything about reading the rules? We were talking about the charms on it. Dad thought it must have been a gift from Ted's grandmother. I swear he's forgotten he inherited the entire library from Sirius." Snorting at the mention of his grandparents, he rolled his eyes. "We should leave off talking about my grandparents' thoughts on Slytherins if you want me to keep that good mood." He still had never forgiven his grandmother for her attitude toward Al and Grandpa Arthur was just as bad when it came to anyone named Malfoy.

"You know, between you and Savannah I'm going to get a complex worrying that I've been some unbearable berk all this time. Have I really been that bad?" He had always thought he played the part better than that, only the people close to him -- of which their were few and far between -- seeing the cracks. But, the only two outside his family that he'd let in at all both seemed to agree on this.

"Would it, though?" Jamie wasn't sure how he felt about the idea of a man becoming a woman. It wasn't something he'd ever wondered about in his life. But, he'd never felt compelled to wear make-up and dresses, either, and it didn't make a bit of difference in his affection for Scorpius. "There were those experiments the Germans were conducting to help gay men have children. And there are ways to preserve sperm and such, even in the muggle world. It might not be as simple as a man and a woman and the missionary position. But, if you wanted a Malfoy heir, it could still be possible. ...I think."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 03:34 am UTC (link)
"Right, I should have known, but that's- Oh wait, you're serious! I thought you were trying to make fun of me. I should have known better. He really can't see the point of a book unless you need information to slay the metaphorical dragon." He nodded. "Sure, although you weren't really a fan of Slytherins. Just of your brother who happened to be a Slytherin." It was still nothing compared to the divisions he had seen in his father's memories.

"You haven't. You've been perfectly behaved. Grandmother would have been proud to see how well you can act, smiling like nothing touches you, and you can fool a lot of people, but then most people don't care to look past the obvious, to see that the smiles never quite reach your eyes, at least not when you are talking about your parents."

He chuckled. "Jamie, you are making it very complicated when becoming a woman would make that part really easy. Or well, not easy, but easier, I guess. Still I don't want a child, I want a family. I want to show my children what my parents showed me." He paused for a moment, hesitating before speaking up again. "What do you think? About the change?"

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-20 04:02 am UTC (link)
"Nope. I actually was telling him about this old etiquette book in the library, wouldn't open or close unless you said 'please' or 'thank you' yesterday." Jamie shrugged, not about to argue when it was true. But, then, Jamie hadn't really been a fan of Hufflepuffs, Ravenclaws, or Gryffindors, either. He'd stopped trusting people in general early in his first year. "There might have been one or two more than grew on me, despite trash talk on the pitch," he added, looking pointedly at one who had.

"And this makes me seem not human?" Honestly, he had always thought the charade was just part of the game, that behind it he was fairly normal. Except for the part where his parents were Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley and both seemed to frequently forget they had three children. But, he could also admit, to himself, that his confidence had taken a bit of a hit since coming here. Too few people, not enough facades to hide the raw parts behind while he and his dad worked out their not-quite-history.

"Well, it's not a question I've thought about and you're the one saying your line would end. I'm the one still trying to wrap my head around being attracted to men and whether or not I've ever really been attracted to women." And Jamie had never felt an urge to have kids. He was too much like his dad. He'd probably fuck them up worse than he had been, he'd always thought. But, this wasn't about Jamie. "I think it would take some getting used to. It's a big change, even if it's one you want, and I would assume fairly permanent unless you go through this whole process in reverse...at least I'm assuming there's a whole process? And that it's safe? But, if it's what will make you happiest in the long run, if it's what you truly want, then who am I to tell you not to do it?"

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 04:25 am UTC (link)
"That's cute. The book, not the fact that your father has no idea about the book, since presumably it was there before you were born." He chuckled. "I know you're not talking about me, because I wouldn't be caught dead on the pitch. All that practice outdoor is terrible for your skin."

For a moment he was confused, but then remembered what he had just said. "I was teasing about the almost human. I know you're human. If you weren't, then you wouldn't be upset or disappointed and you wouldn't have to pretend," he explained. "I'm sorry if it's a bad joke. I don't mean to ruin your good mood."

This gave him something else to concentrate on, something other than his existential crisis. "How do you not know if you are attracted to women? I get not knowing about being attracted to men, but don't you know if you find women attractive?" He nodded. "Yes it's fairly permanent. It's safe but painful, but then I have to go through it anyway unless I want to remain scarred and that's not an option, but I can't imagine going back and forth. I just- I don't know."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-20 07:50 pm UTC (link)
"Probably," Jamie agreed with a laugh. He thought that maybe he ought to ask Regulus or Sirius about it sometime. Maybe some of the other books in the collection, too. "Of course not, couldn't be you at all," he teased.

"No." He shook his head, mentally berating himself for the insecurity while also realizing it was a side-effect of the emotional conversation with his dad the day before and the days of uncertainty they were all living through the past week. "Just a moment of confusion because I've had similar conversations in the past. You didn't ruin anything. Promise."

Raising an eyebrow, he tilted his head a bit. "Because now I'm questioning everything. Society might be a bit more accepting of things now, but heterosexual is still the default. It's assumed, expected, until it doesn't apply. Everyone in my family is paired off: man, woman, kids. Except Uncle Charlie, who's never said anything one way or the other, even if we all have our suspicions as to why he stays in Romania." Jamie shrugged. "Until a year or so ago, I never questioned that I was as straight as the rest of them. Then...there was a lot of questioning, some experiencing, a revelation or two... I've always done what was expected, maintained the family reputation. Maybe that was more of the same?"

Nodding, he breathed a little easier knowing the process would be relatively safe. (Nothing that extensive could be completely without risk, he thought.) "Since it's safe, then I think what matters the most is what you want. And if you're not sure...well, is there a window of time you can think about it? Or do you have to decide quickly in order to do what's necessary to heal the burn scars?"

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 08:48 pm UTC (link)
"Glad that we understand each other," he said, smiling. Scorpius kept his eyes on Jamie, since it was the only way to keep contact at the moment. "You do- did spend a lot of time looking perfect for the outside world, to give the impression that you were superhuman, just like your dad. People who know you might tease you about it, but none of us believe that mask. We all know how terribly imperfect you are," he teased.

Scorpius rolled his eyes. "There's expectations and there's attraction. When I see a naked woman, I'm not thinking that I want to bang her, but that I want to look like her. You either feel that attraction or don't. I'm not saying that you're attracted to every woman on the planet, but that you are attracted by the female form. You can solve that one by figuring out if you come thinking of a woman. Not that it means you can't enjoy the male form either."

He wanted to bang his head against the wall. "I know, but I can't decide. I see myself as a woman, but I also see myself as a man, but I'm pretty sure that I'll have to pick one and I don't know if I want that. I want to be both. Why isn't there a way to be both?" he asked with a sigh. "I took the first potion to rebuild healthy flesh. It'll be a few days before I have to decide. I just don't know."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-20 11:20 pm UTC (link)
"Do, did, will again?" Jamie added with a wry smirk. It wasn't needed right now. But, that was why he'd pushed to have his dad put him in position to manage communications. If that facade was needed again to protect his family and the people here, Jamie would do it without question. "Not that the people who know me would have any idea about public faces and private faces?" was his own teasing return.

"I'm well aware of the difference. But, there are also plenty of stories about people who subconsciously repress their attraction to men, who convince themselves they're attracted to women and are perfectly capable of performing in the bedroom regardless. It's not like I've ever spent an inordinate amount of time wondering if I was really attracted to whatever woman was the one night stand of the moment." He'd had one actual relationship in his life and he'd never once thought of it as anything more than 'comfortable'. How would he know the difference? "I don't think it's unreasonable, when faced with that kind of realization about oneself, to wonder about what came before."

Sighing, Jamie pulled his chair closer so he could lean on the edge of the bed, far enough within Scorpius' 'personal space' it could serve for the friendly arm Jamie couldn't put around his shoulders. "Hate to break it to you, but I can't decide for you. Sorry." And it had to be maddening to have to make that kind of decision in such a short time. "Have you asked if you'd have to pick? Maybe there's something more...in between? Something that would let you feel like both? I don't know if that even makes sense," he added with a confused frown.

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-21 12:00 am UTC (link)
"Not really do, considering how small our little group is and the fact that you're related to half of them." And even the people that weren't blood related had some sort of connection like Scorpius and Draco. "Oh yes, never could understand the difference. It's not like Malfoys ever make that distinction."

Scorpius shrugged. "Maybe it's the fact that I worked in fashion and everyone was gay, or bi, or experimenting. I'm not even sure I know anyone straight. I thought you were and you went and ruined my claim to fame. Maybe Lilu. I should ask."

He groaned at the answer. "I know. I almost wish that someone could make the decision for me." He smiled. "Oh love, you can be so sweet and innocent. Sure, I can pick a face that's androgynous enough, like mine, but there's no in between a pussy and a vagina. I should have had Teddy's power. His talent was wasted on him. You're good with weird spells. Are there any spells that could let me switch at will? That'd be the best."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-21 03:16 am UTC (link)
"Nah, only related to about..." Counting in his head, Jamie ended with a shrug. "Okay, yeah, about half of them." He laughed and shook his head. He really was related to half the people there, some more distantly than others. "Yeah, that's what I thought, those Malfoys. No sense of discretion." He couldn't help snorting at that. Even in jest he couldn't say it with a straight face.

He chuckled softly. "You thought I was straight, but offered sex anyway?" He didn't know about the people in the fashion industry. Jamie had done a few sponsorships, some photoshoots for select publications. But, he hadn't been in that world, didn't know it the way Scorpius did. "I'm still in the big brother camp that says no one should be touching my little sister until she's at least fifty. So, I'll let you do the asking there," he added with another laugh.

"Me? Sweet?" He bat his lashes like an idiot, just for the laugh. "But, I think you mean ignorant in this case, since it's really not something I know much about." Thinking about it, he shook his head. "Sorry. There's a few glamour spells, but they make others see you differently. They don't actually make you what they see. Honestly, you probably don't want me to know of one, considering I work mainly with curses and malevolent spells." Anything he might come across would probably exact far too high a price for a temporary illusion.

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-21 03:29 am UTC (link)
"When will you learn that I'm always right? Just accept and your life will be so much easier. It's taken me years to train Albus, but he finally gets it. I'll just have to do the same with you," he teased, before snorting. "Oh, I know. They wear their hearts on their sleeves."

Scorpius shrugged. "I was horny and running out of options. Besides I didn't really think that you would be interested. It was a surprise." He rolled his eyes. "Sure, she's the Virgin Mary, although in this place, you don't have to worry. We're all turning into monks and nuns, with very few exceptions."

He knew that no one probably had the answer, because who was crazy enough to want this. "Okay, so you're good at research, see if you can find something. Ideally, something that could mimic what a metamorphmagus does, but I doubt there is anything quite like that. There are species that are hermaphrodite, maybe something like it? I have no idea and I'm stuck here. Granted, Hogwarts is probably not the place to find that information."

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Re: Jamie and Scorpius
[info]curseseeker
2021-06-21 04:03 am UTC (link)
"It might take longer with me. I'm a bit more stubborn and sure that I'm right," Jamie teased back, although this was only half a joke. He might be willing to listen to other opinions, but he was generally slow to change his own. "Very emotional." He nodded sagely, fighting another smirk.

It was Jamie's turn to shrug as he was well aware he'd kept his sexual discovery well under wraps while he sorted things out for himself in private. "Hush now. I can't hear such talk. Little sisters must remain pure as the driven snow." As if Lilu would ever let him get away with that! "At least monks and nuns have a calling to blame their celibacy on." Of course, Jamie was related to half the people there, so that was another wrench in things even if one discounted his innate ability to trust the longevity of discretion in such a small society.

"I can see what I can come up with, at the very least maybe there's something we can modify a bit to do what you need." Hogwarts library might not be a great source of information, but they'd collected everything they found in the village, were looking into the manors, if nothing else, there might be something old and forgotten in the library from home. "The latter might take more than a few days, though."

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Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-20 12:39 am UTC (link)
Draco knew Scorpius had a lot on his mind lately. The scars, the potential reconstruction, the potential for things to go wrong. He figured his son would need a distraction, so he arrived at the infirmary armed with nail polish, some comics that may or may not be entertaining, and chocolate. The potions he'd been working on were in a simmering state, and wouldn't need his attention for at least the next hour.

He knocked lightly on the door, then came and sat beside Scorpius' bed.

"Hey. How are you feeling?"

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 01:07 am UTC (link)
Scorpius had just woken up from another nape when he saw his Dad sitting next to him. "Hey yourself. I'm good... okay, I'm not in excruciating pain, which is a step forward. That flesh growing potion sucks. I told Marlene that as soon as this crisis is over, you lot need to work on potions that taste good and don't make you feel pain," he joked, knowing that they would never happen.

"Why are you here? Shouldn't you be napping? You're working too hard." He knew that his father was keeping busy, because making potions for him was better than sitting around, waiting to see if Lucius would die. "I really want to thank you for all the work you're doing. I didn't even think that I'd come out of this with no scars, but whatever you and Marlene found is more than I could have expected." He didn't even know exactly what potions or spells were involved, but only that the two were needed.

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-20 01:13 am UTC (link)
"I'll get right on that," Draco said with a chuckle. He might, actually, once the crisis was over. He'd always liked experimenting with potions. Not that he'd have a ton of time. But if Scorpius never had to drink a disgusting potion again it would be worth it.

Draco shrugged self-consciously. Downtime hadn't exactly been on his radar lately. Not after father had... Nope. Draco wasn't delving into that cesspool of guilt and confusing feelings. Not right now.

"Marlene is a gifted Healer," he said instead. And it was true. "I'm glad it's working. But as for why I'm here, well, mostly I wanted to see you, but I figured you could also use a distraction." He held up the little bag of nail polish. "If you want."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 01:41 am UTC (link)
"Good, do that. I'm sure you can get an Order of Merlin for that one." Not that he thought it was possible. Potions always had weird ingredients, and none of them tasted any good. "Of course you'll have to get Mr. Potter to give you the time. He must be lost without me making his schedule now that everything has changed."

He chuckled. "I'd love to, but Marlene said doesn't want me taking the bandages off until we make sure that your potion has healed enough flesh."

He looked at his father, deciding if he should say anything. It was one thing to talk to Theo and Jamie and another one to deal with his father. "There was something I wanted to bring up with you. Marlene raised the possibility that I can pick what I want to be since she can't guarantee that I'll look exactly like I did before and she mentioned how once a woman turned into a man. It's not something that's really done, not when you can just change your body with potions, but- I thought what you'd think of the idea."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-20 01:50 am UTC (link)
Draco felt a twinge of guilt, he hadn't seen much of Harry since the attack. He'd been so busy with the potions, and Scorpius, and his father. Dinners had become rushed things, and he hadn't checked up on him the way he should. He made a note to fix that, when he could. He'd need to go right back to the potions after this, but maybe later tonight.

"I could do your bandages," he said, though he felt a little ridiculous. Of course Scorpius couldn't paint his nails. Draco was intimately familiar with every bit of his sons burned skin, why hadn't he thought of that? He hadn't been thinking, clearly.

Draco could tell the moment Scorpius for serious, and put the bag of polish down. He seemed nervous, and when he finished talking Draco could see why. Did Scorpius want to be a woman? Permanently? Was that what he was saying? He forced himself to squash his initial reaction, just because being a woman sounded like a fare worse than Death to Draco didn't mean it did to Scorpius. He already lived in between, was it so strange to want to change completely?

"I think..." He considered his words carefully. "I think that if you wanted that, if it would help you be more yourself then it's a good idea. And I think I'd love my daughter as much as I love my son."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 02:04 am UTC (link)
"You have that look, Dad. It's fine, you know? He's an adult and he's been doing okay. He even had dinner with Jamie yesterday for his birthday. Jamie just told me." Scorpius was rather proud of that one, even if his only contribution had been to tell Mr Potter originally about the party. "I'm sure he understands why you aren't around."

Scorpius chuckled. "You are being ridiculous and I love you for it." He watched his Dad think about it and the answer was... more than he had expected. "I just- I'm not sure. Part of me has always felt like a woman. I used to love walking around in Mother's clothes, but also I was special at work, because I could pull both looks off. If I become a woman, I won't have that."

Then there was the real problem. "And Grandfather might not be as understanding, especially when there are no more Malfoy heirs. Our name would die out."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-20 02:11 am UTC (link)
"Did he?" Draco asked, pleased and impressed. He knew Harry and Jamie hadn't always seen eye to eye. This was a good sign! Still, he'd make a point of actually talking to Harry tonight, even if just for a few minutes before he crashed.

Draco hated how hesitant Scorpius looked when be mentioned his grandfather. Things had been , if not good, then at least okay between them. Now... Well, now Lucius might not even survive, and Scorpius was afraid to be his true self in fear of disapointing him.

"Don't let him make this decision for you. He probably won't understand, but that is okay. He doesn't get to dictate your life. If the Malfoy name dies it dies. I never expected to be a father anyway, and you're more than enough for me." He touched an unbandaged part of Scorpius gently. "If you want this, then you should do it. If you don't, then that's okay too. The only thing that matters is that you're happy, and that you live the life you most want. Whatever that looks like."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 02:45 am UTC (link)
"I know! Jamie sounded really happy about it. I think that's a first since I've known them. Maybe there's something good about all of this. Maybe... maybe one day Mum will show up." He kept hoping for that even if he knew that his parents wouldn't be what they once were.

"Is it? This is literally the end of the world. Okay, maybe a little beginning, but it's just us. There's no fashion industry, no society. We make the entire society and I don't want to disappoint either one of you." He sighed. "I really don't know. In a way, it would have been easier if you said no. Then I wouldn't have to think about it. I... would it be different if one day I'd be a mother instead of a father? Because I want that. Our family was the best part of my life, but being a woman comes with a lot of drawbacks-" And yet when he looked in the mirror, he liked to picture a woman.

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-20 02:54 am UTC (link)
"Good for them," Draco said fondly. That was a big step for Harry. He just hoped that could continue moving forward.

"I hope she does," he said softly. Astoria had always been a good friend, even if they would never be more than that. He hoped, for Scorpius' sake, that she would come from a time when she knew him. He deserved to have his proper Mum back.

"What better time to stop giving a shit about what other people want?" He countered. "Besides, you couldn't dissapoint me. Not ever. So whatever you decide I'll support you." He wished he could hug Scorpius right now, but settled for rubbing little circles on a small, unbandaged place with the pad of his thumb. "It wouldn't be different if you were a mother. Not to me. I'll love your children whether you carry them or someone else does. I want that for you."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 03:26 am UTC (link)
"It's terrible that this is happening when Al is petrified, but- It's almost like Mr. Potter works best when there's a life and death situation, isn't it?" He just didn't know how one could live like that. "Although today I just said that I'm lucky because I'm not dying. Living like this really screws you up."

He didn't want to think about his mother too much. No sense in raising his hopes up, but he was happy that his dad agreed with him.

The answer made him laugh. "Well, there is that, but there is some difference. Like the last name. Not that I'm exactly running out to have children, but one day-" There was just so much to think about it. "Theo is the one that said I should be what I see in the mirror. Maybe that's the way to decide."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-20 07:22 pm UTC (link)
"It's not almost like. It's definitely like." He looked down at his hands, smiling ruefully. "Harry's never known how to just be happy." He sighed, then shook his head because they weren't here to talk about Harry and everything they came with that.

He let everything Scorpius was saying sink in, because he didn't want to make any rushed decisions here. He could tell how important it was, even if he didn't fully understand it. He couldn't help but smile though when Theo was brought up. That did sound just like him. Oddly wise.

"Scorpius, don't let things like names matter. You can be a woman and a Malfoy at the same time. A lot of the old traditions are worth keeping, but some aren't, and you keeping your name, even if you get married, that's one of the ones we can let go. If you wanted. The important thing here is that you're sure. That you're sure. That this is what you want. And you don't have to decide today. You have time. But if nothing else were a factor, if you didn't think about me or your grandfather or society or any of that, if you just thought of what you really want, then do that. Whatever it is. I'll still be here, and Al will still be here," he didn't know for sure, obviously, but Albus Potter seemed like the accepting sort. "Everything else will work itself out."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-20 08:32 pm UTC (link)
Scorpius chuckled. "Good to know that I wasn't seeing things. But is it that he doesn't know how to be happy or that he doesn't know how to stop? It's almost like he's afraid of stillness. If he stops, something bad will happen."

He sighed. "I don't know if it's the name itself or if I was using the name to stop myself. I do see a woman, but also I see a man, and I'm not sure that it's what I want. What I really want is to be a : Metamorphmagus."

He looked at his father. "Is there any way that it can be achieved by learned magic? Or potions? Or anything? I like being a woman, but I like being a man too." He looked at Draco. "Why am I so weird?"

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-20 08:41 pm UTC (link)
"It's both, really. He doesn't know how to stop, but sometimes he's forced to. And when he's forced to stop he doesn't know how to be happy. He almost can't be happy, if he doesn't have something to struggle against. I think you're right though, that he's always just waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's why he's so miserable when he's not busy."

Draco almost said something flippant, like how Scorpius wasn't weird and lots of people probably felt that way. But he honestly didn't know if that was true. Scorpius couldn't be the only person who felt best as a man and a woman, but Draco had certainly never met them. And it didn't seem like Scorpius had either, if his confusion now was any sign. So he didn't want to just shrug this off. It was clearly something Scorpius had been struggling with for a while.

"I don't think weird is the right word. That implies there's something wrong with what you're feeling. I don't think there is. I wish I could understand it more, but to be perfectly honest the idea of turning into a woman is my worst nightmare. Breasts?" He made an exaggerated face and shuddered. "But it's different for you. I can see that. And if you don't fully want to be a man or a woman I don't see why you should have to limit yourself to that. I don't know if you can learn Matemorph skills, but I can do some research. And if not, there's always potions. If they don't exist yet, well, between Professor Snape and Regulus you have some of the best potioneers in history. They could help me. We could figure something out. Whatever you need, okay?"

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-21 03:34 am UTC (link)
"That's a really sad life, but at least he is doing better now, even if it's because there's a new goal. He's getting closer to his children and I see the way he smiles when he looks at you. Also, he's not drunk," he said in a whisper. "Honestly, I don't think I've ever seen him without him smelling of alcohol, at home I mean, but even at the start, he was drinking a lot more."

He smiled as brightly as he could. "You get it. Well not the part about breasts," he said, laughing. "I can see why you have no interest in that, but being both. I was just asking Jamie if there were any spells that could let me change like a metamorphmagus. I'm sure it's not the same, but- That would be so great, just be whatever I feel that day, and yes, I can see why a vagina would not be your thing, but I love wearing a bikini, even though I don't really need it. I just- I guess that's what I really want, to be both."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-22 09:21 pm UTC (link)
"He drinks less when he has a distraction," Draco agreed. It was one of the many reasons he liked spending evenings and nights with Harry. He'd noticed pretty early on that he didn't get as drunk when Draco was there. "I think the key is finding ways for him to be busy and feel useful without the world ending every few months." And wouldn't that be all but impossible.

Scorpius' smile was golden, and Draco couldn't help but return Jr.

"If that's what you really want, then that's what you're going to get. Those sorts of spells have to exist. Or maybe potions. And if they don't then we'll create them. I'll help you. When everyone is cured, and we have some time. It'll be a transfiguration thing, and I'm sure we've got some people here who are good at that."

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-22 10:27 pm UTC (link)
"Trust me, there was no distraction big enough to make him stop drinking when we were home. He's a lot better here, and I mean a lot, even before this crisis." He snorted. "I'm not sure that we'll have a problem with that, especially if random things keep arriving.

Scorpius couldn't love his dad any more than he did at this moment. He didn't know why he had thought that he'd say no to the gender change. Sure normal parents would have, but his dad had always supported him.

"Jamie and Theo might help look, so you should talk to them, but yes, I think it's got to be a transfiguration thing and I was pretty good at that, so maybe it's possible," he said with a grin.

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]draco_draconis
2021-06-23 12:47 am UTC (link)
"We really need to figure this castle out," Draco said darkly. This had been close. Too close. Draco wasn't losing his son, not for anything. And then there was father...

"We've got Dumbledore too, I bet bed help. J don't think you can get much better than Dumbledore for Transfiguration. Maybe McGonnagal... Anyway, when you're ready we'll get everything under way." He probably wouldn't ever fully understand what Scorpius was feeling, but that wouldn't change anything.

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Re: Draco/Scorpius
[info]hd_scorpius
2021-06-23 03:37 am UTC (link)
"Are you trying to take all his fun away?" he joked, but he knew that it was the only way for them to be safe. Still, he wasn't sure that they would be finding a solution anytime soon.

"I guess that's true. It's hard for me to think of him when he's been dead for so long. He's just one of those people in a book, you know?" He should have probably thought of the man considering that he got an Order of Merlin for discovering something or other. He probably should have paid more attention in school. "I still have a few days to give Marlene an answer, time for you to come up with the rest of the potion I need, hopefully by then we'll have something."

He closed his eyes, battling both pain and sleep despite not doing anything, knowing that it was all the potions in his system. "If you don't mind, can we continue this later? I'm tired; I think I'll nap for a bit."

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