Re: Jamie and Scorpius
"Glad that we understand each other," he said, smiling. Scorpius kept his eyes on Jamie, since it was the only way to keep contact at the moment. "You do- did spend a lot of time looking perfect for the outside world, to give the impression that you were superhuman, just like your dad. People who know you might tease you about it, but none of us believe that mask. We all know how terribly imperfect you are," he teased.
Scorpius rolled his eyes. "There's expectations and there's attraction. When I see a naked woman, I'm not thinking that I want to bang her, but that I want to look like her. You either feel that attraction or don't. I'm not saying that you're attracted to every woman on the planet, but that you are attracted by the female form. You can solve that one by figuring out if you come thinking of a woman. Not that it means you can't enjoy the male form either."
He wanted to bang his head against the wall. "I know, but I can't decide. I see myself as a woman, but I also see myself as a man, but I'm pretty sure that I'll have to pick one and I don't know if I want that. I want to be both. Why isn't there a way to be both?" he asked with a sigh. "I took the first potion to rebuild healthy flesh. It'll be a few days before I have to decide. I just don't know."