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Tweak says, "Dress for the future:Overdo It"

Brynhild Ingouf (brynhild_ingouf) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2020-05-29 15:24:00

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!open, brynhild, dan foster, edward kenway, jacob frye, johnn redel, kelan, miguel o'hara, thor, zatanna

Filtered away from Astrid and Brenna
I have an odd request: Many humans offered their blood to me last time and the response brought me to tears. Are there any nonhumans that would offer the same?

Here is why I ask: A friend brought up the idea that I do not have to outlive everyone, that my 'immortality' could go away, for the lack of better words. Another seems to think this may end my life, but brought up a loop hole when I told him of the way I know of to remove my vampirism, to stave off of human blood. And I hope my self-loathing will be enough to open a door close to the time before I killed my Master so that I might do it again.

The reason I need to feed, and can't just go without blood all together, is I will lose selfcontrol. I will be come a ravenous beast, and that is not something I ever want to be, let alone on a floating island.

For those of you that are finding out about my vampirism this way, I am sorry. I did intend to be more delicate with it but opportunity did not present itself.

I am tired of being repulsive. I'm tired of outliving everyone I love, but I am not ready for an unnatural death.

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Bryn/Johnn

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-01 10:57 pm UTC (link)

You added extra doors?

I will be sure to let you know.

You could hardly help it Johnn, this place calls you when it calls you. And I didn't purposely throw a table at him, I flung it out one of the shop windows, close to my club. John just happened to be walking by, likely to pick up a couple bottles of gin.

I didn't like him for what he did to Chicago, I despise him for what he did to us.

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	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-02 09:29 am UTC (link)
	To my workshop? I absolutely installed new doors. I did not think you did anything to hurt someone you care about on purpose. Chicago was not his fault, you know that. And what he did to us... Well, I can not say that I do not hate him a little for it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-02 10:32 am UTC (link)

I realize it's probably going to take you some time to trust people. But there are only two people on this whole station that don't know what I am. And everyone else respects that, I can trust them. I think you'll be able to trust them like that too. If you just let yourself.

I could easily call this man my best friend. I only hope I am at least half the friend to him that he is to me.

Chicago was enough his fault for me to not like him for it. There are people here that he hurt, that you haven't met yet. I don't think.

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	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-02 10:40 am UTC (link)
	It has been rather jarring to come to a new place so suddenly. I believe you, though. As I said, I will try to reach out. You doubt yourself too much in that aspect. Who has he hurt here, if I may ask? I thought it was only you, Scarlet, Blank, and myself from our world here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-02 11:04 am UTC (link)
	I meant all the security measures, but that's good too. Well, there is only so much I can know, he's a very closed lipped fellow. Scarlet has friends other than us. John was hurt, Loki was hurt, Shannon... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-02 09:08 pm UTC (link)

Right. The security measures. I will be sure to lower them. This place has given me no real reason to have as many. The people here seem... Nice. Unlike our world.

I would surmise that if you almost hit him with a table, and he was still there for you, that he is a man whose actions speak louder than words.

She does. While the circumstances were unpleasant, I am glad to see that so many care for her. She is quite the charmer.

I hope you do not take offense to my next question. Did you reach out to Blank during Scarlet's disappearance?

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-03 06:17 am UTC (link)
	It doesn't have all the conveniences, but it feels more like home than there has in a long time. You make a good point. ~~But he loves someone else~~ Loki brought her back. No. He stayed in Little Asgard, and things between me and them were still strained. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-03 07:30 am UTC (link)
	I am glad you have made a home here, Bryn. I hope to do the same. I am nothing, if not logical. ~~I know how you feel.~~ Blank told me. I can not thank Loki enough for that. Mmm. Then he should have reached to you, but I understand why it did not happen. You both were grieving, and it is not easy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-03 08:41 am UTC (link)
	I hope you do too. That's true. Perhaps make the necklace he wears better for him, than Scarlet? Yes, and since I receeved your lovely little beauty of a bracelet, I subdue my grief with chemical means. Usually booze. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-03 07:52 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, Bryn. I met him in Asgard and offered to do so. I assume he will take me up on my offer soon enough. Though, I fear to imagine what Blank would have become should Loki not have been able to bring her back. You know how he was after Minette. I am glad my bracelet could help you in that way. We all grieve differently. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-04 03:38 am UTC (link)

You're welcome John. I can't help but want to apologize, though.

He may not seem it but Loki is very sensitive, he may not want to change it because Scarlet gave it to him in the state that's in.

Ugh, Minette. Yes I remember that witch. From what I understand you and I have missed a 'fun time' that happened because of her.

I happen to do it with intoxication and sex. Sometimes at the same time. And that leads to waking up at the bottom of a 'fur pile' without any pants.

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Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-04 09:30 pm UTC (link)

Why is that?

I will make note of that. There would be no cosmetic change, just some configurations to attune it to him.

I am unsure anything that witch would have in store for our lot would be considered 'fun.' Should I ask Blank about it?

As I said, we all grieve differently. I do not know how I would have reacted if I were in you or Blank's shoes.

~~Perhaps after I transfer in to my new body, we could give it a test run.. For old time's sake.~~

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-05 04:17 am UTC (link)
	Because, I'm me and even though I'm resolute in my decision it doesn't mean that I'm not regretful that it may have hurt you. It's not me you have to convince it's him. Or Scarlet. I didn't get many details after I started growling. I prefer to bottle it up, I just happened to errupt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-05 04:32 am UTC (link)

I understand most of the rules of time travel, Bryn. If it makes you feel better... Apology accepted.

I do not think that will be that hard of a task.

Yes, Scarlet would most likely give me a better prospective than Blank would. I will ask her in due time, I suppose. But there is something else I am invested looking in to first.

~~As much as it pains me,~~ I understand.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-05 05:35 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I'm not laughing at that I promise. What's that? I've also been told I'm soft, so... Yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-05 05:54 am UTC (link)
	Of course. I do not understand, why you would? ~~Not at all...~~ It is about Blank.... But, I will come to you when I have investigated it further. I do not wish to make you worry. Hm. Whomever told you that, has no true idea of what they speak. You may have your moments of weakness ~~we all do.~~ But those moments do not add up to being 'soft.' (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-05 06:01 am UTC (link)
	Because I know Loki. Johnn. Out with it. He does actually, because he's not wrong. I've changed in the short time I've been here. A lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-05 06:53 am UTC (link)

Fair enough, I am just now getting to know him.

It is probably nothing. But when he came to see me, I scanned him and there is an energy around him that I can not quite fathom. When ever I thought I had it trace, it changed to something new...

... That is fair. You are different from what I know.. But, I am unsure if it is 'softness,' though. Then again, I have been here an even shorter time, and have yet to see you in person.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-05 08:39 am UTC (link)
	Well, I won't ruin that surprise. Just... be careful. Remember he is a god, and even if you don't worship him, he deserves your respect. Could it be what happened to him in Hell? I almost spared two vampires in our world after they tried to human children their meal. Because of their age. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-05 09:06 am UTC (link)

You know that I am not really a fan of surprise, Bryn... But, he has will forever have my respect for what he did for Scarlet and Blank. But, I will be careful.

I do not know. Is there any one with knowledge of his time in Hell? He did not speak much of it.

This was during "our" time away, correct? When there was a door leading to our world from here? ... I know how you feel about children, and your kin. It must have been a very difficult decision to make, now it is I who owes the apology.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-05 09:43 am UTC (link)
	If it was a bad surprise I would absolutely tell you. As long as you're careful and respectful you'll be fine. I don't know who he was teamed up with, I went in with three others to save John. It was my future so I don't know. I just know the only one there was Scarlet, she said you all, and the me of that time, was somewhere else doing something Nero wanted. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-05 10:28 am UTC (link)

I will be, I promise. As long as he affords me the same courtesy, which he has so far.

Hm. Perhaps I can ask around and find out. As I said, it is probably nothing, just something odd to me. I will let you know if I find out anything.

Hm. You see, this is why I dislike time travel. Too many variables that are incalculable. But, still. I regret that I could not
have been there with you, at the very least as my former job.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-06 06:05 am UTC (link)
	Johnn, I'm not saying you're not a big strong manbot, but, even if he isn't his nicest... It could also be they're from a few years into the future than we are. There is no telling. But if someone knows... You're a busy man, I can't fault that. The me of that time was probably glad you were with her though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-07 06:19 am UTC (link)

If he is not, I will still be respectful at the very least. Though, I do not believe that will be a problem.

We can only hope so. Blank does not know of this energy around him. Luckily, it only seems to surround him and not his son. If I can not, please keep an eye on him, he is your charge, after all..

I may be a busy being, but if I were there.. Things may have turned out differently. I do not know, as I was not present.

... My... Birthday will be arriving soon.. I am working on a new body at the moment.... I would like you to be present at Dr. Sarah O'Hara's "Boom Room" when I transfer.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-07 07:46 am UTC (link)
	I hope it wont be. I'll try, but like him, I do have a family here. It is part of the reason I don't want this, anymore. They might have. And they might have ended up the same, just with someone different. Of course. Who is helping you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)