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Tweak says, "Are you coming or going?"

Brynhild Ingouf (brynhild_ingouf) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2020-05-29 15:24:00

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!open, brynhild, dan foster, edward kenway, jacob frye, johnn redel, kelan, miguel o'hara, thor, zatanna

Filtered away from Astrid and Brenna
I have an odd request: Many humans offered their blood to me last time and the response brought me to tears. Are there any nonhumans that would offer the same?

Here is why I ask: A friend brought up the idea that I do not have to outlive everyone, that my 'immortality' could go away, for the lack of better words. Another seems to think this may end my life, but brought up a loop hole when I told him of the way I know of to remove my vampirism, to stave off of human blood. And I hope my self-loathing will be enough to open a door close to the time before I killed my Master so that I might do it again.

The reason I need to feed, and can't just go without blood all together, is I will lose selfcontrol. I will be come a ravenous beast, and that is not something I ever want to be, let alone on a floating island.

For those of you that are finding out about my vampirism this way, I am sorry. I did intend to be more delicate with it but opportunity did not present itself.

I am tired of being repulsive. I'm tired of outliving everyone I love, but I am not ready for an unnatural death.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-08 10:39 am UTC (link)
	Rejection from them would kill me, Johnn. That's a far stretch, but I'll no longer be a monster, so... It was someone random, in our district. But it was Nesting behavior, more the fault of the master, than the 'children' but I left a note for the us of that time. He has been around for a very long time. Oh! So no naked vampires for him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-08 10:51 pm UTC (link)

Just know that your secret is very safe with me. But, I do understand.

That is a good first step, is it not?

Ah, I see. That must have been rather jarring for our future selves. But then again, stranger things have happened.

Then I could definitely learn thing from him. I shall reach out to him, and see if he would like a visitor.

No. As much as I enjoy those memories, the smile on your face when you felt the sun against it was a much greater highlight.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-09 06:12 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Johnn. I suppose so, most would say the first step is coming clean. I suppose it was just an inconvenience, I did most of the work for them. That would have to be up to you. I don't know Kai's mind anymore than I know Loki's. Oh, good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-09 06:33 am UTC (link)
	Of course, Bryn. This is very true. I am glad to be of help to you in that department. Perhaps. Should a door open up to that time again, we could ask and find out. He seemed more than willing to help, so hopefully he will be just as willing to have a talk with me. Yes.. Good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-09 09:15 am UTC (link)
	Oh, it's nothing you can help with, I think. Besides the serum, and I won't be able to go on that right away. That's the thing about the doors, it never opens so we can run into ourselves. He might be just as fascinated by you as you are him. Because Loki seeing me naked would be just weird. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-09 07:49 pm UTC (link)

I meant with the serum and it should not take me long to make it once I have the code. The only one who can help with the other thing is yourself.

I see. I suppose us running in to our other selves would be problematic.

Then it would be a very interesting meeting.

That makes sense, I suppose. On a related, I do have a question... Can I trust Loki with my body transfer, or am I making a deal with the devil?

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-10 07:54 am UTC (link)
	Exactly. ~~And maybe Constantine~~ I appreciate the help. Exactly. They would tell us things we could use to change the timeline. And that never leads to anything good. I should warn you, he is rather attractive. I think so. He's become a relitively good person here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-10 08:01 am UTC (link)
	I am only here to help. ~~Apparently.~~ And that would be rather problematic. Ha. I would think you knew, I am immune to attractive Gods. I have had the same feeling, but I had to ask. There are only three here that I can truly trust right now.. Thank you, again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-10 10:55 am UTC (link)
	Yes it would be. We don't need anymore disruptions to the timeline than we already have. He is way more attractive than Nero. You're welcome. I'm here to help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-10 08:51 pm UTC (link)
	No, no we do not. Funny, I never mentioned Nero.. And I appreciate that. I am glad that we can remain friends, Bryn. No matter what, I do care a great deal about you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-11 06:18 am UTC (link)
	Well, he's the only god you could have met that anyone could resist his 'attractive' charms. Even I'm not immune to Loki's charms when he uses them on me. So am I, and so do I. I just don't... want anyone to get hurt anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-11 02:53 pm UTC (link)
	That is true. Though, he was never one to try and use those "charms." He is with Bonnie afterall. ~~Also funny that you should mention Loki....~~ I understand completely, Bryn. Though, I do hope one day you will find someone who you believe you will not hurt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-12 04:29 am UTC (link)
	Have you met other gods? I don't know if that's possible. ~~but so do I~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-12 04:33 am UTC (link)
	Yes. I have gone a few "rabbit holes" with Blank, Erandur, Cyran, and Nero before we met. But, I would not refer the Gods I have met as.... Attractive. ~~I know it is.~~ Right now, perhaps not. It is, and always will be up to you to decide that. ~~And I wish you the best, even if I am not that one.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-12 09:40 am UTC (link)
	The only true gods are Norse. They are usually mostly attractive. The Polynesians are a close second. If I stay out of the game, no one gets hurt. ~~Least of all me~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-12 07:46 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, I know. You always did favor them over the others. But, I can not say I disagree with you on that point. That is your decision to make. Know that myself and the rest of our family will support you no matter what you decide. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-13 06:30 am UTC (link)
	At least Thor and Loki are right in front of your face for you to see for yourself. Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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