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Brynhild Ingouf (brynhild_ingouf) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2020-05-29 15:24:00

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!open, brynhild, dan foster, edward kenway, jacob frye, johnn redel, kelan, miguel o'hara, thor, zatanna

Filtered away from Astrid and Brenna
I have an odd request: Many humans offered their blood to me last time and the response brought me to tears. Are there any nonhumans that would offer the same?

Here is why I ask: A friend brought up the idea that I do not have to outlive everyone, that my 'immortality' could go away, for the lack of better words. Another seems to think this may end my life, but brought up a loop hole when I told him of the way I know of to remove my vampirism, to stave off of human blood. And I hope my self-loathing will be enough to open a door close to the time before I killed my Master so that I might do it again.

The reason I need to feed, and can't just go without blood all together, is I will lose selfcontrol. I will be come a ravenous beast, and that is not something I ever want to be, let alone on a floating island.

For those of you that are finding out about my vampirism this way, I am sorry. I did intend to be more delicate with it but opportunity did not present itself.

I am tired of being repulsive. I'm tired of outliving everyone I love, but I am not ready for an unnatural death.

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Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-05 10:28 am UTC (link)

I will be, I promise. As long as he affords me the same courtesy, which he has so far.

Hm. Perhaps I can ask around and find out. As I said, it is probably nothing, just something odd to me. I will let you know if I find out anything.

Hm. You see, this is why I dislike time travel. Too many variables that are incalculable. But, still. I regret that I could not
have been there with you, at the very least as my former job.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-06 06:05 am UTC (link)
	Johnn, I'm not saying you're not a big strong manbot, but, even if he isn't his nicest... It could also be they're from a few years into the future than we are. There is no telling. But if someone knows... You're a busy man, I can't fault that. The me of that time was probably glad you were with her though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-07 06:19 am UTC (link)

If he is not, I will still be respectful at the very least. Though, I do not believe that will be a problem.

We can only hope so. Blank does not know of this energy around him. Luckily, it only seems to surround him and not his son. If I can not, please keep an eye on him, he is your charge, after all..

I may be a busy being, but if I were there.. Things may have turned out differently. I do not know, as I was not present.

... My... Birthday will be arriving soon.. I am working on a new body at the moment.... I would like you to be present at Dr. Sarah O'Hara's "Boom Room" when I transfer.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-07 07:46 am UTC (link)
	I hope it wont be. I'll try, but like him, I do have a family here. It is part of the reason I don't want this, anymore. They might have. And they might have ended up the same, just with someone different. Of course. Who is helping you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-07 08:14 am UTC (link)

I am sure it will not be.

I would hope you consider him part of that family. Erandur and Cyran did put you next in line of care for him, even if he is an adult with a wife and child.

This is true, but there would have been a far worse situation for the ones deemed to death. Involving many bullet holes, and various means of torment before their demise.

Loki is the one helping me transfer. Several others had step forward, but Loki was rather convincing... I would have asked Blank, but he has already helped me twice in that area, and I do not wish for him to go through it again. Especially now.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-07 08:28 am UTC (link)
	I do, but a different part. This one is from the ninth century. They came along way before he was even a thought. Before I met Erandur. They were vampires. Bullets don't work. The sun did though. I understand. But last time it took him and Erandur... so I heard. Who's the second? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-07 08:00 pm UTC (link)

Yes, that would have been long before Blank was a glimmer in his ancestors' eye. Ha ha.

The bullets would have been part of the torment. But, you have always had your own way of dealing with your problems, and I have always respected that about you.

That was the first time, when my flesh body was dying. Blank was about to do it the second time by himself. Katherine Lokadottir, and John Constantine were my next choices. There was someone who made it seem as though it would be an easy task for them. Kai Akua, I believe is their name.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-08 04:16 am UTC (link)
	And I don't want him to slip up and tell my daughters what I am. I don't toy around with the condemned. We're not supposed to. And since everything was recorded... Well not everything, unfortunately. Oh. Kai is a Polynesian god of the sea. And other things. Just as a precaution... What willl happen to Loki when he aids you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-08 07:08 am UTC (link)

That is fair, though I doubt he would do that. He thinks very highly of you, and I do not think he would ever want to ruin that.

Besides, it will not matter so much soon enough, right?

That is fair.

I see, yes any God should be able to perform this with much ease.

Nothing serious, he will just get, as Blank put it; "a highlight reel" of my life. He said it was intense, but I doubt it is not anything Loki can not handle.

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Bryn/Johnn

brynhild_ingouf
2020-06-08 09:23 am UTC (link)

I know he wouldn't do it on purpose, but I've been lying to them the whole time they've been here. I can't take that risk.

Not soon enough. Maybe things will change after I do.

And their sin is purged with a death by sunlight. They can meet whatever maker they had before the vampire turned them in peace.

Kai's a good god, not the right one for me, but... I am loyal to mine.

Um... Would that Highlight reel include me?

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Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-08 09:46 am UTC (link)

I understand.

I would hope they do, you deserve to be happy.

So be it, I suppose it would be different than if it was someone random who deserved to be tormented.

Hm. Perhaps I will try to meet him, as well. It was be interesting to find out what I could learn from him.

... Yes. But, from what Blank told me the last time(just before I arrived), it was the day I gave you the bracelet. The first day you were able to step out in to the sun...

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-08 10:39 am UTC (link)
	Rejection from them would kill me, Johnn. That's a far stretch, but I'll no longer be a monster, so... It was someone random, in our district. But it was Nesting behavior, more the fault of the master, than the 'children' but I left a note for the us of that time. He has been around for a very long time. Oh! So no naked vampires for him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-08 10:51 pm UTC (link)

Just know that your secret is very safe with me. But, I do understand.

That is a good first step, is it not?

Ah, I see. That must have been rather jarring for our future selves. But then again, stranger things have happened.

Then I could definitely learn thing from him. I shall reach out to him, and see if he would like a visitor.

No. As much as I enjoy those memories, the smile on your face when you felt the sun against it was a much greater highlight.

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-09 06:12 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Johnn. I suppose so, most would say the first step is coming clean. I suppose it was just an inconvenience, I did most of the work for them. That would have to be up to you. I don't know Kai's mind anymore than I know Loki's. Oh, good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-09 06:33 am UTC (link)
	Of course, Bryn. This is very true. I am glad to be of help to you in that department. Perhaps. Should a door open up to that time again, we could ask and find out. He seemed more than willing to help, so hopefully he will be just as willing to have a talk with me. Yes.. Good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-09 09:15 am UTC (link)
	Oh, it's nothing you can help with, I think. Besides the serum, and I won't be able to go on that right away. That's the thing about the doors, it never opens so we can run into ourselves. He might be just as fascinated by you as you are him. Because Loki seeing me naked would be just weird. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bryn/Johnn

completelyauto
2020-06-09 07:49 pm UTC (link)

I meant with the serum and it should not take me long to make it once I have the code. The only one who can help with the other thing is yourself.

I see. I suppose us running in to our other selves would be problematic.

Then it would be a very interesting meeting.

That makes sense, I suppose. On a related, I do have a question... Can I trust Loki with my body transfer, or am I making a deal with the devil?

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	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-10 07:54 am UTC (link)
	Exactly. ~~And maybe Constantine~~ I appreciate the help. Exactly. They would tell us things we could use to change the timeline. And that never leads to anything good. I should warn you, he is rather attractive. I think so. He's become a relitively good person here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-10 08:01 am UTC (link)
	I am only here to help. ~~Apparently.~~ And that would be rather problematic. Ha. I would think you knew, I am immune to attractive Gods. I have had the same feeling, but I had to ask. There are only three here that I can truly trust right now.. Thank you, again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-10 10:55 am UTC (link)
	Yes it would be. We don't need anymore disruptions to the timeline than we already have. He is way more attractive than Nero. You're welcome. I'm here to help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-10 08:51 pm UTC (link)
	No, no we do not. Funny, I never mentioned Nero.. And I appreciate that. I am glad that we can remain friends, Bryn. No matter what, I do care a great deal about you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-11 06:18 am UTC (link)
	Well, he's the only god you could have met that anyone could resist his 'attractive' charms. Even I'm not immune to Loki's charms when he uses them on me. So am I, and so do I. I just don't... want anyone to get hurt anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-11 02:53 pm UTC (link)
	That is true. Though, he was never one to try and use those "charms." He is with Bonnie afterall. ~~Also funny that you should mention Loki....~~ I understand completely, Bryn. Though, I do hope one day you will find someone who you believe you will not hurt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Johnn brynhild_ingouf 2020-06-12 04:29 am UTC (link)
	Have you met other gods? I don't know if that's possible. ~~but so do I~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Bryn/Johnn completelyauto 2020-06-12 04:33 am UTC (link)
	Yes. I have gone a few "rabbit holes" with Blank, Erandur, Cyran, and Nero before we met. But, I would not refer the Gods I have met as.... Attractive. ~~I know it is.~~ Right now, perhaps not. It is, and always will be up to you to decide that. ~~And I wish you the best, even if I am not that one.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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