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A Cattermole (alfiecat) wrote in wished,
@ 2009-12-31 12:05:00

Entry tags:

!1997: 12, !complete, alfred cattermole, julien dorny

Who: Alfie and Julien
What: Alfie freaking out about the Registration
Where: Abandoned classroom
When: Last night
Rating/Warning: TBA, but boysnoggage is probably a definite.

Alfie was worried. Nearly enough to be actually worried sick which he thought had always been just something people said, but he was worried and his sisters were worried and he was too scared to owl his dad about it and see what they were planning to do. When they figured it out, he figured they'd let them know somehow.

So instead of trying to write an owl he'd never send, he wrote to Julien, and wrote to Drew ad Audrey, and ten minutes later he was coming through the door of the classroom. He got there before Julien did, this time, and sat down on the couch to wait for him.

His hands were shaking, and he didn't realize until he tried to brush his hair out of his eyes.

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book_bound
2009-12-31 11:45 pm UTC (link)

Julien pulled back from Alfie again, but he gave Alfie a smile and eskimo kissed Alfie. "I can always tell you things..." he said, but then the smile dropped from his face. "She was saying things about blood and power and magic... she sounded almost angry at me. I don't know what's going on." He made the facial expression equivalent of a shrug and then pet his hand through Alfie's hair again. "Are your family okay?" he asked quietly.

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alfiecat
2009-12-31 11:52 pm UTC (link)

From the confused expression he was still giving him, it was clear Alfie didn't understand it any better than Julien did. Maybe he'd watch for Julien getting owls in the morning from now on, though, and maybe he'd try to be with him when he read them...

"Huh?" He asked, like he'd forgotten this had anything to do with him. Like protecting Julien was the only thing on his mind. Then it rushed back, and he gave the same sullen sort of shrug. "I don't know. Dad works for the Ministry, you know. I wouldn't think they'd do anything to someone who works there, or their family? And he's pureblood, or you know, close enough to it. But mum's muggleborn... "

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	book_bound 2010-01-01 01:29 am UTC (link)
	Julien frowned, feeling the same kind of helplessness about Alfie's situation that Alfie felt about him. He leant back in to put their foreheads together and nuzzled gently, the pain of two souls who were feeling the same confusion and fear, only made better by the fact that they weren't alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alfiecat 2010-01-01 01:54 am UTC (link)
	Alfie sighed, and after a minute he kissed Julien's forehead before he pulled him in closer, nuzzled down against him. "Feels easier when I'm with you, anyway," he said. Even if, right now, that didn't really say much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	book_bound 2010-01-01 02:06 am UTC (link)
	Julien hummed softly and happily let himself be tucked in against his boyfriend. "Weird, but you're right. I was going to say the same thing..." he murmured, and it may not have said much but it was a lot more than nothing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alfiecat 2010-01-01 02:15 am UTC (link)
	Alfie let his hand trail up Julien's back again, and this time when it went to his neck it went to tangle in his hair instead, tipping Julien's mouth up for his. He didn't have anything he could say to make this any better than he had already, but he could kiss him. And maybe that would help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	book_bound 2010-01-01 02:18 am UTC (link)
	It helped, helped more than Julien would have expected it to actually, and Julien gave back as good as he got, tried to at least, tried to make things better for Alfie the way Alfie was trying to make things better for him. He pressed close and allowed Alfie to regain some control in some part of his life, control over this kiss and over him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

alfiecat
2010-01-01 02:21 am UTC (link)

Alfie felt that, somehow. Understood somehow just what it was that Julien was doing, giving up to him, giving in. He groaned against Julien's mouth and found himself pulling the other boy even tighter in against him, the kiss going harder again and this time it wasn't because he was desperate.

And there was some part of him that worried at how he cold even think about snogging or sex at a time like this. But that part was solidly being ignored.

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	book_bound 2010-01-01 02:29 am UTC (link)
	Julien made a small, accepting, allowing noise and eagerly pressed back in against Alfie as the boy pulled him in, wanting to be pulled in, pulled in so deep that none of this could touch either of them anymore... pipe dreams, but some hope was better than none. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alfiecat 2010-01-01 02:31 am UTC (link)
	Alfie didn't pull away until he was panting, and this time when he moved to stretch Julien out against the sofa and then climb onto him, stretch out against him - this time, he didn't ask permission. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	book_bound 2010-01-01 02:39 am UTC (link)
	Alfie was directing this and Julien was willing to follow any lead; he lay back, accepted Alfie's comforting weight on top of him and reached for him, drew Alfie to him. Leant up for more kisses, and he was asking although the way Alfie just took... he had no choice but to trust the other boy, and the more his trust was rewarded the better he felt about trusting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alfiecat 2010-01-01 02:54 am UTC (link)
	Alfie let Julien pull him up, kissed his throat and then his jaw, and a second later he was taking his mouth again, eyes closing as he sucked at his lip and then sank his tongue in against his, mapping his mouth. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	book_bound 2010-01-01 03:03 am UTC (link)
	Julien whimpered softly, but it was in pleasure this time, taking any pleasure that he could get, his body arching up towards Alfie's as his boyfriend sought to conquer his mouth. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alfiecat 2010-01-01 03:05 am UTC (link)
	Alfie didn't know what he was doing, but what he did know was that something came over him as Julien whimpered and submitted under his mouth, and it wasn't only Julien's mouth he wanted close to. He barely realized he was undoing Julien's shirt until he had it halfway off, and had to pull away from the kiss to strip it away. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

book_bound
2010-01-01 04:28 pm UTC (link)

Alfie was stripping him with a kind of panicked haste that Julien wasn't really sure was all healthy, but then at the same time he seemed to be caught up in the same kind of need to bring himself as close to Alfie as physically, humanly possible, so that Alfie's family, his family, nothing else would matter apart from how close they were. So it was that when Alfie pulled away, Julien arched up likewise, trying to tug his shirt off and not yet reaching for Alfie's, also subconsciously aware of the power shift here.

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	alfiecat 2010-01-01 07:40 pm UTC (link)
	Alfie didn't so much worry about himself. There was something in him that needed, and he wasn't quite sure what it needed, but he was sure that Julien being naked was definitely a part of it. He didn't ask permission, either, when his hands feel to the fly of Julien's pants and started to get them open too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	book_bound 2010-01-01 07:53 pm UTC (link)
	Julien found his breathing coming fast and shallow and realised that he didn't seem to be able to do much to slow it down. That said, he had more important things to think about right then, like the way Alfie's hands felt on his hips. He watched Alfie's hand work at his pants and reached his own hand down to help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

alfiecat
2010-01-01 07:58 pm UTC (link)

Alfie leaned in enough that he kissed Julien's jaw, then his shoulder blade, and second later he had Julien's pants open and finally, finally took a second to look at Julien - make sure somehow that this was okay. Except Julien was helping him, and panting, and he didn't look like he minded it at all when Alfie moved to tug the last of his clothes off, having to stop to pull off his shoes to get them off his legs.

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	book_bound 2010-01-01 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	Julien loved the kisses and leaned up to kiss back any place where his mouth could meet Alfie's. He was naked all of a sudden, lying underneath his boyfriend and he felt nervous, exhilarated... terrified but trusting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

alfiecat
2010-01-01 08:14 pm UTC (link)

When Alfie dropped Julien's pants to the floor he finally realized, really, what it was he'd done. He swallowed, hard, and looked up Julien's body slowly. He'd felt him, the last time, but he hadn't had a chance to just look at him like this. He was pale and skinny... and he was really, really amazing, too.

"Jules?" He croaked the question, hand sliding up Julien's leg while his eyes followed its progress.

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	book_bound 2010-01-01 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	Oh god. Alfie was speaking and TOUCHING... Julien shuddered and he too watched Alfie's hand move up, feeling pathetic and ugly and inadequate. "Alfie..." he answered, anything passed names seeming more than he could handle. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alfiecat 2010-01-01 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	Alfie's hand slid all the way from his ankle to his thigh before he dragged his eyes back up to Julien's face and pulled his hand away. And he felt awkward, and uncertain, but he swallowed again and then sat up straighter, reaching for the buttons of his own shirt to start undoing them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	book_bound 2010-01-01 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	Julien whimpered a little when Alfie's hand moved higher, tensing up for a touch that then didn't come. He watched Alfie look up at him, watched him sit up... "You're beautiful..." he murmured, watching him undress, and then immediately went red when he heard himself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alfiecat 2010-01-01 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	Alfie shook his head. He was gangly - arms and legs too long and always knocking things over. "But you are," He said, a second later, getting his shirt open and then standing up next to the couch as he shrugged out of it and kicked off his shoes. He couldn't keep his eyes from sliding down Julien's body... lying on the couch, waiting for him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	book_bound 2010-01-01 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	Julien shivered a little bit, but not because the air was slightly cold against his bare skin... but that Alfie was getting bare before him. "You are." he disagreed, biting his bottom lip as he watched. The only beautiful thing they had right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)