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Dean Thomas (deanthomas) wrote in wished,
@ 2010-03-14 01:04:00

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!1998: 03, !incomplete, daphne greengrass, dean thomas

Who: Dean Thomas, Daphne Greengrass
When: Sunday afternoon, the 14th
Where: Grounds
What: Run in!
Rating: TBA, probably low.
Open/Closed: Closed

Dean hadn't seen much of Daphne. Not since their little meeting in the library, at least. He'd seen her in the Great Hall, or around classes here and there, but that was all. He wasn't daft, he didn't try to talk to her in public, and if she was staying clear, then it was probably wiser than seeing him anyway. Since him and Seamus' little chat, they'd been seeing more of each other, since Seamus didn't have to worry about hiding where he was going from Dean anymore. So Dean didn't think about her that much. Or less than he had been, at least.

But that didn't mean he didn't think about her. Everything about them spending any time with each other was a completely insane notion. They were nothing alike, she hated all his friends and he hated hers, and she couldn't be seen with him without ostracizing herself. So they made no sense.

Common sense didn't have a lot of sway over the rest of his brain though, once in a while, and though Dean didn't ever TRY to find her, he kept an eye out. And when he was sitting outside, a little ways from the school, reading through his Transfiguration notes while he perched on a large tree root that made a decent enough bench, he caught sight of Daphne from the corner of his eye. He looked up, hesitating a moment and looking around. There was no one around that he saw, and he got up after a moment, walking over and catching her attention, giving her a slight smile. "Hi, Greengrass," he greeted, a little awkwardly. He hadn't the faintest idea what to say, but he wanted to talk to her. He probably should have sussed out something better to say first, though.

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deanthomas
2010-03-22 03:24 am UTC (link)

Dean laughed. "Yeah, quiet is better than things that want to eat you," he agreed. Even if he missed the squid a bit - which he was wise enough to never say to her. And he couldn't help but remember the incident a little fondly - it was how they'd first started to chat, after all.

She was staring down at her feet, and it was oddly shy and a bit charming really. Shy wasn't the word that came to mind usually when you thought of Daphne, but it was the closest thing that came to mind.

"Yeah. Me too," he agreed. Homework was, at least, an easy distraction from the other things going on.

He cocked his head at the answer, smiling. "I asked first, Greengrass. That's not on," he answered quietly. He reached up to brush his fingers through her hair carefully, pushing it back from her face a bit and then dropping his hand. "Yeah, Daph. I've missed you."

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daphne__g
2010-03-22 03:59 am UTC (link)

Miss the squid?! Daphne did not miss that wretched beast, even if it did get her to talk to Dean. Daphne would have preferred to live life without being tossed around like a bloody rag doll. "I never did understand why people complain when it's quiet." This forced idle chatter was really annoying her too. She didn't know what to say to Dean, and that just frustrated her even more.

Feeling Dean's fingers brush through her hair, her breath caught in her throat, and she had to swallow. What was wrong with her? Closing her eyes for a moment, she had to tell herself to calm down.

"It's not on? You're going to tell me what is on and what's not?" An amused smirk curled on her lips, as she took a step closer to him. "For what it's worth, Thomas..." Her voice dropped significantly, so only he could hear - whether she did that for her benefit or for his couldn't be said. "I have missed seeing you around. You do have infallible timing, popping up when I need saving and what not."

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deanthomas
2010-03-22 04:49 am UTC (link)

"Because everybody needs something to complain about. Otherwise they have nothing to talk about," Dean told her. Which was probably true. If the Hogwarts students didn't have shite to complain about, they'd probably just all go mute.

"Definitely not on. Bit of a chicken move really, Daph. But I suppose I can forgive you. Since you're not in Gryff anyway," Dean teased. He watched her step in closer and brushed her hair back again, letting his thumb brush over her ear. "So that's the only time you want to see me? When I'm useful enough to save you from something?" he asked.

They were out in the open. So just standing this close was completely stupid. Let alone kissing her, which Dean still somehow found himself leaning in to do, just a light brush of lips against hers.

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daphne__g
2010-03-23 11:59 pm UTC (link)

"Sometimes it's better if people would just remain quiet." Daphne really preferred that, majority of the things the students talked about was nonsense. Daphne preferred silence over inane chattering. Head tilted to the side slightly As he brushed her hair behnd her ear.

"You mean to tell me that's not what you muggles are good for? Jumping in the line of danger and willing to die?" So that was a little harsh, but the playful smirk should tell Dean she was only kidding... Maybe. Daphne could only smile slightly as his lips brushed against hers. Eyes closed briefly as her fingers ran over his robes. It looked like she was going to pull him closer but before her lips pressed against his, she spoke, "Stop."

Pushing him back, Daphne unlaced her fingers from his shirt, "Not here." Glancing over Herr shoulder, Daphne realized that this whole hiding emotions things was becoming too much. Taking a step back, fingers brushed through her hair, "Thomas, listen... I..." Glancing up at him, Daphne didn't know what to say.

"Think we should go somewhere else."

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deanthomas
2010-03-24 03:43 am UTC (link)

Dean looked amused, but refrained from pointing out that sometimes, it was Daphne saying things that were less than useful, such as the time she'd railed against kissing mudbloods, right after having made out with him.

"We're good for a little more than cannon fodder, sometimes," Dean answered, not taking offense, though he gave her a theatric wince anyway.

He stopped when she told him to, licking his lips, a little stab of hurt showing in his expression, for a moment, though he tried to hide it.

He stepped back too, reaching up to rub at his neck. "Yeah. . . we can do that. . . probably doesn't make much sense for us to though." Since it wasn't like they could hide forever. Hiding it would just get more frustrating as they went along.

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daphne__g
2010-03-24 04:00 am UTC (link)

She couldn't miss that look of disappointment, it was what she was feeling inside as well. Sighing heavily she glanced down at her shoes. "Look, Dean, I..." Biting down on her bottom lip, she didn't realize it but she was beginning to pace. She didn't know what say and she didn't know what to do. She never in life felt more confused than she did at that moment.

"I guess we both know... Sodding hell..." She hissed through her teeth. "I'm mental, I've gone off the bloody deep end." Talking more to herself than to anyone else, she finally just dropped her hands to her side and turned face Dean.

"What the bloody hell, I have nothing to lose anymore. Dean..."Inhaling deeply, Daphne felt like she was going to... pass out. "Listen, I don't know what's wrong with me and I hope you don't take this the wrong way but.... IthinkI'mstartingtofancyyou... And it's scaring me half to death." That came out all in one breath and she had a sudden ringing in her ears as she stood there. Did Daphne Greengrass just admit to liking Dean Thomas? Yeah. Things at Hogwarts were all backwards.

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deanthomas
2010-03-24 04:43 am UTC (link)

Dean watched her pace, and couldn't help admiring a little. Which didn't help anything. "Yeah. . . I thought you might. Since you snogged me and all," he teased, though it fell a little flat.

He watched her for another moment, and then shook his head. "I like you. And fancy you too. But does it matter? I mean we can't even stand close to each other out in the open, let alone do anything that shows we like each other. So where does that leave us, Daph?" He was quiet a moment and then added. "You're a bit cute when you're panicked, you know."

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daphne__g
2010-03-24 07:39 am UTC (link)

"Well, originally, I didn't snog you because I liked you. It was more of a curiosity." Head tilted to the side, as her gaze met his. She didn't know what to do. She felt so confused and tangled up and partly jealous because Nikolas made it all seem simple. Daphne felt more confused and more unsure than before.

"I don't know what to do, Thomas... Part of me was hoping that you wouldn't fancy me back." Daphne had to laugh nervously when she realized how ridiculous that logic sounded. "What do you think we should do?" She looked at him seriously briefly. When he said that she cute when she panicked, a hand lifted to stifle another nervous giggle.

"Hell, you should have seen me after the spider attack. I was a bloody mess, literally and figuratively."

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deanthomas
2010-03-25 03:32 am UTC (link)

"You know how to make a bloke feel good, Greengrass," Dean told her with a sigh that was half laugh. She was utterly unlike Dean in almost every way, and it left him without ever really knowing WHAT she'd say or do, or how she'd react. He couldn't say he didn't like it, but it was hard to stand on solid ground, too.

"Well, not much chance of that, was there? Beautiful girl, sense of humor, ace snogger." Dean shook his head. "I don't know, Daph. What we SHOULD do is just ignore it, right? But I don't seem to be doing that, and you don't seem to quite want me to."

He smiled. "I would probably have wanted to fuss over you, if I saw you like that, anyway. So probably a good thing I didn't."

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daphne__g
2010-03-25 01:26 pm UTC (link)

Daphne dismissed his comment about making him feel good. It was the truth! Would he rather she lie about what she was thinking? Daphne wasn't really known for sugar coating her honesty, even to her friends, she was blunt and honest and didn't care if it hurt their feelings or not. To be quite honest, Daphne was surprised that Dean put up with her so much, most of the people she spoke to on a regular basis get frustrated with her and walk away. Dean wasn't like that, he kept coming back no matter how annoying, or obnoxious her words were.

"It's hard to ignore it." She said quietly, arms crossing over her chest a bit child-like. Frowning slightly, she was becoming more and more frustrated. "I don't like being told what to do, I don't like being forced to feel things for one person, and then told not to feel things for another person. If Vaisey can snog that bint and not get in trouble, why can't I?" Why, indeed. When Nikolas was caught snogging Lucy, DAPHNE got in trouble. Her parents blamed her for not being the one that was kissing Nikolas in the library. It made no sense. She got along with Nikolas all right, she supposed... but she wasn't about to go off and snog him.

"What we should do is ignore it and forget it ever happened," Taking a step closer to her, her lips curled into a smirk, "but that's not what I want to do, and I always get what I want." A challenging glance was given to Dean. Spoiled brat, much?

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deanthomas
2010-03-26 02:38 am UTC (link)

Dean didn't really mind he blunt attitude, or the tendency toward caustic humor. If he minded that sort of thing really, then he'd never have liked her to start with. Maybe it was him romanticizing a pretty girl - but he liked to think that a lot of how she reacted was a cover for a softer side he saw crop up, now and then.

"Well, you can snog her, if you want. But she might not like birds, since she's snogging Vaisey," Dean answered. He smiled a little and shook his head.

He looked at her as she stepped in. "I don't always get what I want, Greengrass. And you say it now - but what about when your House finds out? Or your family? Your sister? Don't get me wrong, I'm a brilliant bloke. But am I worth the trouble you'd bring on yourself?" And possibly him, but Dean wasn't considering that as much.

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daphne__g
2010-03-26 03:17 am UTC (link)

"Sod," Daphne smacked him lightly as she smiled. "That's not what I meant, and you know it." Biting down on her bottom lip she fell very quiet as he began to reason with her.

Pulling her hand back, fingers laced behind her back. Taking a step back from him, gaze moved to look to the side. Clenching her jaw, she realized he was right. It made her feel down right horrid that he was right. She wasn't so concerned about what her house might say, but more about what her family would say. She was all ready toeing the line with them, they had certain expectations of her, and she wasn't following them.

Swallowing, she made sure to keep her gaze trained on the grass just to the side of them. She didn't know what to say to him, "You're right." What more could she say? Clenching her jaw once more, nails dug into the palm of her hand trying to think of something to say to him. "And all the trouble it would bring on to yourself as well." This wasn't fair!

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deanthomas
2010-03-26 04:08 am UTC (link)

"If she decides she wants to though, think I can watch?" Dean teased again, watching her pull her hands back, shrink away. Dean felt like a wanker for having brought the mood down. But he didn't want to get her hurt. And he could be reasonable. He could. No matter how pretty she was, or how well she snogged, or how often he thought of her.

"Yeah. . . I know I am. I just wish I wasn't," Dean admitted quietly. They could maybe sneak about. For a while. But things like that always got found out at Hogwarts. And Dean was pretty sure he'd get tired of that eventually, and start to resent it. He wasn't a secretive bloke. He could keep secrets when he had to, of course. But he didn't like hiding things. "My family doesn't give a toss who I date, or know what I do here, and my Housemates would think I was daf, but they wouldn't hate me for it. I don't think it's me who'd lose out over it, Daph." He really wanted to wrap an arm around her - she looked sad, and Dean was protective enough that he wanted to keep her from feeling that way. "So. . . where does that leave us, you think?"

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daphne__g
2010-03-26 04:55 am UTC (link)

She felt sad, she kicked herself inside for feeling this bloody upset. This, this was the exact reason why she just kept everyone at arms length. She hated putting herself out there just to end up hurt. Forget that Dean was probably not feeling too good at the moment either. Daphne felt so trapped, and so... confused. She hated this feeling and at the moment she just wanted to crawl back into her bed and forget any of this happened.

Gnawing on her bottom lip, Daphne unlaced her fingers from behind her back, and ran them through her hair. "I don't know." She replied quiet, running her fingers over her ear and just leaning her cheek against her hand. This wasn't fair, it wasn't fair that she was obligated to act a certain way, to date certain people, and pretend that her life was all daffodils and rainbows. She wasn't going to cry, no, Daphne wasn't really a crier. She was more upset and sad that this really couldn't go anywhere... but she wasn't going to cry over it.

"I don't know where it leaves us, Thomas." Dropping her hand from her cheek, she just crossed her arms over her chest once more. "I hate when things get so bloody complicated. This... this is why..." Allowing her voice to trail off, she turned her head to look towards the lake. This is why I don't allow myself to get close to anyone... is what she wanted to say, but even now she was trying to pull herself away from him and try to forget any emotions that she might feel for him. This was going to be hard, especially since she really didn't WANT to stop seeing him.

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deanthomas
2010-03-26 08:50 am UTC (link)

Logically, it left them in their own houses, with their own friends, and not sneaking off to snog or talk.

Logic bloody well sucked though, Dean thought. It wasn't what he wanted. "I'm sorry. . . really bloody sorry. I mean if things were different. . ." Dean sighed. "I'd be begging you for a date, Daph, and praying you said yes, yeah? It's not like I don't want to. It's just everything else." He couldn't resist reaching out to brush her hair back from her face again. "We can still talk and such. In the journals? No one can see then. And maybe we can just. . . say sod it sometimes and skeeve off somewhere, but just be careful and not. . . I don't know. Call it anything." Since they couldn't exactly exclusively date when it was secret, and she was supposed to marry someone and all.

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daphne__g
2010-03-27 11:00 pm UTC (link)

"Why are you sorry? You didn't do anything wrong." Huffing, she kept her gaze on the lake. Without the squid there to disrupt the water, it looked flat and like glass reflecting the sky above it. It looked calm and peaceful, just the way Daphne liked it.

"Yeah..." She said quietly, tilting her head just slightly against his touch. "Sure." She shrugged and took another step back. "I should probably be the one apologizing for allowing this to carry on as it did. I didn't mean to actually start developing feelings for you, and I didn't mean to kiss you in the first place, and I didn't mean to make things so bloody complicated." Crossing her arms over her chest once more, she laced her fingers into her shirt, attempting to comfort herself. She hated this feeling, she hated feeling so helpless and so confused and so useless. This was the exact reason why she avoided people in the first place, and why she guarded her feelings and emotions so heavily. She didn't like this feeling and this would likely force her to keep those emotions in check. It was easier to push everyone away then to deal with these feelings.

It wasn't likely that she would sneak off with him anymore to snog. Snogging led to feelings that she didn't want.

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deanthomas
2010-03-30 05:33 am UTC (link)

Dean cocked his head and smiled wistfully. "I'm sorry because I like you?" He was sorry it didn't work, that they couldn't just snog and hang out or date and see where it went. It wasn't fair. And even if it was the smarter thing to do, he was sorry she was unhappy.

"It wasn't just you. And I think I might have been the first one to kiss you anyway." Dean watched her fidget. It was unlike her, and like those little odd moments of vulnerability she displayed - strangely endearing.

He reached over to squeeze one of her fidgeting hands briefly, and then moved back. "So. . . I'll see you around?" he asked slowly, awkward too. They'd pretty much agreed not to do that, but Dean just. . . said it anyway.

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