[FILTERED TO FRIENDS (but not Caroline* and not family) + STEFAN]
[*sorry, Caroline, she learned from that mistake last time Klaus read over someone's shoulder!]
So, apparently part of the process is being honest with loved ones, so here I go.
I have an eating disorder. Specifically, I can't feed on blood. Ever since the Cage, I've been unable to keep any down. But, for the past few weeks I've been in therapy with Claire Callahan, a fact only a couple of people have known. I'm working on it. I don't know how long it'll take or anything, but apparently being open with people I trust is a way to help. Obviously, I'd appreciate it if this isn't common knowledge though.
Kol and Elijah have been amazingly supportive, and I'm so grateful to them both. And Stefan, well, Stefan has been my rock. I could not have managed any of this without him, he has gone above and beyond in the Supportive Husband stakes.
Also, so people are aware, Niklaus has decided he's disowning the rest of us and that he intends to have complete custody of Henrik. So there's that. He's made his decision and I'm not going to fight him on it.
[FILTERED TO STEFAN SALVATORE]
I have decided something. Apparently Niklaus is taking Henrik and Caroline to New Orleans. I've been spending the past few months trying to be here for other people, trying to make them happy and I want to get out of here. Not forever, because I have friends here, not to mention my therapist, but I'm going to take the vacation time I'm owed from work and I want to travel somewhere with you for a week. Maybe two if Claire thinks I'm okay to miss one session with her. What do you think? Shall we pack some things, take out some money and go to the airport and just take the next plane out of the country with free seats? See where that takes us, maybe travel some place else if we want, make it all up as we go along?
[FILTERED TO CLAIRE CALLAHAN]
I'm usually too emotional during our sessions to actually say anything, but thank you, for everything you're doing. It really means a lot to me.
[SENT ANONYMOUSLY TO DAVINA CLAIRE]
• Some classy notebooks and a pen set.
• A card with neat calligraphy writing: "For when school starts"